not a fun place

JD he/she vent blog ((ic vent blog for skagass)) ((ooc following is ok)) ((your muse can only see this blog if they found it through a reblog or Jack gave the url))

[braintrauma-blog1]

It probably tastes terrible and he's sparing my feelings..

[denzelle]

it’s so scary feeling like you manipulate everyone who loves you just by being Extremely Sad and them noticing it… like… im so sad a lot of the time and i dont want other people to be trapped by that sadness

[denzelle]

constantly going “am i being Sad too loudly? am i being Sad too obviously? is this manipulative?” even while in the middle of a crisis

[intrusivethoughtsgeneral]

:3

[braintrauma-blog1]

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry

[braintrauma-blog1]

I'm gonna start actually crying and it's all because this kid on my dash keeps talking about hownhecant die and will prove it Kid n o God please..

[braintrauma-blog1]

Oh. Oh wow.

[braintrauma-blog1]

But anyway Kicks leg up I feel okay right now and I love my cat. Which. I still think mom shouldn't have surprised me with and should have warned me she was getting a cat...... But.. Anyway.

[braintrauma-blog1]

Basically I feel like I like a lot of people but don't actually know if it's true? It might be but. I don't know?? I feel like I do genuinely like people but too quickly and unrealistically? Shrug. Infatuation is quick with me but genuine love takes a while I guess.

[braintrauma-blog1]

"The urge to seduce people you aren't attracted to" is such a huge one

[histrionicole-blog]

BAD HISTRIONIC FEELINGS!!!!!

when people DATE or have FEELINGS FOR EACH OTHER (and one of the people isnt u!!!!!)

your original content going ignored

hell, even stuff you reblogged going ignored 

seeing selfies with thousands of notes

especially the selfies of other histrionic people with thousands of notes

when people share your astrological sign, or any aspect of your personality really, because you have to be Unique

having boring days

waking up and having no blog activity since last night 

waking up and seeing no new skype messages, texts, kik messages, etc!

being around people who arent attracted to you!!!!!!!

the urge to seduce people you are not attracted to!

when someone asks you to like/reblog in the tags, and you want to to Help Out Your Fellow Histrionic, but they already have significantly more notes than you do and you feel like you would be contributing to your own Lack Of Attention

PEOPLE SPEAKING OVER YOU 

PEOPLE IGNORING YOU WHEN YOU TALK

when someone else gets more laughs than you do 

trying to take on leadership positions that you dont want just because it means people will look at you/pay attention to you

when it feels better to be totally alone than it does to be with people who like someone else more than you 

when you exaggerate or flat out lie for attention

wondering how much of your life is a lie 

wondering how many people know you’re a liar

“attention wh*re”

when someone who has/had had a crush on you stops having a crush on you

sharing a birthday with someone you know

“i don’t understand what you just said”

“calm down”

“hey, can you leave for a minute? x and I need to talk privately” BECAUSE OBVIOUSLY ITS ABOUT YOU 

lapses in activity, even if they’re temporary

“i made this post 25 SECONDS AGO why doesnt it have AT LEAST 10000000 NOTES?!?!?!?!?!”

“you like x? [deriding comment]” // having to change your personality/interests/appearance just to appeal to other people

[histrionic-jenny-pizza]

What do you mean every negative emotion experienced by those around me isnt my fault

[braintrauma-blog1]

I seem to prioritize romantic love and obsess over it and it's really not healthy. I know that. Someone shows any interest at all in me and I'm all over them. I've always been like this. I stalked kids I liked as a child. I was very unhealthy and still am. I'm not really trying to make others feel bad but. I guess I want them to know that I'm sorry and... I want to get better.

[braintrauma-blog1]

Iiiiii sure love being unable to do fucking anything and sobbing and screaming into pillows AMAIZNG

[braintrauma-blog1]

I just thought about how I flirt a lot usually on accident and how I get crushes in literal seconds and I hate myself oh boy

[bewiubciueniocneoiheroihreoerfn]

im kinda clingy yo like…why you take ten minutes to reply. I missed you. Get back here.

[braintrauma-blog1]

I didn't wanna wake you up My love was never gonna be enough So I took my things and got outta the way now "Why didn't you wake me up? I'm pretty sure I would have told you to stop Let's try again Let's say goodbye Goodbye to yesterday"

[braintrauma-blog1]

If one more person tells me "just talk to them about your problems" I'm going to actually start eating my fingers slowly while I stare wide eyed with a smile into the sky