bored elle

[boredelle]

Hi!

I go by Elle here. She/Her. Over 21. I ask that minors DNI with anything that is NSFW. Hate of any kind is not tolerated. And lastly, Aaron Hotchner is the entire reason I'm on this site, but I do regularly post personal things including struggles with body image, grief, depression, and anxiety. Anything I've done is here. I don't proclaim to be a writer or creator, so.. 😅

Feel free to interact with me!

[chronicillnesshumor-deactivated]

[boredelle]

my daisy girl was struggling to breathe last week, so we rushed her to the vet and she was diagnosed with congestive heart failure and is now going to be on medication for the rest of her life. this girl came into my life right after my dad got home from the rehab hospital the first time he had cancer. she’s been with me through every single thing since. his multiple hospitalizations and recurrence, his death, my mom’s stroke, my year and a half fight with interstitial cystitis, our traumatic car accident.. everything. she never fails me, never leaves my side. I’m worried about her and as selfish as it sounds, I’m worried about me, because how am I ever going to find something or someone who will love me like she does?

[boredelle]

she goes back tomorrow, and I’m super scared. she seems to be doing better, but I really don’t know for sure. 😔

[boredelle]

my daisy girl was struggling to breathe last week, so we rushed her to the vet and she was diagnosed with congestive heart failure and is now going to be on medication for the rest of her life. this girl came into my life right after my dad got home from the rehab hospital the first time he had cancer. she’s been with me through every single thing since. his multiple hospitalizations and recurrence, his death, my mom’s stroke, my year and a half fight with interstitial cystitis, our traumatic car accident.. everything. she never fails me, never leaves my side. I’m worried about her and as selfish as it sounds, I’m worried about me, because how am I ever going to find something or someone who will love me like she does?

[boredelle]

can I say it? I feel like maybe I'm too old to think this way... but aaron hotchner really is my safe person. he exists in my mind, and when I feel like I am too much out here in the real world, he's where I find my home. and sometimes, he's all I have.

[hotchs-big-hands]

I hope this is okay to rb

I feel the same way. I rediscovered the show just before a really traumatic incident in my life and it was thru Aaron. He helped me thru that traumatic stuff and genuinely is the most important person to me, except for my girlfriend. There’s something rly special about him and just yeah, I get it.

[sreidahgirl]

I wanted to rb too …

I don’t think your never to old , anyways .. Aaron Hotchner is my safe haven , he lives rent free in my mind 24/7 always . I got a TG video for my birthday, which I got to tell him he was my idol in that he help me in so many ways when he played Aaron Hotchner , Hotch will always have a special place in my life , I told him I loved Hotch and he said that he loved playing Hotch , I don’t think he realizes how much of a fan base he really has to be honest maybe he does. But he’s amazing , if you guys haven’t seen love human an remains please do :) 💕…

[boredelle]

I love this! 🥹 And I agree; he is amazing!!

[boredelle]

can I say it? I feel like maybe I'm too old to think this way... but aaron hotchner really is my safe person. he exists in my mind, and when I feel like I am too much out here in the real world, he's where I find my home. and sometimes, he's all I have.

[hotchs-big-hands]

I hope this is okay to rb

I feel the same way. I rediscovered the show just before a really traumatic incident in my life and it was thru Aaron. He helped me thru that traumatic stuff and genuinely is the most important person to me, except for my girlfriend. There’s something rly special about him and just yeah, I get it.

[boredelle]

it’s more than okay. I really am grateful for others perspectives and people that *do* get it. I actually rediscovered the show right after my dad passed, and I was struggling with grief on top of everything else going on. I found solace in him. ❤️‍🩹

[boredelle]

nonononono I feel like my IC is flaring. like not BAD but 😔 it’s been a year at least. I hope I’m wrong.

[boredelle]

can I say it? I feel like maybe I'm too old to think this way... but aaron hotchner really is my safe person. he exists in my mind, and when I feel like I am too much out here in the real world, he's where I find my home. and sometimes, he's all I have.

[boredelle]

idk what this is but

I’m not okay. I’m really struggling. I feel like I’m drowning and I can’t keep my head above water. I don’t know who to go to or what to do. I’m alone.

[holoship]

[boredelle]

kinda wanna just hop on and ride off into the sunset

[boredelle]

anyway, a few things I want:

a manicure without feeling guilty that I spent the money

a pedicure also without feeling guilty that I spent the money

my brows threaded because it’s been literally years, and I’m tired of doing it myself because I’m not very good at it

the energy to color my roots

a deep tissue massage because you can feel knots from tension all over my back, neck, shoulders, and upper arms (and also because I seem to have a perpetual migraine lately)

a friend to go out with for literally just dinner or even coffee

therapy 😅

a hug

a man 😭

[boredelle]

yes, slipping on a wet floor and busting my knees AND my ass was exactly what I needed! adding insult to injury, Phoebe just came over to me and smelled of my head and then went on like she couldn’t be bothered.

[boredelle]

hi. 💜

[ssahotchnerr]

I love your Flustered!reader works!! Can you do something where Hotch is being sooo attractive and reader can't get enough? Maybe while they're on a case? Thank you ☺️

heat of the moment

cw; fem bau!reader, pining/no established relationship, aaron putting an agent in their place and doing so irresistibly 🥰❤️‍🔥

“Do you know where Hotch is?”

You caught sight of Emily as you passed through the bullpen, nearly tripping over your own hurried steps in your search for him. 

“Yeah, he just headed into Agent Jamison’s office.” She answered, gesturing in the general direction. “Around five minutes ago. Third door on the left.”

Flashing her a grateful smile, “You’re the best, thank you.”

With your file held close to your chest, you hurried across the precinct, heading down a small hallway as you exchanged brief acknowledgments and weaved through the different agents on the way. 

You'd just finished an interview with the most recent victim’s significant other, who casually dropped a detail that could break the case wide open. It wasn’t uncommon for key information to come out that way: unintentional, but invaluable. And it was definitely the kind of information Hotch had to be given right away. 

As you reached the barely ajar door, you could hear Aaron’s elevated voice coming from the inside. That, along with the tension radiating from the room, caused you to stop in your tracks. Remaining strictly out of sight, you listened in.

“-you’re also outranked by every member of my team.” Aaron stated firmly, his tone steady and unwavering.

This was clearly a private conversation, one you had no right to eavesdrop on, and your findings could certainly wait until he was finished. They were just findings, after all, not another murder. But you couldn’t bring yourself away - your heels stayed firmly where they were, as if they had been miraculously glued to the laminate flooring.

She scoffed, clearly offended by the notion that she was in any way subordinate, “what is that supposed to mean?”

“An agent using a case as a stepping stone for their own personal gain can be the thing to compromise the case, and deny justice to who actually matters: the victims.” Aaron snapped, his voice shifting to one of anger. You could easily picture the hardened expression that had to be on his face; his eyebrows drawn in a furious line, jaw detrimentally clenched as his cold glare dared her to rebuttal.

Heat erupted through your body, rushing up your spine and spreading beneath your skin.

You’d heard Aaron raise his voice before. Numerous times, at that. In elevated situations, at incompetent officers, at those who questioned his command or overstepped a line. But this was different, and it had a shocking, yet extremely welcomed effect on your body - it left you with a gentle yet satisfied hum. Addictive almost, you wanted - needed to hear more. 

Not that you were surprised by the fact that he was having such an effect on your body to begin with; it wasn’t the first time something similar had happened, it was standard territory when it came to having a crush. But this was different. Aaron had never sounded more attractive than he did right now.

“Everybody remembers the killer. Not the victims. An agent who’s more interested in selling good copy than they are in doing their actual job is exactly what the Bureau does not need more of. If that’s where you’re concerned, I suggest you start looking into a career as a tabloid journalist. Otherwise, you do the work the Bureau hired you to do.” His inflection was sharp, “Do you understand?

Your heart thumped wildly, his authority so profound goosebumps trickled across your arms. He wasn't showing her any mercy.

“What are you doing?”

Behind you, Dave’s voice came out of nowhere - causing you to nearly jump and jolt back to reality. His lips curled into a barely contained smirk, eyes glinting with amusement as he took in your reaction. 

How long had he been standing here? Or, how long had he known you’d been standing here? 

“Rossi, I was just,” you stammered, your cheeks flushing more profusely by the second. You swallowed, scrambling to organize your thoughts before they came out of your mouth, “I was just, I have a thing for Hotch. No, I mean, the victim’s partner-”

“I hear you, c’mon,” his hand found your shoulder, gently guiding you away in mortified silence. You had your suspicions that Dave had an idea about your crush, and you couldn’t be grateful enough that he didn’t say anything about it. “He’ll be all yours in a moment.”

[boredelle]

I’m so tired of crying every single day, multiple times a day.

[boredelle]

I love seeing my people happy. I am always rooting for them in every step of life. But when is it going to be my turn? Am I not worthy of the same happiness? Because every last ounce of hope I have is starting to crumble.

[boredelle]

I can't stop crying.

I think I am finally at the point where I can't do this anymore. I don't go looking for shit that's going to upset me. it's like it follows me. And I came across a video of someone big, and the comments about this persons weight were horrific to the point I just burst into tears and sobbed because I know that's how people see me, too.