âRickard went on a work trip over in Italy to meet a client for the rest of the month, so I have the house to myself. Admittedly Iâm not planning on doing anything with that. But other than his sudden leave, with assistant in tow mind you, Iâve got literally nothing planned for the summer.â
She stared at the popcorn for a while before drawing out a long, soft sigh. âArtificial food coloring is commonly linked to organ tumors, along with possibly-severe hypersensitivity. Blue dye specializes in brain tumors, red accelerates immune system tumors, and...â She pulled the popcorn bag closer to her so she could peer at it some more; âIâve never even heard of white dye. So...that one could be made up of anything from toilet paper to chalk.â
âItâs called irrational anger, and thereâs no responsibility to it. But hey, it seems like youâve got your own things to worry about â what with that stick up your rear. So Iâll let you handle that all good and well, and if you feel like you need something to ease the pain of the removal Iâve still got half of my prescribed oxys that I can sell you for a nice price.â
Shrugging, Bridgit replied quietly, âMaybe itâd be more beneficial to your health to learn how to channel those involuntary, reckless sorts of emotions--â She suddenly stopped scribbling and hesitated. âWait, you just...offered to sell drugs to me.â Not that she wanted to be Captain Obvious, but Bridgit wasnât even sure what âoxysâ were, and silently refrained from admitting it.
Maggie raised an eyebrow in response to the other girlâs outburst. âWho rained on your parade?â she asked. She glanced over at the boys. âCute, Bridg, but Iâm not a cougar, and Iâm also not a child. Complaining is my right as an American.â
Bridgit paused, thinking slowly. Then she shrugged and responded, âPerhaps, but I...bet you canât name when, how, and in what circumstances the Constitution was signed. Bill of Rights? Declaration of Independence? It is all kind of important to know as an American, too.â
âYou should get one of these big yellow floppy summer hats that my mother wears. Ten times more practical.â Glancing back and forth between her book and the backpackâs opening, she started shuffling through the numerous supplies (mostly books) she had in there.
Hey, Bridgit. Iâm just going to ask you a few questions about yourself. Is that okay?
Fine. But keep it short; I need to get back to homework soon.
All right. So, todayâs topic is anger. Do you have anything to say about it? (And, by the way, anything we say will just be between you and me.)
...Well, personally, I donât really get angry with people. Nothing I see these days is ever truly worth wasting those sorts of emotions on, anyway. I think itâs childish not to be able to control your anger, or suppress it, or, ultimately, make it go away. Anger is great--it can show you a lot about who a person really is. I love to see other peopleâs true colors, because people are generally as dumb as they seem. But as for me, no; expressing my anger like that isnât my thing.
Whenâs the last time you got angry?
Uh, letâs see--I think it mightâve been with my mother. A few weeks ago. She was worried that I would be taking too many classes next year, and had forced me to drop AP Computer Science. Little does she know, I didnât actually drop the course. I think the worst thing I did that day was slam the refrigerator door shut really hard--a couple of eggs in there cracked and exploded. I cleaned it up, then went back to my room to read. End of story.
Wow, you have a lot of self-control. Is your anger as subtle as that all the time?
Haha, I wish. Sometimes, if Iâm really pissed off, Iâll start an argument. Iâll say something to someone, someoneâs feelings will get hurt, theyâll try to insult me back but fail in doing so, and Iâll just feel a little bit better. Thatâs usually the way things go.
Iâve noticed that you tend to make fun of people a lot of times.
Being irritated while talking to someone--which is all the time--is different from being, like, sincerely angry. Like I said, Iâm not an angsty, attention-needing person. I donât feel the need to show that somethingâs turned me upside-down, because Iâll give no one that satisfaction. If you make a mess, you clean it up yourself, and get over it, right?
Right, right. So, if I hypothetically feel like youâre a little pissed off at me, what should I think? What should I do?
Ugh, youâre not as bad as other people in my school, so get over yourself...--Anyway, first, if Iâm obviously annoyed at you, you most likely need to shut up. I hate it when people talk too much. But, since 99% of the people I meet donât shut up, Iâve had to adapt to other means of passively aggressively telling people that I donât want to talk to them. For some reason, they never work. But whatever. People will be people.
So thatâs just one normal, everyday thing. People get used to it. You should get used to it.
As for what you should do, well...just try not to say anything stupid.
Thanks, Bridgit. Iâll try to do what you say. Okay, hereâs another one for you: Iâve heard you dislike summer. Whatâs that all about?
Ugh, please, summer is definitely the worst season to be alive. Not only is it humid and uncomfortable here in California, but there arenât the regular school days to keep my educational progress on track. And, summer is definitely the time teenagers go wild and think theyâre free and unstoppable and invincible, when theyâre not. Summer is just another chance for immature teenagers to try prove how fancy and social they are. Most of the time, they fail and end up looking stupid.
What about losing or failing?Â
Who does like to lose or fail? Seriously, you need a little bit of common sense.
Iâm sorry about that--
Whatever. The thing is, I hate seeing any of my work or effort go to waste. Hate to break it to myself, but losing arguments just sort of sucks. That also goes for failing tests, failing essays, failing assignments--I grew up obligating myself to succeed at everything I do. Iâve never let anything get in my way.
Good. Weâre almost done here. What do you dislike about spicy food?
Itâs difficult to eat, period. Itâs like trying to eat you thatâs biting you from the inside, and itâs just, blech. People who enjoy that sort of stuff drive me nuts.
How about dating? Iâve heard that you dislike dating.
Uh...yeah. I do. I loathe it.
Want to tell me more about it?
No. Just like anger, dating simply isnât my thing.
Okay, Bridgit. Thatâs all for now.Â
Thank goodness. I swear, talking about all that made me just about to slam another refrigerator door--with you in it. Goodbye.
She glared at him, disgusted. âWha--no. No, I donât drink. Nor should you, Josiah. Itâs an idiotic way to pass the time.â She rolled her eyes, fiddling with her book.
Bridgit scowled at Maggie and then shrugged. âThereâs a bench,â she suggested, indicating one. âThose are for sitting. And there are some hot dogs and burgers and carnival games.â She pointed across the area. âAnd there are some cute guys for you.â She gestured at a cluster of boys, unaware that they were freshmen. âKnock yourself out. Stop being a child.âÂ
ââEy, miĂșdoââ The Brazilian accent was alive as she directed her words at the person on the sidewalk. She recognised the kid on her street from school, which would be normal considering she lived in an area near a lot of richer studentsâ but this one definitely wasnât one of her irritating neighbours⊠And if they were a friend visiting, she couldnât tell completely; the sun was blinding at the moment. Â
And, they look well dressed enough, so a small part of her was hoping they werenât another tasteless being in the universe. âMind if I use your mind and opinions for a moment?â She needed a good guinea pig.
Bridgit stopped in her tracks when she heard someone call, reluctantly taking her nose out of the book itâd taken so much concentration to bury herself in. Disappointed that she hadnât managed to dress discretely enough so that nobody from school would be able to recognize her, she registered the girl whoâd spoken--she was one of the more popular girls from school, that much she could tell at a glance. Bridgit stared back for a moment or two so that she could be sure that that girl really did want to speak to her--and, unfortunately, yep, it was her.Â
Before her staring could become awkward, she cleared her throat quickly. âWhatâs up...?â she asked cautiously, not moving from where she stood.Â
âHow am I? Well, theyâve started filming the X-Files again, so Iâm ecstatic. I mean, itâs only a few episodes, but thatâs probably more than enough. Twin Peaks, too! Although thatâs coming back 2016âŠÂ      Sorry. I mean, what about you? How are you? â
Bridgit couldnât help but laugh a little. âIâm good, thanks. Summerâs good. Books and homework are good.â She shrugged, not being able to keep a grin from creeping onto her face. âAlthough I have no clue about anything you just mentioned, Holden--Iâm glad to see that youâre keeping yourself occupied, as usual.â
âWhat? Oh ââ Yeah of course Iâm excited for summer, I mean, I guess. But itâs not really a new concept yâknow? Itâs the same thing every year, schoolâs out, and the madness begins. Then the summer craze ends and school starts againâŠsoâŠSorry I donât mean to be lame or anything. Do you have anything cool planned?â
Bridgit resisted the urge to roll her eyes at the too-vague question. She also resisted the urge to remain silent altogether and resume staring at the book in her lap. Instead, she replied with her filler answer for whenever she was asked about her summer plans: âLibrary. Books. Work. Summer homework. To me, itâs pretty cool. I donât know what youâd think about it, though.âÂ
For a second, she shifted her bag onto her shoulder and shuffled her feet, ready to get up and make a run for it. Then she suddenly realized that this was the first human-to-human interaction sheâd had in literally a week--and forced herself to slide back down. Even she knew that permanent isolation wasnât particularly healthy.
âUgh. Iâve had the week from hell. Spent some time upstate, which was nice. Got a flat on the way back. Thatâs fine, so I pull into the shoulder to change that. Ran out of gas because apparently the gas gauge on my bike is shot. Thatâs fine. Get home, get into a tiff with pops. Put my fist through a window â hospital, twenty-seven stitches up my arm to my elbow from my wrist. There was so much blood. Wanna see the stitches?â
Bridgit stared for a bit, then narrowed her eyes at him and scoffed. âNo, I donât want to see it.â Her gaze returned to the notebook in her lap that she was scribbling in. âHow irresponsible do you have to be to punch a window?â she murmured irritably, keeping her eyes on her notebook.
âReply--â she mimicked. âMaybe. As long as you donât use too much. Whereâd yours run off to?â She started reaching slowly for her bag to check if she did in fact bring a bottle, her eyes flitting back to the book in her lap.