Update after four years.
Hello, Tumblr! I was so happy when I finally remembered my password here. I miss posting my daily life but I’m more active on twitter now. Back then, you were my safe place but things changed since 2016, my online best friend.
So, I guess I’ll start with myself. I’m a fifth year student studying architecture and working on my flower themed thesis, which apparently being ignored right now. I can’t remember if I ranted about my early college life here but I had so much stress and fun (and okay more mental breakdowns haha) doing plates, projects, cramming on submissions and many more.
I can now trust people again and be myself with my friends. You know what? You had me at the most unstable part of my life, you witnessed how sad, insecure, toxic and vulnerable I was as a teenager. However, I’m coming back right now as someone who finally has self love and more maturity instilled on her soul.
Currently, I’m just staying inside the house for almost two months because of COVID-19. Never in my whole life have I imagined the world to turn out like this and I actually miss going out. Today, ABS-CBN shut down too. A very out of context information for the update but what the hell is the government really thinking? Wait, do they even have enough brain cells to think? I despise the government together with their lack of attention and support to the Filipino people in times of pandemic. I just hope better things come our way.
Moving on with something that I love, I managed to visit two foreign countries for my educational tour in architecture. On May 2018, I visited South Korea and boy I fell in love with the country. We visited so many places, had soooo much fun and pictures, sneaked every night to just have a walk around the hotel with my friends, ate a lot of authentic Korean food and many more. We even managed to take pictures on one of the locations of “Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo”. I really had so much fun and all of my college best friends are there too. I actually miss them right now. On May 2019, I visited Japan. It was my first time going to Disneyland so I really bought the Minnie Mouse headband. I had a great time there and my shopping buddy is so good that we managed to visit and buy at all stores. I think we need to be at the meeting place by 5 or 6 p.m. but we made it a minute before the said time. I still lurk around the area every night with my friends and tbh I miss it too as much as I miss the other country. I got to buy disposable films too! So cute. I also won a cute corgi stuffed toy on the night before Oreo’s birthday at Sega (which I don’t really want to go to at first).
Hmm, I also have a dog that owns the corgi toy I won. Oreo is the best thing that happened in our life and I love this Sir Senyorito Prinsipe Oreowi so much. He’ll celebrate his third birthday on May 10! The first birthday that I am actually at his side. He’s a black Shih Tzu Poodle tough dog but is really a softie who loves belly rubs and kisses. I love this baby boy so much.
In relation to my previous posts here, I still have contact with some of my highschool friends with Jovy and Kayle being the closest to me right now. Now I can finally say that they are my bestfriends (thanks to me remembering my password and seeing a post from 7-8 years ago hahahahahaha). If I could just combine these girls with my college besties, I would because they would totally jive with one another. I miss my friends so much. I hope they will renew their friendship to me every year!
I think I also owe you an update about Sam. We broke up finally (after so many attempts hahaha). We both managed to move on and that wasn’t so hard as I expected it to be. I saw some of our messages here and posts at my old instagram account, which btw I also just remembered the password, and there are no lingering feelings anymore since it has already been three years since we broke up. I think we talked for a few months after the break up but I honestly can’t remember if it has been three or four years honestly hahahahaha.
There are so many things that happened while I was away. I became a blink! Blackpink really makes me so happy and I love them so much. It was just sad because I started stanning them after my South Korea tour so I slipped my chance on buying merchandise there. Hahahahaha. Kpop merch really are pricey but that’s how I show my support to them. They are also having their comeback next month and I couldn’t be more excited. Btw, my bias is Jennie but I love Jisoo, Rosé, Lisa as much as I love Jennie too! I also came to their concert last year and I was alone! Blackpink made me brave. I made a friend there and we’re still talking every now and then. I love Blackpink so much I made a stan account for them at twitter hahahaha.
As the end of this update is near, I miss my old friends here. I miss getting and giving them fan mails and encouraging messages. I miss anonymous messages that really made my Tumblr journey fun. I didn’t get to know that person, but I realized it was for the better. I may have a hunch of who he was and he may have a hunch of who I am before but it’s alright things didn’t work out because I hope we both are in better situations right now.
Tumblr, I am now in bliss. My past posts are full of sadness and toxicity but as I was away all of it were washed away. My heart has never been this peaceful as the meadows. I can finally look in the mirror and see love in my eyes for myself, a thing I was having a hard time to do before. Years ago, I thought I was ready for commitments but I realized I was too young back then. Now, I only want my next lover to be a man who honors God and loves Him more than he loves me.
love,
CT.
