Kai had never felt this confident in a relationship ever. It was definitely new territory. But sometimes it felt like they both were just waiting for the other show to drop. Both broken in their own ways. He hoped it wouldn’t break them but actually make them stronger in the end. He loved this woman with all of his heart and he hope that that would be enough. It had to be.
“Oh. There’s more?” Kai asked teasingly, a shit eating grin on his face as he looked at her. He leaned over and placed a kiss on her cheek, for no explicit reason, just because he could and felt like it. He could see that this whole marriage thing was making her slightly uneasy so he would definitely drop it. If he did end up marrying her, he knew this marriage was gonna be so much different than the one his parents shared. He didn’t want a marriage like that, though his parents might disagree. He knew they would hate Dina, just for the fact alone that she wasn’t a wolf. That she wasn’t submissive or obedient. All the things he loved about her, his parents would hate. But he couldn’t care less about it. He didn’t care about his parents’ opinion. It just didn’t matter to him. Dina was a part of his life and they had to deal with it. “I can’t even imagine that. Now that I have gotten so used to having you in my arms while I sleep I don’t think I could ever let that go.” He admitted truthfully, shrugging his shoulders a little. The full moon has never been Kai’s favorite thing, especially now since he had a mate he had to leave a lone one night a month. But it was what it was. One night a month away from her to keep her safe and unharmed seemed like a good bargain to him. He could see that his words aggravated her. But he wasn’t gonna back down from this. This was the one thing he wouldn’t be arguing about. He never broke eye contact as she spoke, his jaw clenching at her words. “If you wanna test my loyalty to you…..fine. But not like this. This could kill you. I could kill you. My wolf would recognize you, yes, but it could take a second for him to do so and that second could kill you. So please. I am begging you. Stay away.” He said, his words serious. He finished his drink and got up from his chair. He leaned over and kissed her cheek. “I need to get going. I will see you tomorrow.” he said softly before he turned around and walked out of the bar, desperately hoping that Dina would stay away from him tonight.
While Dina had her doubts about a lot of things, her feelings for Kai, or his feelings for her, weren’t on that list. Most of her doubts and worries were all tied up in how broken and ultimately destructive she could be. In how she didn’t trust herself. Whenever they were together though, she felt it. That sensation of everything just falling into place. Of how things were just right when she was next to him, or in his arms. She loved him. The man he was and the dreams and aspirations he had. Not to mention what kind of person he kept proving that he was. Unfailingly kind and patient. Protective and nurturing. She might find some of it annoying at times but she really loved those sides to him too.
“Plenty more.” She promised with a salacious grin in return, tilting her head and debating whether or not to simply take a seat on his lap, vividly remembering how they’d slept together the first time. She betted the toilets looked quite similar here as they had in that diner. He was being sweet, kind of teenage-y by sticking with the cheek kisses. Which were proving to simply just not be enough for her, prompting her to lean back in and press her lips eagerly against his, wishing they could just spend the entire night in between making out and making love. Dina might not consider herself clingy or needy, but she definitely had a certain appetite she needed Kai to fulfill. And maybe, just maybe, she wanted to allow herself to be somewhat clingy at times. The mere thought of sleeping alone now after spending countless nights in bed with him was hella depressing. Lonely. It might just be for one night, but it would be an awfully long one.. honestly she was debating just not sleeping at all. The concept didn’t feel tempting at this moment. She didn’t want to care what his parents or his pack would think of her. All her life she hadn’t really given a rats ass what anyone thought of her. But this was different.. she’d never had the chance at a real family, at belonging anywhere. Feeling like she fit with Kai, she wanted his family to feel the same. Wanted him not to have to get a ton of crap from them for wanting to be with her. To have them like her kind of mattered.. “Me either. I don’t even know how to sleep alone anymore. just the thought.. its shitty.” She said, trying to put on a brave face though. He had no choice in leaving tonight, that much she knew. Others wouldn’t be safe. And she didn’t want him to feel bad about leaving when it wasn’t much of a choice. Watching him tense up further in response, Dina felt a pit open in her stomach, a heavy one. It wasn’t that she couldn’t take being told what to do. At least it wasn’t just that.. It was the fact that it wasn’t even a discussion.. He had just decided that there was no way she could be with him tonight, not even willing to consider the idea that it might work out. Which not only pissed her off but made her feel not heard. That head of injustice and her stubborn nature were pounding at her scull. Normally she would argue, hell she’d expect there to be just the slightest room for argument at all. But he was cutting her off, abruptly moving to leave. While she didn’t vocalize her hurt, it was written all over her face. “See you..” she muttered in return, too wound up with emotions to come up with another response.
Following the light of the amulet in her hand, Dina felt it pulse and shine more strongly, feeling thrilled at the notion of finally finding Kai. She had waited until there were only a few hours left of the full moon, wanting to give him the space to spend most of the night with other wolves, even if the thought of female ones jotting about kind of sparked some jealousy. It wasn’t right that they got to be with him and she didn’t. And she wanted to see him in all of his wolfy glory. It was going to be okay. Or so she had decided hours ago when she had bought the tracking amulet from a more than helpful witch. People would help you with anything if you had money to spend. It wasn’t a new revelation but it was probably good to be reminded. Making sure she knew which direction the perimeter was, Dina moved further into the forest, not coming to a stop before the amulet was shining so brightly it nearly blinded her. She could hear the heavy trot of the wolf, smell that mix of forest and wet fur. Hanging the amulet around her neck, she slid trough the bushes. Too much in awe at the sight of her boyfriends wolf form, she didn’t manage to announce that she was just a few feet away. Her eyes widened in wonder. Damn, now that was something else.
