lyin' on the ground

fox's bpd sideblog.

[bpdjohnnyboy]

Yanno I'm tired of being tired and sore

[bpdjohnnyboy]

You ever get real excited about something and then something else happens and your excitement about pops like an overfilled balloon, leaving you deflated and apathetic

[bpdjohnnyboy]

Why is it always (redacted game name)??? I introduce someone close to me to it and suddenly they get obsessed to the point of me not wanting to hear about it for another year??

I'm not mad that they like it, I'm stoked they do! It's the quick building obsession to the point it's the only thing they want to talk about now is what's poking me

[bpdjohnnyboy]

Long Distance Romance Fucking Sucks And I Guess I Never Learn :)

[bpdjohnnyboy]

Me: am I being ghosted

Me: is this how it ends

Me: I deserve this

[bpdjohnnyboy]

:(

[bpdjohnnyboy]

Oh Damn Welcome Back Y'all

Being overworked and being super depressed has brought back a lot of symptoms I was managing

[bean-pd]

when people with bpd talk about their mood going from ecstatic and euphoric to completely suicidal in 3.7 seconds we’re not exaggerating. the other day i was in one of the best moods i’d had in weeks, months and one small argument w one person at work literally sent me in such a downward spiral that i relapsed and cut and wanted to end my life. we’re not joking when we talk about this and if you don’t have bpd please don’t reblog our posts and add things like “omg so relatable” bc it’s hell. this isn’t some trend or whatever

[bpdjohnnyboy]

I fucking HATE BPD. I WANT TO DIE. I-- JJHFFF. It doesn't matter how many other people tell me they love what I'm doing. If the Person I'm Trying To Please doesn't give a shit none of it fucking matters! And they aren't even my FP! hhhhbbghjbhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[dysphoria-thing-of-the-day]

Dysphoria thing of the day

Me: *feels physical sick when I look in the mirror*

Me: *looks at hips or chest and and wants to curl up and hide under the covers and cry*

Me: *feels like I’ve been punched in the face when some says I’m a “pretty girl” and feels nauseated*

Also me: but what if I’m just faking this for attention!?!???

[alesbianvampire]

“But antidepressants changes your brain chemistry!”

[bpdjohnnyboy]

I just love it when *clutches fist* my antidepressants make me puke

[emanuelee]

I’m very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very tired.

[bpdjohnnyboy]

Boy am I Salty

[messy-beautiful-grace]

you know what really grinds my gears?

when advice like

“Drink water”

“Set goals!”

“Exercise”

“Do things you enjoy!”

and related suggestions are completed written off by many people with a mental illness, especially on this site. IF YOU’RE PISSED, STAY WITH ME FOR A MOMENT.

these things ARE NOT EASY. i know because i’m there! BUT evidence based (AKA PROVEN TO HAVE SUCCESS IN SOME INDIVIDUALS) therapeutic styles like DBT (dialectical behavior therapy) have entire lessons / foundational aspects based on advice like this. examples:

Emotion Regulation: accumulating positive emotions, short term

Examples include eating, sleeping, laughing, exercising, etc

Emotion regulation: accumulating positive emotions, long term

Examples include identifying values, setting goals, planning action steps

PLEASE skills: taking care of your mind by taking care of your body

PL = Physical illness: take care of body, see doctor, take meds

E = Balance Eating: don’t eat too much or too little, eat regularly and mindfully. stay away from foods that make you overly emotional

A = avoid mood altering substances = no drugs and limited alcohol use

S = balance sleep: try to get 7-9 hrs, or whatever makes you feel your best, keep consistent sleep schedule

E = exercise: do some sort of exercise every day. try to build up to 20 min a day

i literally could go on for so long with more examples. the point is: these things aren’t easy. we talk about that all the time in my DBT class. one of the first points to all of these is to “avoid avoiding” and gives tools to help you avoid, avoiding these helpful activities. they won’t change your life overnight but you can increase positive experiences and slowly, overtime create a life worth living (aka the basis of DBT)

don’t write off these things because the person suggesting it doesn’t understand how much harder it is for you. FRIEND I️ KNOW ITS HARD but your life is worth living and you deserve to know that. you and your body deserve these basic things that care for both your mind and body.

[bpdjohnnyboy]

sour sour sour sour sour

[fitness01993]

Things they don’t tell you about top surgery

- Talk to the surgeon about the size you want your new areolas/nipples (don’t be afraid to ask)

- Numbness. No one talks about this for guys who are about to have surgery. You’re going to be numb all in your chest area, especially where the incisions were. They cut nerves as they pass along your chest, and it can take up to a year to regenerate those nerves. Still, feels super foreign for the first two weeks

- Make your bed into a pillow chair, body pillow, two on each side, and two for your head. 

- Sleep alone. I tried to sleep with my girlfriend and it was miserable. You really do need the entire bed for yourself

- Go on Groupon, & get yourself a 10 foot lightning cable iPhone charger, BEST THING EVER, can reach from wherever you are

- Don’t take a week off from work, take two. You will regret the one week, and love the extra time

- When they say “don’t move too much, even after the first week”. LISTEN. I moved way too much and got so sore super quickly. 

- Drink lots of water & eat if your taking the pain medication, otherwise your stomach feels super funky.

- Get stool softeners, & don’t be afraid to take those babies. Don’t wait a week to poop. you’ll surely regret it. 

- The drains are scary & they may hurt while draining or rewrapping your dressings, but once they come out, the second they do, its no more pain, its crazy. 

i hope this helps someone, because i wish i knew all of this when i was having mine a month ago. Looking back its like everyone forgets all the real negatives, its a great experience, & i healed very well & quick compared to most, but the first few days are crazy. They hurt, suck but it gets better. 

[fitness01993]

To the few guys I know having surgery this week!

[sabertoothwalrus]

-the headache you get a couple days after the surgery because the anesthesia is leaving your body hurts 200 times more than the surgery itself. And even that isn’t too bad.

-after a week or, you ITCH. It’s awful. Try not to touch your stitches too much. An ice pack will help.