the past days, i haven’t really been listening to music. however, today’s the one exception. have you ever given “never on the day you leave” by john mayer? it’s a lot relatable right now haha...
but the most relatable pieces of lyrics there are:
“Love grows in the time it's been
Since you last heard her sing
She'll cut her hair and move somewhere
She don't owe you anything“
- you never really moved because of all this but you know haha you don’t owe me anything. i just finished my one of my reflections(i voice recorded it haha i hope thats okay.. i just think its much more genuine) today, and uh... yeah i tried putting myself in your shoes. no one will ever understand why you were mad at me... but i do. i’d be mad at me too... i owe you the world and my word.
“She'll fight for you like hell
Then force herself to like some other man “
- you’re one of a kind... you don’t have to blame yourself for not trusting me. you fought hard for that. you fought to trust me but i understand why you have trust issues with me... and especially that time when you chatted the class about that rumor you know who was spreading... i never told you but i really really want to thank you for defending me... and all those other times... thank you. i understand why you feel betrayed... at least i think i understand.. then there’s that 2nd line haha yeah the details are in the voice recording haha
“That you remember Christmas Eve
And all the things you miss about her crazy family “
- i always loved going out with ur fam. i was shy at first (maybe still a little shy) but i liked being part of your family... broken family but it still felt like family to me... the background doesnt matter haha
there’s still so many things i wanna say but im pretty drained haha
there is one more song that i relate with (guess what? john mayer again ahhahaa):
that’s pretty much understandable isnt it haha
everythings on hold... i havent watched superstore, doctor who, even the gc has been silent for the past few days, im still saving for a trip with you... i’ve been alone mostly for today and yesterday.. i still hope we can get back together haha dont think about it yet haha just wait till youre back yk?
im emotionally drained haha