Being Borderline

borderline doesn’t equal destruction

[borderline-okay]

i can’t stop my episodes anymore

[thatbpdshark]

Little not so cute BPD things-

-uncontrollable fits of rage -screaming at everything -substance abuse -hypersexual!!! Sex repulsed!!! - I love/hate/love you! -do you love me??? Why haven’t you messaged me?? What have I done wrong?? -I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m so- -fuck off why the fuck are you even near me! Wait come back I didn’t mean it!!!! - self harming when distressed -self harming when bored - better put myself in dangerous situations!!!!! -they’ll finally notice me if I do this *insert potentially life-threatening situation here* -IM SO ANGRY IM GOING TO SMASH MY ROOM UP -I cannot do this basic task without constant motivation from Favourite Person -IMPRINTING!!!!!!! - I ADORE YOU!! FUCK OFF I HATE YOU!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!! FUC-

[sylviaplathquotes]

“Please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.”

— Sylvia Plath (via quotemadness)

[proudnb]

[cutespoonie]

the two bad fatigue moods:

gets super emotional, cries over the smallest things, empathetic™, can’t handle anything, irritable, overstimulated™, anxious

can’t feel anything, barely able to think, apathic™, can’t relate to anything, emptiness™, can’t cry, slow™, dissociating

[memes-to-show-my-therapist]

Literally my only two moods

[gross-toast]

Do you ever dissociate so hard your eyes unfocus???

[heavensghost]

I will let u in on a lil secret. i cannot accept the fact that i exist

[uneventfulness]

[borderline-okay]

don’t use alcohol like this; you’ll learn the hard way

[leafsea]

i felt like a hologram:

wherever i went, i was

never fully there

[heavensghost]

Billie Eilish - hostage

[quotemadness]

“Deep in her heart, she wasn’t sure she deserved to be happy, nor did she believe that she was worthy of someone who seemed…normal.”

— Nicholas Sparks

[giggle]

someone: but you don’t act like you have [insert mental illness]

me: consider this.. I try to internalize most of my symptoms so people don’t actually hate me

[not-a-pen-but-a-harpoon]

I don’t need anyone, I don’t need anyone, I just need everyone & then some.

Clementine by Halsey

[borderline-okay]

Today my new psych doctor started me on a mood stabilizer. I’ve never taken a mood stabilizer and I am slightly worried. If anyone wants to share their experiences that is perfectly welcome! I’m sure that it will be fine; I know some people need chemical help along with therapy. Also seeing as I am going through a break up, it might help me.

[surviving-life-with-bpd]

[astralcafes-deactivated20190620]

˖◛⁺ little reminders

⇢ your feelings are always valid

⇢ it’s okay to not feel good

⇢ you are worth much more than you know

⇢ there are people who love you so much

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

my life is worth living.

my life is worth living.

my life is worth living.

i plan to live it.