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The fucking PUNISHER strolling casually into a barber shop: I need a fade and a shave STAT my GIRLFRIEND is back in town and I can't look like a fucking hipster in front of her
frank with his sad eyes like - you asked me for a favor and I did it karen. I love you karen. I would die for you karen. I'd do anything for you karen. why didn't you want any coffee karen????
chapter summary: You and Matt are childhood friends who met at the orphanage. But people always assume you two are dating.
word count: 3.6k+
pairing: Matt Murdock x fem!reader
notes: as an og matt murdock stan, i can't believe i've never wrote for him. i hope this is accurate to his character!
and the title goodnight n go is a song by ariana grande from her album sweetener - which i fully believe is an underrated album
also i consider this taking place between dd s3 and ddba
warnings/tags: mentions of twirling/playing with hair, after endgame (so tony is dead😭), best friends to lovers, fluff, pining, oblivious idiots, slight angst, mention of injuries and blood
“And don’t forget to clean the coffee filter. I don’t want anyone getting sick. Again.” You said, grabbing your purse.
“I swear, sometimes your worse than my mother.” Foggy replied, sipping from his mug.
Karen quirked a brow, “your mother isn’t exactly a role model for parenting.”
Matt let out a quiet chuckle, shaking his head. "She’s got a point, Foggy."
Foggy sighed dramatically, setting his mug down. "Yeah, yeah. I’ll clean the damn filter. But if I get coffee poisoning or whatever, I’m blaming you."
"You’ll live," you said, amused. You glanced at Matt, reaching out to fix the slightly crooked knot on his tie. "You should eat something before court."
"Not hungry," he replied, though he didn’t move away.
"You never are," you muttered, smoothing your hands over his lapels before stepping back. "Text me if you need anything."
Matt tilted his head slightly, a small smile playing on his lips. "You say that like you won’t just show up unannounced."
"Don’t tempt me." You grabbed your coat, leaning in to press a quick kiss to his cheek. "See you later."
"See you," Matt said, voice softer now.
You gave a quick wave to Foggy and Karen before heading for the door.
Foggy exhaled loudly as it closed behind you. "That was totally normal. Super normal. Just two friends being weirdly affectionate in front of their other friends."
Matt ignored him, reaching for his cane. "We’re close. That’s all."
Karen shot him a look. "You’re also full of shit."
Matt just smirked and walked out.
---
It was late by the time you made it to Matt’s apartment, balancing a takeout bag in one hand as you knocked. You didn’t have to wait long—there was the distinct sound of locks clicking before the door swung open.
"You didn’t text," Matt said, leaning against the doorframe.
"You didn’t either," you shot back, stepping inside without invitation. "So I figured you probably forgot to eat. Again."
Matt sighed, but there was a hint of a smile on his face as he closed the door behind you. "You don’t have to keep feeding me, you know."
"You don’t have to keep skipping meals, but here we are," you said, setting the takeout on the counter.
Matt chuckled, walking over to the couch and sinking into it. "How was work?"
"Same as always. How was court?"
"Long," he admitted, rubbing a hand over his face. "But we won."
"Then that calls for a celebration." You grabbed the food containers and joined him on the couch, handing him one.
Matt took it, his fingers brushing over yours briefly. "You really didn’t have to do this."
"Yeah, well, I was already out, and I know your fridge is probably empty."
Matt smirked. "You checked my fridge?"
You rolled your eyes. "Not today, but I have a pretty good guess. And considering you didn’t argue…"
He huffed out a quiet laugh. "Fine. You got me."
You both ate in comfortable silence, the familiar hum of the city filtering in through the window. When you were done, you leaned back against the couch, letting out a content sigh.
Matt shifted beside you, his arm resting along the back of the couch. It was second nature when you tucked yourself closer, your head resting against his shoulder.
"You tired?" he asked, voice low.
"Mm, a little," you admitted.
Matt's fingers absently played with the ends of your hair, a familiar and comforting habit.
"You could stay," he murmured.
"You always say that," you said, eyes closed.
"And you always do."
You huffed a soft laugh but didn’t argue.
---
The scent of coffee pulled you from sleep, warm and rich, mingling with the quiet sounds of the city outside. You cracked one eye open, blinking at the unfamiliar ceiling before remembering—Matt’s apartment.
You stretched, groggy but comfortable, the sheets soft and warm around you. The space beside you was empty, but the dip in the mattress told you he hadn’t been gone long.
Dragging yourself up, you padded toward the kitchen, yawning as you leaned against the counter. Matt stood by the stove, pouring coffee like he had all the time in the world. He was still in the sweats and T-shirt he’d worn to bed, hair slightly messy, looking impossibly at ease.
"Didn’t wake you, did I?" he asked, already knowing the answer.
"You and your super-hearing," you muttered, rubbing your eyes. "I would’ve kept sleeping if your coffee didn’t smell so damn good."
Matt smirked, reaching for a second mug. "I’ll take that as a compliment."
You grabbed the hem of his shirt, tugging lightly as you stepped closer, resting your forehead against his shoulder. He huffed out a quiet laugh, free hand settling at your hip like it was second nature.
"Tired?"
"Mm. Your couch is comfy, but your bed is better."
"You say that like you weren’t the one who crawled in."
"Yeah, yeah," you mumbled, peeling away just enough to steal his coffee and take a sip.
Matt didn’t even try to stop you. "I was going to give you your own."
"You’re too slow."
"Or maybe I just like it when you steal from me."
You smirked against the rim of the mug, not missing the way his hand lingered at your waist. Instead of calling him out, you took another sip and turned toward the fridge.
"Pretty sure you don’t have food in here," you said, opening the door.
"You’d be correct," Matt said, completely unbothered.
You sighed, grabbing one of his hoodies off the back of a chair and pulling it on over your sleep shirt. "Guess we’re getting breakfast, then."
Matt hummed, setting his mug down before reaching out, fingers brushing over the sleeve. "You know you keep stealing my clothes, right?"
"You gonna do something about it, Murdock?"
His lips twitched, like he was holding back a smile. "Not a thing."
You grinned, grabbing his cane and tossing it to him before heading for the door. "C’mon, Devil Boy. Breakfast is on me."
"Generous," Matt mused, following after you without hesitation. "Just don’t expect me to let you steal my coffee and my food."
You didn’t bother responding. He’d let you do both anyway.
---
You smoothed your hands down the fabric of your outfit, eyeing yourself in the mirror one last time. It wasn’t often that you got this dressed up—definitely not for work—but a Stark Industries gala demanded something a little more refined than your usual jeans and hoodie.
A knock at the door pulled you from your thoughts. When you opened it, Matt stood there, looking effortlessly put together in a sleek black suit. The tie was perfect, the hair just slightly tousled, and the way he carried himself made it impossible to tell that he wasn’t seeing any of it.
"You clean up nice, Murdock," you teased, grabbing your purse.
His lips quirked into a small smile. "You’re one to talk."
His voice had that subtle shift, the one that always came when he was taking you in—not with his eyes, but in the way only he could. He wasn’t just listening to your words; he was listening to the way your breath hitched slightly, the way your heartbeat quickened when he leaned in a fraction too close.
You cleared your throat, stepping back. "Ready?"
"Always," Matt said, offering his arm.
You rolled your eyes but took it anyway, his touch steady and warm as the two of you headed out.
---
The gala was exactly what you expected—sleek, extravagant, and filled with people who had more money than they knew what to do with. The chatter was loud, glasses clinking as servers weaved through the crowd with trays of expensive champagne.
Matt stuck close to your side, his fingers lightly grazing your arm as the two of you maneuvered through the room. It wasn’t like he needed to be guided, but the contact was easy, familiar.
"Remind me again why I agreed to this?" he murmured near your ear.
"Because I asked nicely," you replied, plucking two glasses from a passing tray and handing him one.
"Mm. That must’ve been it."
You huffed a quiet laugh, taking a sip. The atmosphere was buzzing, but Matt seemed relaxed—more than you expected.
"Surprised you’re handling this so well," you admitted. "Figured the noise would drive you insane."
He smirked, tilting his head slightly. "I’m filtering most of it out. But you—" He shifted just a little closer, lowering his voice. "You’re easy to focus on."
Your fingers tightened slightly around your glass. He did not just say that with a straight face.
Before you could come up with a decent response, someone approached—one of your higher-ups at Stark Industries. You smiled, exchanging pleasantries, introducing Matt with an easy, "This is my friend, Matt Murdock."
Your boss smiled politely before turning to Matt. "It’s great to meet you. And what do you do?"
Matt’s lips twitched like he was holding back amusement. "I’m a lawyer."
"Ah, an honest profession," your boss said, clearly impressed. "And you’re here as—?"
"Her date," Matt said smoothly, with absolutely no hesitation.
Your brain short-circuited for half a second. Your boss nodded approvingly before launching into some talk about Stark’s latest legal team, but you barely heard a word of it.
Matt, meanwhile, looked completely unfazed. Like he hadn’t just said something that made your stomach flip.
The conversation wrapped up, and as soon as your boss was out of earshot, you leaned in slightly, keeping your voice low.
"Date?"
Matt just smiled, lifting his glass. "Figured that was easier than explaining whatever this is."
You squinted at him, but he only took a sip of his drink, calm as ever.
Damn him.
---
At some point in the night, the gala turned into something more social—music playing, people moving toward the open dance floor. You weren’t much of a dancer, but Matt, of course, looked completely at ease, even without seeing the way people moved around him.
"You’re staring," Matt said suddenly, lips quirking.
You scoffed. "I am not."
"You are," he countered, setting his empty glass down. Then, as if it was the easiest thing in the world, he extended a hand. "Dance with me?"
You blinked. "You hate dancing."
"That’s not true."
"You avoid dancing."
Matt smirked. "And yet, I’m asking you."
You hesitated for half a second before sighing, setting your glass down and placing your hand in his. His fingers curled around yours, warm and firm as he pulled you toward the floor.
His other hand settled at your waist, light but certain. Yours rested against his shoulder, and for a moment, the world shrunk to just the two of you, the music humming around you as Matt led with an ease that shouldn’t have been possible.
"You’ve done this before," you murmured, impressed despite yourself.
"Few times," Matt admitted. "But this is the first time I’ve actually enjoyed it."
Your breath hitched, heart stuttering before you could stop it. And from the way his lips twitched, you knew he caught it.
"You’re doing that on purpose," you muttered.
"Doing what?"
"This. Being all—" You gestured vaguely.
Matt just smiled, his grip on you tightening ever so slightly. "Maybe."
You narrowed your eyes, but you didn’t pull away. If anything, you let yourself relax into him, your fingers idly tracing the fabric of his suit as the two of you swayed.
It didn’t feel friendly. It didn’t feel like some casual thing you could brush off. It felt like something else, something real, something you weren’t sure you were ready to name just yet.
And from the way Matt held you—careful, close, like he knew exactly what this was—he knew it, too.
---
It had been a few days since the gala, and life carried on as usual—at least, that’s what you told yourself.
You pushed open the door to Nelson, Murdock & Page, a takeout bag in one hand and a coffee in the other. The office was quiet, save for the sound of Foggy typing furiously at his keyboard and Karen flipping through a stack of papers at her desk.
"Tell me you guys have eaten," you said, setting the bag down with a thud.
Karen looked up first, lips twitching. "We have now."
Foggy groaned in relief, already reaching for the food. "You’re a lifesaver. Matt’s in his office, by the way."
You hummed in acknowledgment, grabbing the coffee before heading toward the glass-paneled room at the back. The door was slightly open, and Matt was exactly where you expected—leaning back in his chair, fingers pressed against his temple like he was nursing a headache.
"You look like hell," you said, stepping inside and closing the door behind you.
Matt’s lips quirked at the sound of your voice. "And yet, you still bring me coffee."
"Because I’m nice," you teased, setting it in front of him.
Matt reached for the cup, fingers brushing yours in the process. You ignored the way your pulse jumped at the contact, shifting to sit on the edge of his desk.
"You should eat, too," you said. "I brought—"
"You didn’t have to do that," Matt murmured, cutting you off.
You rolled your eyes. "You say that every time, and yet here I am, making sure you don’t keel over from malnutrition."
Matt exhaled a quiet laugh, fingers curling around the coffee cup. "I appreciate it."
"You better."
There was a pause. The usual kind, the kind that never used to feel weighted—except, lately, it did.
Matt turned his head slightly, like he was studying you in that way he always did. "You okay?"
The question caught you off guard. "Me? You’re the one who looks like he’s been through hell and back."
Matt huffed. "Occupational hazard."
You folded your arms, watching him for a moment. His tie was slightly loosened, his shirt sleeves rolled up to his elbows, and there was the faintest shadow of exhaustion under his eyes. The usual signs of Matt Murdock burning the candle at both ends.
You reached out without thinking, adjusting the knot of his tie like you had at the gala. He stayed perfectly still, letting you.
"You really need to take better care of yourself," you muttered, smoothing out the fabric before pulling back.
Matt caught your wrist before you could move too far, his thumb brushing over the inside of it—absent, thoughtless, but lingering.
"You do that enough for the both of us," he murmured.
Your breath hitched before you could stop it. His lips twitched.
Damn him.
You pulled your wrist free, shaking your head. "Eat your food, Murdock."
Matt smiled like he knew exactly what he was doing. "Yes, ma’am."
---
A knock at your door this late was never a good sign.
You barely had time to process it before a second, weaker knock followed. Frowning, you unlocked the door and swung it open—only for Matt to nearly collapse against the frame.
"Jesus, Matt—" You grabbed his arm, steadying him as he exhaled sharply. His suit was torn in places, blood staining the red fabric, his lip split, and a nasty bruise was already forming along his jaw.
"You gonna let me in, or…?" His voice was rough, strained, but still laced with that familiar teasing edge.
You didn’t answer, just hooked an arm under his and pulled him inside, kicking the door shut behind you. Without hesitation, you grabbed the first aid kit from the cabinet and shoved him down onto the couch.
Matt let out a quiet grunt as he sat, shifting carefully. "You don’t have to—"
"Shut up." You dropped to your knees in front of him, flipping the kit open. "Take off the suit."
"You don’t waste time, do you?"
"Matt."
"Alright, alright," he muttered, wincing as he pulled the top half of the suit down, exposing bruised ribs and a gash along his side. He also took off his helmet.
You inhaled sharply but said nothing. This wasn’t new—you’d patched him up more times than you could count. But something about tonight felt different.
The room was quiet as you worked, disinfecting the wound, pressing gauze to the worst of it. Your hands lingered, fingertips brushing over the edge of a bruise, tracing the uneven rise and fall of his breath.
Matt didn’t flinch, didn’t pull away. If anything, he leaned into it, just slightly.
"You’re mad at me," he murmured.
You scoffed, pressing the bandage to his ribs a little harder than necessary. He sucked in a sharp breath.
"Of course I’m mad, Matt," you snapped, voice low but edged with frustration. "You show up at my door looking like this, you don’t tell me where you were or how bad it was—do you even think about what it’s like for me? Sitting here, waiting for you to—"
Matt cut you off the only way he knew how.
He kissed you.
It wasn’t hesitant, wasn’t questioning. It was firm, certain—like he’d already decided long before this moment that it was inevitable.
Your breath caught, but you didn’t pull away. His hands found your face, fingers ghosting along your jaw, mapping you out the way only he could.
You exhaled against his lips, your own hands grabbing onto his bare shoulders, nails pressing just slightly into his skin, but Matt didn’t pull away. If anything, he tilted his head, deepening the kiss, his hands sliding from your jaw to the nape of your neck. His fingers tangled in your hair, his touch light, careful—like he wasn’t sure how much he could take before you stopped him.
You didn’t.
Instead, you kissed him back, frustration melting into something else entirely. The heat of it, the way he breathed against your lips like he needed this just as badly as you did—it sent your heart hammering in your chest.
Finally, you pulled back just enough to catch your breath, forehead brushing against his.
"Matt," you whispered, voice unsteady.
His hands stayed where they were, fingertips still curled against the base of your neck. "Tell me to stop," he murmured, voice low, rough. "And I will."
You exhaled, fingers flexing against his skin. "I don’t want you to stop," you admitted.
Matt’s breath hitched. You felt it more than you heard it—the way his chest rose sharply beneath your hands, the way his grip on you tightened like he was committing this moment to memory.
Then, as quickly as it started, his lips were on yours again—slower this time, deliberate.
You didn’t know how long you stayed like that, caught up in him, but when you finally pulled away, Matt’s hands lingered, his thumbs brushing over your skin like he was still grounding himself.
"You’re still hurt," you murmured, running a hand over his ribs, where fresh gauze was now taped in place.
Matt let out a quiet chuckle, tilting his head. "You’re the one distracting me."
"You kissed me, Murdock."
"Mm. And you kissed me back."
You huffed, rolling your eyes, but you didn’t move away. "You need rest."
Matt hummed, not agreeing but not arguing either. His hands finally dropped from your face, settling instead at your waist, like letting go completely wasn’t an option.
"You staying?" he asked, voice softer now.
“Yeah. Afterall, you are in my apartment.”
Matt let out a quiet hum, his hands still resting at your waist, fingers curling slightly against the fabric of your shirt. He wasn’t letting go, and you weren’t pulling away.
"You’re on the floor," he murmured.
"Yeah, no shit," you said, raising a brow.
His lips quirked. "Come up here."
You hesitated, but only for a second before shifting, moving to sit beside him on the couch. Matt adjusted just enough to make room, one arm draping along the back of the cushions. His other hand found your knee, thumb brushing absentmindedly against it.
"You’re ridiculous," you muttered, leaning your head back against the couch.
"How so?"
"You come here half-dead, I patch you up, and then instead of resting, you start—" You gestured vaguely between the two of you.
"Kissing you?" Matt supplied, smirking.
You shot him a look. "Distracting me."
Matt exhaled a quiet laugh, tilting his head in that way he always did when he was focused on you, listening. "Do you regret it?"
The question made your breath catch, but you didn’t look away. Instead, you reached over, your fingers trailing along the edge of his jaw, ghosting over the bruise forming there. Matt didn’t flinch. If anything, he leaned into your touch.
"No," you admitted softly.
His grip on your knee tightened just slightly. "Good."
You rolled your eyes, but a small smile tugged at your lips. "You do need rest, though."
Matt hummed, clearly not in a hurry to move. His fingers slid up, resting lightly against the curve of your hip. "Stay?"
You exhaled, shaking your head. "Matt, I live here."
"Right. Convenient." He smirked, thumb brushing against your skin.
You huffed, shifting to lean into him, resting your head against his shoulder. He didn’t hesitate, his arm slipping around you like it was second nature.
For a while, neither of you spoke. His breathing was steady, the warmth of him grounding, familiar. You could feel the tension in his muscles start to ease, his body finally giving in to exhaustion.
"You’re not going out again tonight, right?" you asked, voice low.
Matt didn’t answer right away, which was already an answer.
"Matt."
"I won’t," he murmured.
"You better not." You tightened your grip on his arm, just slightly. "Or I’m locking you in here next time."
Matt let out a quiet chuckle. "Terrifying."
"Damn right," you mumbled, letting your eyes slip shut.
He didn’t say anything else, just pulled you closer, his fingers brushing lightly against your arm.
And for once, Matt actually stayed still.
i had a lot of fun writing this - the idea of falling in love with your best friend is just so cute! (curses to my childhood self for not having a male best friend to fall in love with😭)
it may be slightly unclear but reader is an engineer at stark industries!
and, one more thing, i'd love to write more of these two! if you have any requests, send them in! i fear that that shower scene in that ddba trailer has taken up my mind... so don't be surprised if i write shower sex with matt soon...
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