alexandra-march​:
“All these years and can’t you see that what we need are so far apart from being the same?” Despite what she was saying, she wasn’t trying to end them. Yes, that desire came up many times but she fought herself on it more than he knew. “What you want and what I want really doesn’t have a meeting ground. It’s just you and me constantly having to give in to the other. All you do is compromise and sacrifice and even after that the things you want still feel like too much. No you aren’t putting me in a box but can you honestly look at me, Brennan, and say that there isn’t a part of you that feels like someday this will be easier?” Her eyes scanned his. “That some day the sacrifices won’t have to be so big? And you are asking me for more whether you see that or not. I mean, God, we went from you saying that casual dating was enough to you wanting to marry me? I wanted nothing from this and you…” She was trying so hard to hold on to her emotions. “You kept making me love you and I know for a lot of people they think that how long this has taken is crazy but I don’t know how we got here.”
“It doesn’t have a meeting ground when every problem that comes up we do this,” he shrugged. “Just talk about how different we are and how far apart our desires are. And I get it-- I get where you’re coming from. But what I keep telling you, and keep telling myself is we’ll figure it out, I don’t know what it looks like, but I know we’re here,” he wet his lower lip. “And it is crazy, I don’t know how we got here either, but the fact is we’ve both made compromises to be here, and it’s because we want to be. No matter how badly you don’t want to be here... you do,” he shrugged. “Or you wouldn’t be. And I don’t have some grand plan to make things easier for us, but I think the way to build something that works for us is to not do this with every bump in the road-- not to look at our entire relationship, but to look at the problem at hand. And if having this conversation is something you need, that’s fine, we can. And maybe this isn’t the right setting, but I think what we need to do is to come up with a plan for the next time this happens.” There was more surety in his tone than there normally was with these things, more stability, more something. Maybe it was as simple as the security of the engagement. That the fear was there, but there was some semblance of security. “And yeah, I am asking more of you here, and maybe that feels overwhelming right now, but the feeling of my fiance-- my wife-- just being gone feels overwhelming to me. So we both compromise, we both push past it and I think in time it won’t-- it won’t be overwhelming, it will be what we do.”