Clari✨️

My name's Clari and this blog is mostly about ships I love with a sprinkle of non ship stuff. genshin, star rail, orv, and sk8. 🦁🍁(🐉), 🗿🦚, ⚖️🪴*🌺❄️ * 🐱🍁*🦑🐟*🌱🏛

[brighteststarus]

I̴̤̪̒̿'̶̟̪̘͖͎̗̈́̓̊m̵̡̛͔̪͓̣͂̔̔͘͜ ̵̢̨͙̙̹̑̓̕̕s̷̙̬̣̣̗͐̾͋͊͊̽̚ǒ̵̫̗͖̹͙̆̑̈͘͝ͅͅ ̶̧̡͕͍̖̳̝͐̽͋̀͝p̴͓̜͕̀͂r̶̟͇̭̳̰̭͛ȏ̵̭̲̠͍͉͇͌̀͑u̵͚̠̭̫͒̒͆d̷̨̟̩̬̘̠̫̂̄̃͐̋͗͝ ̸̱͆͂ṏ̷̘͈̤͕̜̖͇́͐͋͑̎͝f̷̯͇̐̒̇̆͝ ̷̹̠̦̼͓̽̽̔͑̀̈́͘ỹ̶̨̳͇̼̙͉̔̄o̶͚̩̝̪̞̤̒̐͂̿͗͒ǘ̴̜̓̾

[blightedcrow]

something silly that feels in character for my boys 😌

[brighteststarus]

Domestic Chores !!!

[sunnyirry]

drunk company party extragavanza

[cta-nagito]

A conversation with a friend made me think that many (not all, I'm not saying that everyone does this) are trying to portray Ivan as some kind of obsessed stalker-maniac who will do anything to possess Till.

And I'm not trying to close my eyes to Ivan's dark side, he is prone to doing dubious things (all of them, by the way. Conditions in which they grew up is a separate topic for discussion). Buuuut…

Ivan fell in love with Till for his freedom (well, first of all, for the fact that he communicated with him xD, but for that as well). Don't you think it's strange if Ivan tried to suppress what Till always symbolized for Ivan himself?

You who shines, I stand next to you

We know from Vivivos that Ivan considered himself unworthy of love and gave up the fight for happiness. From the lines of Nowhere we can guess the source of this belief: faced with the extremely harsh life in the slums, Ivan's defense mechanism was to deny the possibility of any of his dreams for something good, because it was easier to forget about it when it once again turned out to be in vain. Sending to Anakt, being different from his peers, the incident with the meteorites - all this only reinforced Ivan's complex.

Although on the other hand, apparently he was really worried that Till, being a rather willful stubborn person, would provoke the Segeins and tried to reason with him to be more reasonable, but Till, of course, didn't give a shit about it. But there is a big difference between worrying about Till killing himself and wanting to tie him to a radiator.

Ivan really did a lot of strange things and invaded Till's personal space again and again. Officially, his desire was to take up as much space in Till's head as possible, he wanted Till to remember him. And Ivan did it as best he could, convinced that it was the only way. At the same time, I think that by the time he graduated from Anakt, Ivan already guessed that he had a very real chance to get closer to Till (and he did, but never realized it…).

I see Ivan as a rather unhappy, depressed and detached person, who at the same time treats his sufferings quite simply, considering it "superficial" and accepting everything as it is, considering this course of things to be right. In general, I think Ivan could be greedy, possessive and demanding, but the problem is that too much has to happen for him to show himself as such.

In the "normal" conditions of their existence, Ivan is too convinced that possessing Till is a priori impossible for him, since no one will ever love him, especially Till. Therefore, he most likely did not even allow fantasies about it, in his world it simply does not exist. He was not even (canonically confirmed) jealous of Till for Mizi. It was natural for him, no matter who Till would love, because in Ivan's world there is no chance that he himself will be loved for who he is.

Ivan did many questionable things, but he never crossed the line with Till. If he had no boundaries, he could have forced Till to kiss him long before he graduated from Anakt. But Ivan did not do that.

That is another reason why his kisses in Round 6 are so desperate. It was the first and last time he allowed himself to do such a thing. Only because he knew that this was the end.

[nolvini]

love and loss are two sides of the same coin

[tenowls]

was inspired seeing ppl do matching prints at cons so i wanted to try it too…. my fav alnst song and characters teehee

[shinumeru]

they're not fooling anyone

[farbtron]

Full photo booth series I did ~(~3~)~

[galaaxymess]

Finished the wha cover redraw with Ivan! I thought the change of color palette would be very cool ✨️

[kuzoowl]

He can’t win...💀

[imissthembutitwasntadisaster]

I hope I'm not just a mutual to you, but someone you want to bring up in irl conversation so you have to awkwardly and cryptically say "my friend..." and refuse to elaborate on my origins or the origins of our friendships

[kuzoowl]

In the dorms...☠️🔥

[kuzoowl]

How hard can it be? Till thought...

[kuzoowl]

Class hours! ☠️🏈

[ryartchus]

😇.

[sugary-veins]

it doesn't go both ways

(based on lighter's trust event)