I am a survivor of child sexual abuse, and still healing. When I was 3 years old, my grandmother who is my legal guardian, sent me to North Carolina to live with a friend. Her friend had 2 kids, a son and daughter both older than me. Her son who was 11 at the time, used to say things to me that made me feel uncomfortable. I remember one time being in the bathroom with the daughter and son, and he was trying to make me take off my clothes but I said no! Being so young I don’t remember a lot, but I do remember the night he raped me. I was sleeping one night and felt something inside of me, and I woke up to him sexually abusing me. I didn’t know what was going on, but I knew it wasn’t right. I didn’t scream or fight back though. I couldn’t, because I was still trying to process what was even going on. After he was finished, he just went back to sleep as if nothing happened. When I was 4, I was shipped back to New York to live with my grandmother. My god mother lived above us, and at age 5 while I was upstairs at her house, her boyfriend tried to rape me. I remember these details vividly. I remember my surroundings. I remember what was on the TV, and I remember him trying to force himself in me. And then he stopped and shook his head, like he knew what he was doing was wrong. He is now a registered sex offender, for abusing his own daughters. The worst part is there were rumors about him touching his daughters was before he actually got charged, yet I was still trusted around him. I was 9, the third and final time I was assaulted. This time by a female cousin, who was visiting for the summer. We were playing board games in the living room, when all of a sudden she started undressing. She began to touch me, and attempted to make me give her oral. I never told anyone, until I told a friend at age 18. At age 20, I told my boyfriend, and he encouraged me to tell my grandmother. My grandmother didn’t believe me. She brushed it off, and told me that maybe in deserved it! My support system now is my boyfriend of 2½ years. He’s the most supportive person I have, and is helping me throughout the healing process and speaking up. @tellsomebodymovement https://www.instagram.com/p/CmNlQwpuWdV/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
