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Britt || California Photographer + Graphic Designer G R O W N .

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stay focused.

you're about to live in the reality you've been imagining everyday and you need to be ready for what comes with it.

i love you. thank you for choosing me.

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a soft landing for the weight of your love

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i've been allowing myself to express my feelings more carelessly. fearlessly. i'm learning that the love i have to give is really a byproduct of my own divine nature. it exists authentically within me, so expressing it feels like dancing to the beat of my own heart.

i've learned that a person's inability to receive it doesn't make it any less valuable to me. it's real and requires no alterations. my love is always mine and it's always me and i am so fortunate to know it, to have it, and to share it.

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slowly but surely.

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Located

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n o , a c t u a l l y . a c t u a l l y , n o .

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ideally i'm worth more than just my own effort.

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reading my own blog does a lot for my mental health.

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my terms and conditions updated

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i can't have your lips and eat them too

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lux

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i've been guilty of the same in the past.

there was a time where my ex was in town and we were listening to music in the car. i received a phone call from this guy that was trying to pursue me and i answered the call. he asked what i was doing and i said "i'm in my car listening to music and i don't want to talk." and then i think later when we weren't in the car anymore, i got a phone call from someone else and we talked for a short while.

later, my ex asked me why i didn't tell the dude that called me that he was with me. and i was like... "because it doesn't matter. he doesn't know you and i'm not interested in him or obligated to him so it's none of his business" and then he brought up the other call and he basically expressed that it was inconsiderate of the limited time we had to spend.

and... i did respond in a way that was a little frustrated because at this time we were not together or romantically involved at all and i didn't feel like i owed it to him to not answer phone calls or to give him my undivided attention. i was a bit cold in my delivery and i basically told him that he's not my man and my intention wasn't to make him feel any type of way but my priority wasn't to not make him feel any type of way either so i don't think i did anything wrong by answering phone calls. but a little time passed that night and i felt bad after giving it some thought because i could recognize that he wasn't really saying that i owed him anything, he was just trying to make me aware of how the dynamic was affecting him emotionally. i knew i had space to be more sensitive to that and i didn't have to be so blunt and dismissive about it. so i did pull him for a chat immediately and apologized for not being considerate or acknowledging his feelings when he expressed them.

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i was watching a show and there was a situation covered that made me think about the way i pick and choose when to express my feelings. a couple was speaking to a therapist and the woman was expressing how a certain action by her partner makes her feel. he became hostile and responded saying that she was accusing him of something and started to go off about her not trusting him. the therapist interrupted his barking to explain to him that his wife didn't accuse him of anything and that she was only expressing her feelings and not attempting to make a determination about his actions.

i felt connected to that moment because that has often been my experience. but the trend is that i will reluctantly tell someone how something they do or say makes me feel and instead of them seeing it as an opportunity for us to work together to patch that area of misalignment or possible misunderstanding, they go into defensive mode and start arguing against what they perceive me to be accusing them of, which i then have to address and explain away - leaving my feelings completely lost and unaddressed.

it's something i'm working through because i never want to feel like me and my loved ones can't talk through our feelings with one another, and it's hard because of what i've experienced before, but that's what makes little moments like what happened last night mean so much to me.

i had decided that i wouldn't keep things like that to myself anymore and just move around the outcomes of those conversations in a way that was respectful to myself, so last night made me feel better about times i may have to do the same in the future.

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i felt my concerns held with care in a conversation last night. after going back and forth with myself in my head about whether i wanted to express it or not because i was afraid of being dismissed, i told him. he acknowledged what i said and he said that he didn't realize it was bothersome to me and that he knows better for the future. i kind of remained silent after that because i didn't wanna make it weird by saying how much i valued the way he responded in that moment.

...but i was incredibly horny after that.

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3.15.2026

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i went to lancaster this past weekend. stumbled upon this gem on a dollar tree water quest.

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Absorb

Part of 'Photons' series, 11/2024