@borrowed--carbon--deact - Tumblr Blog

hello friends i am in the process of un-and-re-”liking”a bunch of posts to prepare to eventually delete this entire account.

so if you somehow weren’t already aware, you’ll now mostly find me at my new main!blog strange-grace.

(so if that account is suddenly “liking” a bunch of your stuff outtanowhere, well, here’s why. now you know.)

#i might self-reblog this one a few more times sorry #if you already know this shit feel free to unfollow this account!#strange-grace is still my most current incarnation!

borrowed--carbon--deact

it’s an incomplete way to hide this blog from the internet, but close enough for now. (until i find a way to export and save all the content i have on here.)

you’ll find me now at my new primary blog (strange-grace) or my new personal blog (exvocis).

going to queue this to post a few times over the next few days or so, just to make sure i’ve hit all my friends’ internet-usage-time-brackets, and i won’t be active here anymore beyond that point.

(probably going to change + re-hoard this url over on the other account too. just because. you never know.)

(still gotta figure out how to go about repurposing the stuff i want to keep from here, and recompartmentalizing a few things, but yeah. getting my online shit together! finally!)

#periodic notice

borrowed--carbon--deact

it’s an incomplete way to hide this blog from the internet, but close enough for now. (until i find a way to export and save all the content i have on here.)

you’ll find me now at my new primary blog (strange-grace) or my new personal blog (exvocis).

going to queue this to post a few times over the next few days or so, just to make sure i’ve hit all my friends’ internet-usage-time-brackets, and i won’t be active here anymore beyond that point.

(probably going to change + re-hoard this url over on the other account too. just because. you never know.)

(still gotta figure out how to go about repurposing the stuff i want to keep from here, and recompartmentalizing a few things, but yeah. getting my online shit together! finally!)

#periodic notice

borrowed--carbon--deact

it’s an incomplete way to hide this blog from the internet, but close enough for now. (until i find a way to export and save all the content i have on here.)

you’ll find me now at my new primary blog (strange-grace) or my new personal blog (exvocis).

going to queue this to post a few times over the next few days or so, just to make sure i’ve hit all my friends’ internet-usage-time-brackets, and i won’t be active here anymore beyond that point.

(probably going to change + re-hoard this url over on the other account too. just because. you never know.)

(still gotta figure out how to go about repurposing the stuff i want to keep from here, and recompartmentalizing a few things, but yeah. getting my online shit together! finally!)

#periodic notice

it’s an incomplete way to hide this blog from the internet, but close enough for now. (until i find a way to export and save all the content i have on here.)

you’ll find me now at my new primary blog (strange-grace) or my new personal blog (exvocis).

going to queue this to post a few times over the next few days or so, just to make sure i’ve hit all my friends’ internet-usage-time-brackets, and i won’t be active here anymore beyond that point.

(probably going to change + re-hoard this url over on the other account too. just because. you never know.)

(still gotta figure out how to go about repurposing the stuff i want to keep from here, and recompartmentalizing a few things, but yeah. getting my online shit together! finally!)

#this has been like a FOUR MONTH PROCESS why #it's hard to re-adjust when you start seeing these online spaces as extensions of/receptacles for important parts of Yourself #and i mean i'll overemotionally overconnect to anything and everything so #(many thanks to everyone who's refollowed me/still wants to be my friend! YOU'RE ALL COOL ILU)

borrowed--carbon--deact

ok this is where my new sideblog version of this blog is going to be.

still incoherent and halfassed bear with me.

borrowed--carbon--deact

reblogs for morning people! i’m getting my shit together!

EDIT: by “this blog” i mean “the personal ramblings and such that i don’t want on my new main blog.” so you don’t have to follow that one if you don’t want to!

#rebagels yet again #i've kindasorta whited out this blog now though tumblr is useless at hiding stuff #(literally everything offers more privacy options than tumblr)

consolecadet replied to your post “ok this is where my new sideblog version of this blog is going to be....”

I misread that as 'still an incoherent and halfassed bear'

see this is why punctuation is important.

#consolecadet #i laughed

borrowed--carbon--deact

ok this is where my new sideblog version of this blog is going to be.

still incoherent and halfassed bear with me.

borrowed--carbon--deact

reblogs for morning people! i’m getting my shit together!

EDIT: by “this blog” i mean “the personal ramblings and such that i don’t want on my new main blog.” so you don’t have to follow that one if you don’t want to!

ok this is where my new sideblog version of this blog is going to be.

still incoherent and halfassed bear with me.

#i'm very tired and have a limited idea of what i'm doing lol #but yes thing is a thing

me: *feels bad about everything forever regardless of whether or not it is my fault*

(me, if i like something someone else dislikes: HAHA YOU ARE A DESPICABLE HUMAN BEING GO CRY IN A GUTTER SOMEWHERE.)

#no matter how self-assured i seem in my opinions otherwise #this is always happening

OK THIS IS GETTING CONFUSING AND I’M OVER IT; I’M GOING TO MOVE MY PERSONAL!BLOG TO A SIDEBLOG OF NEWBLOG TODAY STAY TUNED.

#i can't keep track of liked posts or conversations or anything on two accounts lol #i am not smart enough for this it is messing up my life

.

#sometimes i think i want A Relationship again #but then i realize it's more just that i want A Friend Circle + Time to Socialize With Them again #and/or I'm Just Really Bored #(since meda told me okcupid has an asexuality option i've thought about making an account tbh)#(at very least just so i can laugh at annoying messages)#(but the SHAME BRICK TO THE FACE that would cause is still too much)#(like ordering delivery food or going on a road trip it still feels like a thing i'm Not Allowed to Do b/c Not Adult)

- woke up this morning freaking out that i actually have to MOVE by june 1st and I AM NOT PREPARED. - narrowed down my list of potential apartment listings. drove around in order to look at neighborhoods and such. - they’re all nice and none seem sketchy or broken down or anything (though one is on a super busy road and might be loud, idk.) - so today/tomorrow i want to write down 1) a list of requirements/questions to ask these people about, and 2) a list of stuff i have to collect for the application process (bank statements, paystubs, references, etc etc). - then monday i can START ACTUALLY CALLING THEM I GUESS. - how did i do this whole thing before??

PEOPLE AROUND MY AGE ARE HAVING CHILDREN THIS IS WEIRD.

#someone i know from around here just made a facebook status about being pregnant #and my first thought was 'what the fuck that's not good why are people congratulating her'#but then i realized this is a thing people in their mid twenties sometimes do..?#wtfwtfwtf

UPDATES:

- this week was long and i was barely home, hence the lack of internetting. - met new chicago coworker for the first time and much as i suspected she’s totally nice and i’m feeling better since this was confirmation that she’s not terrifying or out to get me fired. - she and my normal two coworkerfriends and i all went out for drinks last night and took Stereotypical Bar Selfies and it was awesome. - but i’ve been brainfoggy and generally not-100% all week most likely because hormonefuckery strikes again. so that’s annoying. - this weekend needs to be APARTMENTSEARCHQUEST: FOR REALS THIS TIME. - blah.

#being tired all the time is boring!!!#brain why u do this

#this is an angst + wine post plz ignore #time for sleeeep

friends,

if any of you ever feel unaccomplished or like you won’t make it in the Real World, i’d like to tell you that i am currently feeling SUPER ACCOMPLISHED AND SUCCESSFUL because i managed to actually put sheets on my bed.

i have slept on my own couch for the past two nights due to being too lazy to finish the clean laundry process.

all adults are terrible at being adults. it is ok.

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