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LIKE for a starter from Evan Hansen from Dear Evan Hansen

#open starter #musical rp #theatre rp #deh rp #dear evan hansen rp #evan hansen #//cuz this blog is deaaad #broadway rp

love, simon → sentence starters

slightly edited in some cases to work for rp purposes. features quotes from Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda as well. feel free to change phrasing or pronouns to fit your muse(s)!

❝ I’m just like you. ❞

❝ I have one huge-ass secret. ❞

❝ Nobody knows I’m gay. ❞

❝ Sometimes I feel like I’m stuck on a ferris wheel. One minute I’m on top of the world, then the next I’m at rock-bottom. ❞

❝ I’ve been thinking about why I haven’t come out yet. ❞

❝ Who you are to the world is pretty terrifying because what if the world doesn’t like you?❞

❝ It doesn’t seem fair that only gay people have to come out. Why is straight the default?❞

❝ Sometimes I feel like I’m always on the outside, there’s this invisible line that I have to cross to really be a part of everything and I just can’t ever cross it. ❞

❝ Sometimes I think I’m destined to care so much about one person it nearly kills me. ❞

❝ He’s wearing a woman’s sweater and he’s drunk. ❞

❝ When did you first realize? ❞

❝ I haven’t told anyone. Announcing who you are to the world is pretty terrifying. ❞

❝ I have something to tell you. I’m straight. ❞

❝ I like girls. ❞

❝ I’m heterosexual. ❞

❝ I’m sorry. I can’t do this anymore. ❞

❝ I’m supposed to be the one that decides when and how and who knows, and how I get to say it, that’s supposed to be my thing! ❞

❝ I’m done living in a world where I don’t get to be who I am. I deserve a great love story and I want someone to share it with. ❞

❝ Have you ever been in love? ❞

❝ These last years, it’s almost like I can feel you holding your breath. ❞

❝ Disclaimer, this is about to get romantic as F. ❞

❝ She’s cute, but she’s just not really my type. Not because she’s black. I love black women. Not like, you know, I have a thing for black women, I just, I just, I just love all women. ❞

❝ I might not know your name or what you look like, but I want to find you.❞

❝ I’m done living in a world where I don’t get to be who I am. ❞

❝ White shouldn’t be the default any more than straight should be the default. There shouldn’t even be a default. ❞

❝ Sometimes it seems like everyone knows who I am except me ❞

❝ Straight people really should have to come out, and the more awkward it is, the better. Awkwardness should be a requirement. ❞

❝ I mean, I feel secure in my masculinity, too. Being secure in you masculinity isn’t the same as being straight. ❞

❝ I’m just so sick of straight people who can’t get their shit together. ❞

❝ I’m too busy trying not to be in love with someone who isn’t real. ❞

❝ Really, though, there are only two kinds of weather: hoodie weather and weather where you wear a hoodie anyway. ❞

❝ Did you just tell us you’re gay? ❞

❝ Nothing is worse than the secret humiliation of being insulted by proxy. ❞

❝ I fall a little bit in love with everyone. ❞

❝ People are shameless when it comes to cake. It’s a beautiful thing to see. ❞

❝ There’s something about you that makes me want to open up, and that’s slightly terrifying to me. ❞

❝ I knew you had a secret. ❞

❝ I wanted to ask you about it, but I didn’t wan to pry. Maybe I made a mistake. ❞

❝ You get to be more you than you have been in, in a very long time. You deserve everything you want. ❞

❝ I like no endings. I like things that don’t end. ❞

❝ You may actually be the only person who gets more than 140 characters from me. That’s kind of awesome, right? ❞

❝ I have a sneaking suspicion that you’re not 100% committed to your Oreo diet. ❞

❝ I can’t imagine a scenario where I don’t want to kiss your face off as soon as I see you.❞

❝ I feel irrelevant. ❞

❝ They put me in a box, and every time I try to nudge the lid open, they slam it back down. It’s like nothing about me is allowed to change. ❞

❝ It’s really amazing, isn’t it? Someone can trigger your sexual identity crisis and not have a clue they’re doing it. ❞

❝ There’s no such thing as a good idea when you’re in seventh grade. ❞

❝ I feel like I’m supposed to make some comment to underscore the ridiculousness of it all, but honestly? It’s sort of nice not to have to be cynical for a change. ❞

❝ I try not to change, but i keep changing, in all these tiny ways. And every freaking time, i have to reintroduce myself to the universe all over again. ❞

❝ You make everything a big deal. ❞

#{ meme }

ADAM:

@brckenparts LIKED THIS POST FOR A STARTER FOR SOME REASON .

america was , by far , one of his least places to linger . t’was unsettling how many words he still didn’t know in spite of his teachings . either way , if he needed aid , so much as he loathed to admit it , he would receive it - and it happened to be the first unfortunate soul across which he came . ❝ sorry to bother but - well , do you know your way ? ❞

—— ♟♟ ❝ um , i think so . ❞ evan said , though the sentence sounded more like a QUESTION than affirmation . his gaze lifted from the ground as he asked in return , ❝ d-do you ? ❞

#seulerose #{ int —adam }#{ v;step out of the sun }#//replying to this after almost a year asdfgh

CONNOR:

“–Hansen.” Connor’s tone wass cold and quick towards the shorter boy as he saw him approaching.

◆ ◆ ( starter call // @brckenparts· )

—— ♟♟ evan feared his heart would hammer right out of his chest, the sound ringing through his ears. he slowed to a stop, clutching the straps of his bag tightly. ❝m-murphy.❞

#sixbillicnsouls #{ int —connor }#{ v;tbd }#//Thanks for the starter!

CAROLINE:

Caroline smiled and she’d stay smiling if it got him to feel better or more at ease. “I am new in town, I’ve been cooped up like a hen unpackin’ for the last few days so I ain’t been out much either. My family just moved here from New Orleans.”

—— ♟♟ ❝oh. that explains the, um, the accent.❞ he said. his hands curled tightly as he pushed himself to say something else, ❝do you... um, maybe i... i could show you around? sometime. if you want.❞ engage with people. that's what his mom told him to do. he could do this.

#sixbillicnsouls #{ int —caroline }#{ v;step out of the sun }

fairycosmos

me: *looks at myself in the mirror* me: Hm. don’t like That

#{ did i even make a sound | | evan }

CAROLINE:

The redhead’s brows raised at the sudden gesture but she smiled nonetheless. Caroline didn’t quite understand why he wasn’t looking at her but it wasn’t her business. She just hoped she wasn’t making him uncomfortable. “It’s a pleasure to meetcha’ Evan.” She reached out and gently shook his hand, dipping in a small curtsie out of habit. “I’m Caroline.”

—— ♟♟A quick glance at the person -- caroline -- and he caught the curtsie. that was new. it made him wonder, briefly, if he should've bowed in return. ❝i, uh, i can't say i've seen you around here before, but that's probably because i don't go out much. i mean. i DO go out just. um. are you new? in town.❞

#sixbillicnsouls #{ int —caroline }#{ v;step out of the sun }

continuation from [x] with @sixbillicnsouls

—— ♟♟EYES glued to the floor, he gave a small shrug. fingers fumbling together. ❝i never really thought about that.❞ he didn't understand what there was to thank for but it eased him a little to know she was nice. ❝i-i'm evan, by the way.❞ his hand shot out in gesture though he still kept his head down.

#sixbillicnsouls #{ int }#{ v;step out of the sun }#//idk if its ok to make a reply out of this esp after so long but oh well

CONNOR:

& just like that , everything in connor’s head just stopped. slender arms wrapped around connor’s lanky form & connor just remains frozen standing there in front of evan as eyes grow wide , his slender arms resting at his side than mutually wrapping his arms back around evan. this didn’t feel good. connor wanted to shove evan away & run even. run away somewhere far from evan , far from just – anywhere really. instead , he gently pushes away his boyfriend , opens palms covering agonized expression donning his face. ❛ i thought – i thought i could be perfect for you. the meds – they were supposed to work , i was supposed to be better … but i couldn’t. things just kept getting fucking worse , evan. ❜ voice was soft towards the end , emotions decressendoing from such intensity & connor was a broken boy. connor looked so different now , blue eyes looking dull & empty , dejected almost as if he looked like he just simply given up.

@brckenparts·

—— ♟♟ EVAN didn't fight it . it broke him to feel connor push him away , gentle or not , but he didn't try to pull back . connor didn't want this . didn't want them . didn't want HIM . he could ... he could understand that . he could try to actually LISTEN for once and ... the tears rolled down his cheeks . i don’t want perfect . i want you . need you . connor anchored him . kept him calm in situations that made him want to throw up with how terrifying they were . he made him want to be better . the thought of him gone made evan's stomach twist and breathing turn shallow . to think he'd have to overcome everything alone again ... no . stop . breathe . run what he said over . again and again . ask the right questions . not everything is about you . connor's still hurting . ❝ ... d-did you check why ? maybe you need something else o-or ... ❞

#mournlcss #{ int —connor }#{ v;we let the world pass by }#//ohmy

CONNOR:

HE ALMOST HIT EVAN , that was until evan himself got closer to connor. evan was telling him that connor didn’t mean any of this , the screaming , the punching of the walls , everything & that really fucking hurt connor , made his heart ache. he couldn’t talk to evan , not about his issues , he’s burdened evan enough , burdened everyone enough about his issues that troubles everyone around him. it was just better to disappear without a word , become an abandoned memory even so that way connor murphy would no longer ruin people’s lives , get out of their hair. open palms covers tear-stained angry eyes , he wants to scream in completely frustration but he couldn’t , instead letting out a strained sob as he shook his head violently. ❛ there’s nothing to talk about , hansen. it’s better that way. ❜

—— ♟♟ THERE were several things evan wanted to do . one was to follow connor's advice and leave . the other was to tell connor that he was wrong . that there was just too much to talk about . and the last . . . evan wasn't the best person at reading the situation and sometimes did things without thinking , spontaneous and often wrong timing but he went towards connor and wrapped his arms around him in a tight hug . several other things now popped in his mind on what might happen next . connor could push him away , things could get worse . or he'd let himself be held . evan didn't side with either , keeping his mind focused on only holding him , not caring if that was the right or wrong thing to do like he usually did . connor was hurting and this was all evan could think to do .

#mournlcss #{ int —connor }#{ v;we let the world pass by }#//welp #{ tw;suicidal thoughts }#{ tw;suicide }

CONNOR:

goddammit , couldn’t evan get it ? ! connor wasn’t good for evan , he thought he could , but he isn’t & that was the fucking fact. evan deserved better , couldn’t he see that?! there’s a storm going inside his head , everything from telling himself that he NEEDED evan to leave & how connor was just better off being alone like he should’ve in the first place. knuckles grow white from his fist being curled & hand makes contact with the wall besides him. god. why was he fucking like this? why did he have to lose control like this? he knows he’s terrifying evan right now. he knows evan hates his shouting. connor was a monster & that was a fact. ❛ CAN’T YOU FU-FUCKING SEE ? ! THIS ! THIS IS THE FUCKING REASON WHY! L-LOOK AT ME , I’M FUCKING SCREAMING AT YOU RIGHT NOW , FUCK JUST GO BEFORE I REALLY HURT YOU! ❜ he should’ve died. he should’ve fucking died when he took all those pills at the park during senior year. god. why can’t he just – not be like this?

—— ♟♟ HE jumped at the sound , at seeing connor punch the wall . it drained all the colour from his face and he could feel the bile rise up to his throat from how terrified and anxious he was becoming . but with that came frustration . because connor didn't want to talk . they could talk this through , see common ground , fix things , but connor just kept screaming at him . and pushing him away . ❝ th-then do it ! ❞ he shot back , trying to make himself seem taller despite being on the edge of hyperventilating . evan took a step closer , forcing his feet to come closer and his eyes to meet connor's ❝ i know you wont hurt me . i-i know you don't mean to , to scream or punch that wall . please , connor , t-talk to me . . . ❞

#mournlcss #{ int —connor }#{ v;we let the world pass by }#//asdfghgfd #{ tw;suicide }#{ tw;suicidal thoughts }

CONNOR:

EVAN.

❛ GET THE FU-FUCK AWAY FROM ME , HANSEN ! ❜ he didn’t mean for this to happen. he didn’t mean to push evan away like this , ignoring him for the past couple of days , for being distant the past week. he thought he was getting better , he didn’t know what the fuck happened , but now everything was falling apart & connor was responsible for it. the meds were supposed to work , it was supposed to make whatever this shithole of issues connor was dealing with better , so why wasn’t he getting any fucking better? he just wanted to be the perfect boyfriend for evan , he wanted to show evan that he was getting better , but instead he was ignoring his problems than dealing with it. & now , look where it got him , being a storm and destroying everything in his path once more.

❛ STOP FUCKING STANDING THERE & JUST FUCKING GO ! ❜

@brckenparts

—— ♟♟ EVAN was completely frozen, eyes wide and staring helplessly at connor. confused, conflicted... scared. he didn't know what was happening. he just wanted to know WHY. everything was going fine, they were fine, but now they aren't and he doesnt know WHY. whywhywhywhy -- his arms were wrapped around themselves, nails digging into skin in a weak attempt to ground himself. connor was shouting. connor knew evan hated shouting. he hated raised voices -- especially when they were directed at HIM. and he didn't even know WHY.

❝NO!❞ he screamed, eyes tightly shut, shaking his head vigorously, ❝you dont -- you don't get to be nice a-and then LEAVE me when you want to! either, either you TELL me why o-or you'll have to kick me out yourself. i'm not leaving!❞

#mournlcss #{ int —connor }#{ v;we let the world pass by }#//you can say that again

horrificsurvival:

“Lies never help anyone,” Connor nodded. “Even white lies can become a deadly thorn.”

—- ♟♟ ❝so i'll tell them. i-i'll tell them everything.❞

#horrificsurvival #{ int —connor }

horrificsurvival:

“It’s better this way,” Connor stated. “I don’t want their hopes to be dashed by the fact that I’m still the same guy I was.”

—- ♟♟ HE shook his head, ❝no i... i was wrong. even if i thought it'd help, this is just giving them false hope. and giving you an even harder time.❞

#horrificsurvival #{ int —connor }

eliza:

“Then were is your place?” she asked with a concerned look on her face. Still, she knew the answer wasn’t anything good.

—- ♟♟ EVAN looked down, picking at the dirt under his nails, ❝nowhere...❞ his place was away from everyone. alone. he could never step into the sun and maybe that was his fault. maybe if he tried harder... but he was done trying. it all ended in failure anyway. he belonged nowhere and the sooner he accepted it the better.

#thebookofmuses #{ int —eliza }#{ v;step out of the sun }

❝ it’s not impossible. ❞ ( hi !!! c: )

@lvstways || the greatest showman sentence starters || accepting

—- ♟♟❝yeah… j-just very, very hard.❞

#lvstways #{ int —reggie }#{ v;tbd }#//hello! :D

continuation from [x] with @grudginggreen

—- ♟♟ EVAN wasn't one to speak up, much less to someone high up in the social ladder. but like all things, it just tumbled out. at this point he'd be stammering out an apology and leaving but his feet wouldn't move and instead he remained, eyes searching her expression in an uncharacteristic way for some form of truth.

❝even an actress relieves her role by the end of the day.❞

#grudginggreen #{ int —heather duke }#{ v;step out of the sun }

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