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henry. xviii. 🇵🇭🇨🇳 « i'm just suffering without being able to actually die. » [about]

[coldtongue]

“you’re so polite!” thanks, I am afraid of you.

[ptsdeer]

Fun lil’ childhood trauma things!

Being angry at your younger self for not disclosing the trauma

Fantasizing about going back in time and telling someone

Petty jealousy towards kids that did disclose and got help

All the self-blame all the time!

Did that happen or is it just a bitterly twisted false memory?

Random anger at adults around you for NOT NOTICING WHEN IT WAS SO FUCKING OBVIOUS 

Feel free to add your personal faves to this list!

[never-not-ever]

[screenshotsofdespair]

[ifimhereitsacryforhelp]

Dear childhood stuffed animals

I'm so so sorry. I was just trying to process what had been done to me. It breaks my heart that I touched you the way they touched me. I wish I could go back and love you again, take away some of what I did, but just the sight of you reminds me too much of things I'd rather forget. I'm sorry

[traumafilth]

vague abuse mention tw ? idk man its abt my trauma / im feeling bad. (png from @transparebcy)

[heidiamiraa]

do you ever just feel like your life is too fucked up and there’s no way to get over the past trauma and mistakes no matter what so you just want to start your life all over again to have a clean slate.

[it-wasnt-that-bad]

me to myself at 3 am, lying in my own bed choking back sobs and silently shaking: this is purely performative, you know. You're being theatrical and now you've managed to get yourself worked up and hysterical enough to think it might be genuine, all because you want to feel sorry for yourself.

[alittlelifenovelquotes]

“The word no, so short, so easy to say, a child’s sound, a noise more than a word, a short exhalation of air: all he had to do was part his lips, and the word would come out, and—and what?”

A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara

Part V: The Happy Years. Chapter 2, pg. 488

[traumacoyote]

anyone else thought they were so cool as a kid cause they were into sexual adult things and weren’t like their other, “immature” peers, but really they were just hypersexual as a reaction to sexual trauma

[patricianandclerk]

There is a fanvid about Gabriel on youtube called Hustler I hope you saw it it's hilarious.

he’s so hot and so STUPID

[jodiefoster]

james baldwin  rené magritte sufjan stevens william faulkner  virginia woolf anne sexton 

[still-wilting-deactivated202002]

random person: *is nice to me*

my brain immediately: have sex with them have sex with them have sex with them just offer them your body already

[thingstotellthem]

you ruined meeeeee you killed me i was supposed to be a completely different person and that persons dead because of you

[silentsecretblof]

Stomach: when’s lunch?

Me, mid drag of a cigarette: fucking what?

[20012001]

[realisticrecovery-deactivated20]

trauma is a physical feeling in my brain. it isn’t ‘feeling a bit bad’. it feels like sth is rotting in the back of my head. it feels like a bruise and when you touch it my whole body is in pain. it’s terrible and words can’t describe it at all.