Screaming Into The Void

This is where my thoughts go to die.

[bpdafterhours]

Wise words from my therapist:

You are not responsible for managing his reaction to your honesty. If he gets defensive, that's his pattern, not your failure.

[bpdafterhours]

I'm about to deactivate everything and disappear

[bpdafterhours]

Just gonna cry it out.

[bpdafterhours]

Leaving this here as a reminder to myself.

[bpdafterhours]

I'm upset but you don't care. Nobody does. Nobody cares to notice. Nobody cares to check on me. Nobody makes time for me. I'm always given a repsonse of I can't promise this or that when I make time for others and change my schedule constantly. Why am I always the one making changes and sacrifices?

[bpdafterhours]

Just once I'd like for my romantic requests or scenarios to be reciprocated. I know love languages are different per person but damn. I just want a little romance 🥺 😕

[bpdafterhours]

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[bpdafterhours]

How does one tell their S/O that they don't want them to FIX something they don't want a resolution, they just want to vent without someone trying to fix it or discredit their anxiety over something? Asking for a friend.

[bpdafterhours]

I'm not a tough girl. My heart drops to my stomach everytime someone I love seems off. I'm always in fight or flight. stress over things I can't control. I feel guilt for not doing enough.

[bpdafterhours]

Sometimes I just want to be sad and scroll. Not horny sad and scroll. Fucking hell.

[8nin]

"Ur so chill" thanks i gave up

[vollzeitherz-deactivated2026012]

How do I delete myself and everything I’ve ever said from other people’s minds?

[oncce-againn]

Detaching instead of crashing out>>>

[bpdafterhours]

I just know me even saying what I just said is going to ruin the rest of the evening, because I'm always at fault. I always have to be a problem. Why can't I just be normal.

[bpdafterhours]

Just almost threw up and tasted blood in the process? No surprise it's also linked to us arguing

[bpdafterhours]

What's killing me is if I were there we'd be actually spending your birthday together instead of me watching you stream and being a third party to a conversation I wasn't even invited to.

[bpdafterhours]

Just because I understand it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt any less.