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Sims 3 Sunset Valley
I want to try to start posting my stories about residents of Sunset Valley. I’ve duplicated, aged the majority of them down. and given them extended families :D anddddddd made a total mess all over town by using world editor to add lots lol
Idk if anyone would delight in reading them but it’s something I always wanted to do.
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I will never NOT reblog this.
That matinal SLAP ON YOUR FACE
Thank you
It's weird coming back to tumblr
and seeing old things I wrote when I'd be very recently fucked up each time either like drinking or doing whippets and drinking cough syrup, to being suicidal and always feeling haunted by like the back to back traumas of life. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ah well.
I would so post pictures. I really would. But. You see. I’m lazy...and ugly.
Nara
Even though I may sound like some deranged cat lady, I find it funny how I coo at my cat and she just has this over-excited meow. Like “OH WHY HELLO HUMAN! YES I’M DOING GREAT, I’VE BEEN GUARDING THE STAIRS SINCE YOU LEFT. THOSE ARE NICE PANTS OTHER CATS YOU HAVE THERE”
Dramatic
Everyone out there who has been called dramatic go ahead and fucking embrace it. Dramatic is what gives the world zest. It’s canopies over beds, fedoras, and extremely curly hair.
Been a bit...
I’ve been extremely busy with college and my job so I haven’t been on tumblr like...since last year. :/
Now that I’ve graduated. Now that I’ve spent 4 years writing essays drinking rockstar at 2 in the morning, trying really hard to get some form of payment, enduring the nagging, the homelessness, the depression, imbalance in my life i had to try to rearrange...I don’t know what the hell to do now XD
And here we go...
I find it difficult to be quiet when my mom is lecturing me about things that are “sinful”. Yes she was born and raised in a different time but I feel she gets to be a bit of a hypocrite. I’m 18 years old, still haven’t told her I’m bisexual and quietly just let her lecture about how human reproductive systems don’t suggest God wanted us to be gay or lesbian or whatever. I don’t think that that God exists. In the religions I’ve “tried out” God is trying to teach everyone to be peaceful, understanding people who all have to better themselves and learn how to forgive. Not how to be hateful and twist the words of the bible into those they deem fit because they are hateful people.
Day one of Fighter's Codex
Everybody was kung foo fightinggggggg. No, just kidding I believe it's Tae Kwon Do. I'm glad I decided to start this thing. My reaction time is on another planet once my mom walked in on me dancing and I legit just stood there and then proceeded to scream about 15 seconds later.
I stole a snow globe from an airport gift shop when I was 4, and then when I was 6 I found out what stealing was and that it was bad, and i had nightmares about the police coming to get me every night for 3 months until my parents finally brought me to a therapist and he made them buy plane tickets just so that I could return the snow globe that i'd stolen 2 years earlier. The manager thought it was so funny that he sends me snow globes every year on the "steal-iverasary"
omfg what a story…
Oh my...
Sidetracked.
I just want to sing and ITS SO HARD FOR ME TO COMMIT TO MAKING A VIDEO EVERY WEEK.
Cards against humanity is awesome, I can't believe I went this long without playing O.o
Friends.
I never really had a best friend. I think a best friend is someone who looks for you and has put up with your life's bull shit the longest and still wants to hang out with you, as you do the same for them. I thought I had a best friend twice in my life. Its sad to think but I had a best friend for five years until her mother gained custody of her and we lost each others numbers. She has a facebook page but I feel its no use to contact her, she changed, badly it seems and I carry a slight guilt from that. I feel like if I had looked for her earlier I might have influenced her a bit. The second time was completely fake. The girl who called me her best friend lied to me, ditched me several times and now talks to my ex-boyfriend. I had helped her through potential anorexia, I listened to her when she was talking about her parents divorce and I spent a whole night trying to help her find a shred of evidence that her boyfriend from Egypt was real. I had my own crap going on, My father decided to stop speaking to me with no reason why, my mother would yell at me for everything, my ex would verbally abuse me and when I would be so numb from what I had done to myself, he would take advantage of that. My trip to Puerto Rico might have saved my life, there I met wonderful people who helped me realize I was better than what I was doing, than what I thought of at the time. Then, I returned here due to loss of funds, bounced around houses, hotels, motels, until one day my family didn't have to worry about being homeless because a really nice person let us rent a palace of an apartment on the beach. As an adult now, I wonder if this large group of people I spend my days with now are going to be big part of my life, if any of them are going to truly be there for me, like I know I am going to be for them.
When you...
Are Singing and your friend is a douchebag who makes fun of you and tells everyone you can sing.
I get real annoyed...
Why do some guys just hide from the girl they have a crush on, even when its obvious?
My reasons.
I think I always knew I was bisexual. Even as a little girl I questioned what was so wrong about possible monogamy with either men or women. I remember one occasion where I was speaking with my mother on 5th ave in Brooklyn and for some reason the topic of my sexuality came up. I was only ten and she had said "Don't have any crushes on boys yet" like any little girl I responded with "I don't like boys." and my mom had then said something that, as you can see, stuck in my head for many years.
"You don't....like girls do you?"
I had panicked. I didn't know what I should say. I thought about both like that. Although I was smart to say "No, mom I don't like girls" I wonder what she would have done if for maybe in that moment she would have accepted me. I can never tell my mother, I fear. I feel like she would disown me or something in that sense if I ever told her the same way I'm attracted to some guys I'm attracted to some girls. I think she is a hypocrite she is friends with gay/lesbian people and appears to be okay with it, but behind their backs she remembers the Catholicism people taught in the 1970s to her and how "being with the person the same sex as you is a sin"
Even so, it's sad for me. I know my sexuality I don't feel there is a need for me to "pick one side" so to speak, yet I feel so selfish because I know there are people who don't just accept their, um, bi-ness... they feel like they need to pick a side, that bi is just temporary and not an actual sexuality.
