Born2BeAFangirl

🏳️‍🌈24/Germany🏳️‍🌈

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[guitarplayermrs]

[abnormall]

[depression-took-over-my-liiife]

[zarathustra-would-be-proud]

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

I hate how easily I break down over the smallest things.

A single word, image, or sound is able to make me hate myself even more, and make me wish I wasn't here at all.

[sa-dnesss]

[sa-dnesss]

“This is the loneliest I have ever felt”

—

[brokenflicker]

something i realized over the years is that despite wanting to kill myself, i don't actually wanna die. far from it actually. i want to live. i want to experience all the things i always wanted to do. i want to see the world. i want to look in the mirror one day and say "im happy i stayed". i want to get better. i want to live a life free from the shackles this mental illness has kept me in. but sometimes that darkness in my brain just overtakes that hope for a better future and all i'm left with is the thought that it will never get better.

— i want to live, but not like this.

[sa-dnesss]

“My 20s have been the loneliest era in my life. I am surrounded by people but not connecting with anyone. Everyone is living their own lives while I am still waiting for mine to start. I feel lost between what I should be feeling and how I actually feel.”

—

[sa-dnesss]

“I feel like I am so far behind in life that I will never catch up. Everyone is doing so many things with their lives. I am just here. Frozen. I have been a ghost for years. I wonder if that is all I will ever be.”

—

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[amelia-kenneth813]

[love-letters-i-never-sent]

[silent-insanities]

One of the most painful experiences is realizing that love alone is not enough.

[hipsternerd9]

My nights were filled with thoughts of why wasn’t I good enough for you.

[iamnotatherapist]

Closing the chapter

The worst pain is being in no contact with the one person you’re still in love with, who at one point in time sent you texts that made your heart melt. Butterflies every time you saw them. And now you love them only in silence from a distance. Slowly being forced to close every chapter you never wanted to end. 📖