Being hurt is the ugliest feeling. But being hurt by someone we care about and by someone we love is heartbreaking. But what’s worse ugly or heartbreaking? Will things ever get better? Or things only get worse? Nobody knows. There are going to be people in this world we’re gonna love you for the person you are in for the person you want to be there not gonna love you if you’re someone that’s not real that’s scary. I want someone to love me the way that I love them. I want someone to care about me the way that I care about them. I want them to do all the things that I do for them for me. But am I going to get that? Who knows. Nobody knows. When there was a girl that I cared about that left me because I wasn’t what she wanted. She said that she just wasn’t feeling it. But she didn’t do it in person, she did it over text which in the long run hurts more than it would’ve in person. everybody’s definition of ugly is different. But my definition of ugly is someone who doesn’t have the guts to say it to your face but they can say it over text but I can say it over an anonymous messaging platform. The girls flirt with you one day and pretend you don’t exist the next day, it’s all in the person. It’s not you but it’s also not them. So they put the blame on you will put the blame on them selves just like they always do. But no one is to blame in the situation. heartbreak is just one step to finding the one that you’re meant to be with. Just like I’ve always said everything happens for a reason. Your past determines your future. Is my past finally coming back to haunt me? Or is their past coming to haunt the person that they care about? I wish I had the answers to all those questions. But the only person that has the answers is the person that you have to become to find them. The question that runs in the back of my mind is “ Will I ever be enough?” That’s a question that I always ask myself because I don’t feel that I will ever be enough for anyone.
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