for @boysxwillbe - based on
Parker loved his best friend, he really did, and he loved living with him, but there were times where he could really drive Parker off of the wall. Leaving a couple of dishes in the sink was one thing, forgetting laundry day was one thing–but Parker running into an awkward encounter with his best friend’s most recent hookup in the kitchen to make breakfast? That was a whole other thing.
As he fought through the small talk through gritted teeth and a fake smile, Parker couldn’t help but wonder if this was the best plan for him. He was living in a decent apartment that was close to his work, sharing a two-bedroom with his best friend he had known since high school. The rent was affordable, it came with a washer and dryer, and it gave them nice living space so that if they were sick of each other, they each had their own personal areas.
It didn’t seem like a bad idea at first, but the more they hung out together, the more conflicted feelings Parker started to slowly have towards his best friend. For instance, there was an odd twist in his stomach and a tug at his heart when he saw his best friend’s hookup, seemingly unbothered by his presence and looking flawless and all. It made Parker almost immediately lose his appetite at the thought of this person spending the previous night with his best friend.
Sighing, he went over to friend’s bedroom, knocking on the door. “Hey, sleeping beauty,” he called out. “It’s rude to keep a guest waiting. Come on!”
“What? No, he was just - he was just leaving, he said,” Jake groaned, only half awake. Truth be told, last night’s hookup was just that - a hookup. He and the guy (Trent? Kent? Whatever.) had agreed upon that before Jake had brought him home. It was starting to become more of a habit of Jake’s. Suffer through the week and on Friday night find someone to help him relieve some tension, rinse and repeat. But when Parker came knocking at the door, he got that familiar pang in his chest.
Jake had figured it out by now - he wasn’t stupid. He knew that over time he had fallen in love with Parker. Stupidly, hopelessly, completely fallen in love with Parker.
He also knew that he had no chance in the world of being with him.
They had been friends - best friends - for so long, almost a decade. Surely, if Parker ever had feelings for him, he would have shown it by now, right? Even if Jake had somehow mustered up the courage to tell Parker how he felt, he would be risking everything. Ten years of trust and friendship would be gone. And that was kind of why Jake had started hooking up with guys in the first place.
With his romantic tension also came sexual tension. He knew he shouldn’t be having these thoughts about Parker - it’d probably scare him away if he ever found out. But instead of trying to suppress the feelings all together, he tried to expend them.
Unfortunately, there was substitute for his romantic feelings. He couldn’t fuck his love away. Instead, he just suffered in silence. Yay.
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