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OrNah.2.

10/12/16

I kind of feel like im in highchool again, trying to get the attention of some boy that i like. Calling them to see whats up, texting them seeing how their day is you know trying to force conversation for conversations ske but this time instead of some boy in my math class its my own boyfriend.

People make mistakes, but i think there’s a limit on how long you hold them to their mistakes. it hurts i feel lonely all over again, i thought i left all that baggage behind that i ws ready to be all shiny and new and fixed, now all i feel is broken used and well un-shiny.

i feel so alone again i feel as if theres so many times you can tell your heart to be still everythings fine youve gotten through this before youll get through it again, but how do you fix something when the person you want to talk to you is avoiding all calls acting as if you dont exist? do i exist for you? do you still love me? i feel like a loser calling you over and over again to talk when you simply dont care.

biggest question now is how long do i wait?

Literally i reccommend this to anyone who been left behind,

#miel #past future #punjabi #sunnyvik #sentisong #desi

Friendship.

is such an odd thing, how people can go from being your world to ignoring you when a mistake is made. Its infuriating when people say they care more than life than go ahead and ignore you when they`re not happy with you. its foolish and stupid and annoying.

How rude.

Theres a limit to being rude your girlfriend, you can get away with alot but flat out being rude over things she cant control is mean. Somtimes i feel as if i care more than you which bothers me because dont want to pull back but its hard when youre hurt to keep smiling, i dont know i dont want to give up when the going gets tough but how much longer can i be a trooper for? for all the fellas out there remember words hurt.

#done rude boyfriend rude love relationships

New Chapter

Well things have changed since the last time i was on here. I ended a 1 1/2 year relationship with my ex because it was going no where FAST. Got into another relationship with a boy who worships my body & soul but due to religious parent are finding it hard to tie the knot (early but hes a good one!) what else ohh yeah and my friends are mad at me but what else is new. Lets start with ending things with Mr. x

Now things with Mr. X were interesting, he was the first boy who i really ever paid any attention to after i broke up with he who shall not be mentioned or Voldemort for short. I think the only reason i gave him a shot was because i was grieving the death of my bestfriend and he was there during all the pain so i thought he was a good one, mean i know but hey its the truth, so skip a year forward we”re happy i give him my v-card and things are looking good so i ask him the big question “what are your furture plans?” alot of great things but one thing missing ME. so i play it cool but give or take 6 months i call it quits, or he does depending on who you ask, sad but were great friends who now gripe on our currents together so were good. the end. On to the new one..

Mr. J : (because im low-key OBSESSED with the joker [[dont get it twisted this was waay before suicide squad & jared letos rendition but onn with the story]]). So this is actually how we met, We got scheduled to do an event together (were both in the party planning bis) from there on after many arguments & laughs we hit it off became fast friends. Fast Forward 10 or so events later were getting closer calling eachother texting and so fourth. Here comes our 12\13th event and he tells me “I Love you” i laugh and walk away saying “when you mean it say it” he looks me dead in the eye & says “Ms. Es i do” and thats when everything changed i no longer saw this man as a friend he became something more with kisses * other things Cough Cough. ill go into further details later just know we fight he drives me crazy but i love him & hes mine :)

Friends : Fuck it, drama happens people need to move on bas. (thats it)

#love exs heartbreak happy relationships friends basthatsit

I'm so tired of mean girls getting the perfect guys, they take you for your money, use you as a personal bank account yet you still love her, but when you meet a girl who gives you love, wants to give you someone to come home to magically she becomes replaceable as if shes lacking something. Tell me what is she lacking when shes asks you how your day went? what is she lacking when she celebrates your birthday even though you forgot hers? what is she lacking when you come home to a warm meal & bed? Tell me what is she lacking when she sees her whole world in you but you just see another notch on your bed post. Im tired of wanting to be your everything when im just something youre using to pass the time with until someone better comes along, she may be what you want but ill always be what you need.