Could you do a butcher/reader fic based off the song "I'm a ramblin' man" by Waylon Jennings? I think it fits Billy really well :)
|| Never heard of that song until now, haha. But, hopefully, you enjoy it!! ||
𝖯𝖺𝗂𝗋𝗂𝗇𝗀: 𝖡𝗎𝗍𝖼𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗑 𝖱𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋
William J. Butcher didn’t 𝙙𝙤 relationships—let alone 𝙧𝙤𝙢𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙚. He’d never been good at expressing his emotions—even when he’d been lucky enough to be married to a woman like Becca. He’d loved her and he’d tried to be a good husband for her—though, ultimately, he’d unfortunately failed. He hadn’t been able to save her from death—and for that, he carried around a deep guilt that he often kept buried even deeper under the surface. Since then, he’d started pushing people away even more than he already had before. He never stayed in one place for very long—whether by choice or not.
And 𝙘𝙚𝙧𝙩𝙖𝙞𝙣𝙡𝙮 not with one woman.
The last time he’d done that—he’d ended up losing everything.
He’d come into your life like a raging storm rolling over the horizon—black clouds, flashes of white hot lightning, and thunder that was almost as loud as a gunshot—all but 𝙜𝙪𝙖𝙧𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙞𝙣𝙜 that all hell would break loose 𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙜 before he’d even arrived at your door—exactly as he always came into everything else.
He’d dragged you into the middle of the vengeful crusade he’d started a few years ago—recruiting you into The Boys because he’d seen you as an important and valuable asset who could be useful to the team in helping to take down Vought, their Supes—𝙚𝙨𝙥𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 Homelander—along with anyone and everyone who worked for or with them.
MM, Frenchie, Hughie, and even Kimiko had all warned you to not get involved. They’d warned you to stay as far away from all the crazy, fucked up shit that had become a part of their every day lives. They’d told you that it wasn’t worth getting yourself into any of the trouble that following blindly after Butcher would inevitably lead you into.
"𝘔𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘢𝘴 𝘸𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘢 𝘥𝘰𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘴."
"𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘶𝘺'𝘴 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘢 𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘥𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘩 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘩."
"𝘠𝘰𝘶'𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘶𝘱 𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘵...𝘖𝘳 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘴𝘦."
"𝘉𝘦 𝘴𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘵. 𝘞𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺, 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘤𝘢𝘯."
Those had only been 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚 of the many things you’d heard coming from them and from everyone else around you. Even Butcher 𝙝𝙞𝙢𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛 had warned you to keep your distance.
That was what you’d kept telling yourself repeatedly—almost as if you were desperately trying to avoid something that you knew you shouldn’t be getting yourself into. You knew the risks that were involved. You knew he carried a lot of emotional baggage with him that he often kept buried deep within so no one would be able to see any of the pain or trauma he’d experienced throughout his life.
Yet—despite yourself—you found yourself completely ignoring all the warnings. The raven haired Brit was 𝙛𝙖𝙧 from perfect. In fact, more often than not, he was a complete 𝙗𝙖𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙧𝙙. He always kept pushing everyone away from him—including you—in a desperate attempt to avoid developing any kind of emotional attachments to anyone. Over time, you’d started learning how to see through all of his defenses—almost as though you’d started being able to see right through him.
At first, it had started with the two of you hooking up occasionally to get whatever tensions that had been building between the two of you out of your systems. It wasn’t any sort of actual 𝙧𝙚𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙥—it never went that far. He’d never allow it to reach that point.
So, it wasn’t much of a surprise when you woke up one morning to find that his side of the bed was empty—and cold. Deep down, you knew that he was already starting to revert back to his usual habit of pushing people away—but that didn’t mean it didn’t hurt, because it 𝙙𝙞𝙙.
Blinking a few times, you sat up slowly as your gaze shifted around the room before landing on the discarded pillow where his head had been only a few hours before. You tried convincing yourself that it was okay—that it didn’t bother you and that this was what your life had become. Closing your eyes, you took in the faint scent of cigarettes and rain—a smell you’d come to know and love, despite telling yourself that nothing good would ever come with it.
Finally, your eyes opened again—slowly. Glancing to the side, you noticed that his jacket and boots were gone. 𝙊𝙛 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚, 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙬𝙚𝙧𝙚. Glancing toward the nightstand, there was a note with three scribbled words: 𝘿𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙞𝙩 𝙪𝙥.
A scoff escaped past your lips as you shook your head with a slight roll of your eyes. You’d gotten to the point where you practically 𝙚𝙭𝙥𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙚𝙙 this sort of behavior coming from the raven haired Brit. It was classic Butcher.
The raven haired Brit had never been the type of man who asked anyone to wait—𝙤𝙧 stay. It just wasn’t who he was, so why should he start doing that now? He’d always left you standing there—sometimes in the middle of nowhere—watching as the taillights of his old beat up Cadillac drove down some godforsaken highway.
You’d always wanted to follow after him—yell at the top of your lungs, 𝙨𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙜 even, practically 𝙗𝙚𝙜𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙜 him to stay—but you never did.
For three days—𝙩𝙝𝙧𝙚𝙚 𝙛𝙪𝙘𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙙𝙖𝙮𝙨—you had searched everywhere you could possibly think of to look for him. Every time, it was almost as though you’d only 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 missed him. On the third day—after you’d gone two towns over—you 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 found him at a bar, which wasn’t in the least bit surprising.
Butcher could usually be found at a bar—when he wasn’t following possible leads that could bring him one step closer to accomplishing his ultimate goal. He had taken a seat at the end of the counter, a half filled bottle of whiskey sitting in front of him along with a partially filled glass.
If you had to be completely honest—you would say that it looked almost as if trouble had practically 𝙙𝙧𝙖𝙜𝙜𝙚𝙙 him into the establishment for a refreshing drink. 𝙊𝙛 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚, 𝙞𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙙. It almost always did—even if he wasn’t looking for it.
Dark colored Hawaiian shirt underneath the heavily oiled double layered cotton till trench coat, complete with almost faded black jeans with a black belt fastened around his waist to help keep the jeans from falling. His unlaced black army boots were on his feet, as usual. His raven black hair had already been styled in its usual unkempt manner with his raven colored beard looking a bit scraggly. There was a certain kind of fire hidden deep within those dark hazel eyes—a fire that you’d come to know and recognize all too well.
He’d already had the fingers of one hand wrapped around the top of the glass while the other had lowered to his jeans—almost certainly landing on either a knife or a gun that he usually kept concealed unless he needed to use it. The minute you walked in, his dark hazel gaze shifted in your direction.
Surprise flashed across his features briefly before quickly disappearing and that insufferable 𝙨𝙢𝙞𝙧𝙠—the one you’d come to know and love—started tugging at the corners of his lips as amusement slowly found its way onto his normally stoic features. Shifting slightly in his seat, his dark hazel gaze never left you. “Well, well, well…” He started, his voice low and almost gravelly.
Before you could even register what was happening, you suddenly found yourself moving forward—only stopping when you were mere 𝙞𝙣𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙨 in front of him. You held up a hand, almost as if to silence him—like you could stop whatever snarky remark he’d been about to make from slipping past his lips. “Don’t.” Your tone was a bit harsh—though you had a perfectly good reason for it.
“Don’t 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩?” He questioned, his tone slightly mocking as his head tilted a bit to the side.
“Don’t make some kind of snarky comment or whatever the hell you were about to make.” You replied a bit too quickly. “I don’t want to hear it.”
The smirk widened slightly across the raven haired Brit’s lips as he looked up at you. “What’s got yer knickers in a twist, eh?”
You stared at him with an almost incredulous expression already washed over your features. Did he really 𝙣𝙤𝙩 know why you’d tracked him down? Then you saw it—the mischievous gleam in his eyes—and you knew immediately that he was toying with you.
“You left without saying goodbye, asshole.” You growled out, your hands already starting to clench into fists at your sides.
“Did I, now?” He lifted the glass to his lips and took a refreshing drink before setting it back down on top of the counter. “I seem t’ ‘memba leavin’ ya a bit o’ a 𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙚, luv.”
“If you can call scribbling 𝙩𝙝𝙧𝙚𝙚 𝙛𝙪𝙘𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙙𝙨 onto a piece of crumpled up paper, then sure. You left a note.” You snapped, your gaze already narrowing slightly in his direction.
“Actually, it was 𝙛𝙤𝙪𝙧.” He corrected.
You stared at him as he counted on his fingers.
“Don’t. Wait. Up. Luv.” He remarked almost casually.
“Funny. You should really think about becoming a fucking comedian.” Sarcasm filled your tone as you shot the sentence in his direction.
“So I’ve been told.” He replied, the smirk growing a bit more—if that was even remotely possible.
Without warning, you reached out and snatched the glass out of his hand before bringing it to your lips and within seconds, you’d downed the rest of the cool, amber colored liquid in one gulp before nearly slamming it back down.
Butcher’s dark brows raised briefly as he watched the whole thing quickly unfold in front of him. “Bit rude, innit?”
“Trust me, you’re 𝙡𝙪𝙘𝙠𝙮 that’s 𝙖𝙡𝙡 I did.” You shot back. “You deserve a hell of a lot worse.”
He held his hands up in mock surrender. “All right, ya got me, there.” There it was—a brief flicker beneath the bravado that usually spilled out every time he opened his mouth. The kind of flicker that almost 𝙣𝙤 𝙤𝙣𝙚 got to 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧—let alone 𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙞𝙘𝙚.
For Butcher, it was a small break in the defenses he normally had built up—and it was enough to leave him 𝙖𝙡𝙢𝙤𝙨𝙩 vulnerable. He’d never believed that he actually deserved to have anything good happen to him. Any and all hope or belief that he 𝙢𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 have had where that was concerned had been severely beaten out of him long ago by his abusive bastard of a father.
“So, why’d you leave? Hmm?” You looked at him—almost as if you expected him to just tell you to fuck off like he usually did when you started asking questions.
Just as quickly as the flicker in his tone had appeared, it disappeared and his expression shifted into an almost unreadable one. “‘Ad some business t’ tend t’.” Came the almost smooth response.
It was a lie and you both knew it. He’d been trying to create distance between you so neither of you would be able to get attached to the other. Yet, inevitably, he always kept coming back—to 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
“Really? 𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 the story you’re going with?” You raised a brow, placing your hands on your hips as your weight shifted slightly.
“Call it an 𝙤𝙘𝙘𝙪𝙥𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡 '𝙖𝙯𝙖𝙧𝙙.” He remarked as if it was the most normal thing in the world to be discussing.
“An occupational hazard?” You repeated slowly, still not believing it. “You could have told me about it.”
“Nah..” He shrugged lightly with a shoulder, leaning back in the seat before his dark hazel gaze shifted to the side for a few moments. “Ya were busy. ‘Sides, it ain’t exactly like it would o’ changed anythin’.”
“Oh, really? That’s what you think?” You kept watching him.
“It ain’t what I 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠. It’s what I 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬.” His tone had already hardened slightly.
“Well, you’re 𝙬𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙜.” You informed him. “Because it would’ve changed whether or not I woke up 𝙖𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙚.”
An almost deafening silence fell across the entire bar as Butcher’s dark hazel gaze suddenly shifted back to you. For a few moments, it was almost as though he was 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 looking directly at you.
For a terrifying moment, you had no idea what was going to happen. Maybe you shouldn’t have made that statement—but you hadn’t been able to stop it from slipping out. It was part of how you felt and you needed him to 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 it.
He looked tired—the kind when something much deeper threatened to take hold and not let go. Finally, he spoke and when he did, his tone had softened slightly. It wasn’t much, but it was 𝙚𝙣𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. “I ain’t the kind o’ bloke that ya should be wakin’ up next to, luv.”
Your heart nearly dropped into the pit of your stomach. “You’re always telling me that.”
“‘Cause it’s the truth.” Came the swift response.
“If it was as true as you claim..” You paused briefly, your tone softening. “Then why do you always come back?”
You had managed to do the impossible—shut him up.
For once, he didn’t know how to respond. Didn’t know the right words to say.
Deep down, you already knew the answer and when you looked into those dark hazel eyes of his, you could practically see it: because he didn’t know how to 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙮. Because every time he felt himself starting to get attached to something—or 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙚—he always convinced himself that it was too good to be true, that nothing would ever be able to work out, that everything was already doomed to fail, and that everyone would be better off 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙩 him being around to fuck things up further. So, he did what he always did—the only thing he knew how to do—and completely isolated himself from everything and everyone.
Because it was better for everyone if he destroyed whatever 𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙 might be trying to pop up into his already miserable and fucked up life. Because loving someone—even 𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜 about someone—meant that he’d be giving them something to lose. He’d spent far too many years making sure that no one would ever be able to take anything from him again.
As far as the raven haired Brit was concerned, he had absolutely 𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 left to lose—and he had every intention of 𝙠𝙚𝙚𝙥𝙞𝙣𝙜 it that way.
You moved closer, your gaze intense as you watched his every movement carefully and closely.
He finally tore his dark hazel gaze away from you to look over to the side for a few moments, clearing his throat slightly. “Yer a fuckin’ pain in me arse, ya know that?” His tone was gruff—though there was no real heat behind it.
You smirked. “Just answer the fucking question.”
His attention shifted back to you. “Much as I’d 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 t’ accommodate ya, I’m ’fraid I 𝙘𝙖𝙣'𝙩.”
“You 𝙘𝙖𝙣'𝙩, or you 𝙬𝙤𝙣'𝙩?” You pressed.
“What’d ya 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠?” He retorted.
You gave him 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙠—the one that clearly stated you weren’t going to be dealing with any of his usual bullshit this time. You needed a real, honest answer from him.
Sighing heavily, his dark hazel gaze shifted from you down to the half filled bottle of whiskey on top of the counter—almost as though he wanted to drown himself in it. In a way, he 𝙙𝙞𝙙. Lifting a hand, he ran it over his beard for a few brief moments before lowering it to the bar’s countertop. A low, humorless chuckle escaped from deep within his throat before he finally shook his head. “Yer wantin’ t’ know why a poor, sorry bastard like me always comes back, are ya?”
“I wouldn’t be asking if I 𝙙𝙞𝙙𝙣'𝙩.” You replied almost immediately.
The silence seemed to stretch on between the two of you for what felt like an eternity before he finally broke it. “I s’pose it’s ‘cause..” He paused slightly, almost as though he was trying to decide exactly what he wanted to say next. “Yer the only thing in me life that’s ever made me feel like I didn’t ‘ave t’ be anywhere else.”
The admission hit you like tidal wave slamming against a rocky beach. Your heart suddenly leaped into your throat as your breath hitched. For a few seconds, you couldn’t seem to breathe.
Butcher’s dark hazel gaze remained on the half filled bottle of whiskey—looking almost as if he’d said too much already. Almost as though he’d just handed you a loaded gun and only just realized what he’d done.
After a while, you reached for his hand once you finally managed to catch your breath.
His hand quickly caught your wrist in a firm grip. “𝘿𝙤𝙣'𝙩.” There was a clear warning in his tone as his dark hazel gaze slowly shifted to you.
You let out a slight gasp, clearly not having expected that. Looking up at him, your head tilted slightly as a rather confused expression washed over your features. “Don’t 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩?” Your voice was barely over a whisper as the question slipped past your lips.
His dark hazel gaze dropped to your lips for a few lingering moments before returning to your own gaze. “Don’t make me want things…” He paused for a moment before continuing. “‘Specially things I can’t ‘ave.”
“Maybe you 𝙨𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 want things..” You replied gently. “Nobody’s saying you can’t have anything, you know.”
His grip tightened, 𝙖𝙡𝙢𝙤𝙨𝙩 painfully before he quickly loosened it and pulled his hand from your wrist. “Ain’t exactly built fer it. Never really ‘ave been.” His tone was a bit defensive, yet as far as he was concerned, it carried a hint of truth to it.
“Sounds like the only thing you’re actually built for is pushing people away and then leaving.” You commented.
Butcher’s jaw tightened slightly, his body tensing almost as though he was preparing himself for what could be an inevitable confrontation. “Pretty bold o’ ya t’ assume suthin’ like that.”
“It’s true, 𝙚𝙨𝙥𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 from what I’ve seen.” You stepped closer. “So, are you going to leave again?”
Finally, his dark hazel gaze met yours again—a dark storm already brewing within them. “Might.”
You stepped closer until finally, there wasn’t much space between the two of you. “And yet, you’re still here.”
“Yeah, well… Don’t get used to it.” He grumbled a bit under his breath.
“You know, it’s funny.” You shifted your weight slightly as you lifted a finger, pressing it to your chin for a few moments. “You’re always saying how you’re a ramblin’ man..”
“Am I?” His voice held a slightly mocking tone to it as his head tilted briefly, still watching you.
“Mhm. You’re always acting like it, too.” You confirmed.
“Well, maybe I am.” He replied. “Maybe I like it 𝙗𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙖 that way.”
There was the defensive tone in his voice—arriving like a thick heavy blanket wrapping around someone to keep them warm. It was something you’d figured would happen—because it always did.
“Fine.” You replied simply with a light shoulder shrug. “Then what are you waiting for? There’s the door.” You gestured toward it.
His eyes narrowed slightly in your direction, his jaw tightening again.
You swallowed, but didn’t back down. “Ramble on out of here, if that’s what you want. Go find another bar in some other town.” You could already feel your heart starting to pound a little harder within your chest.
He glanced toward the door before glancing back toward you—almost as though he didn’t know what he wanted more.
“Well, go on.” You practically 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙘𝙚𝙙 the words out. “Nobody’s stopping you.” A lie. You’d try stopping him from leaving every time if it meant that you could spend even just one more night with him.
Butcher stayed where he was, not moving. His expression was nearly completely unreadable—though his eyes were a different story altogether. His eyes told you everything you needed to know—everything he could never bring himself to say. He wanted so desperately to 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙮, to be the man you deserved to have. He wanted 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
Finally—after what felt like 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧—he moved. The sound of the chair scraping against the floor, the motion of him pushing himself to his feet, straightening himself up to his full height of six feet, one inch. Instead of moving in the direction of the door, he turned and muttered what could have been a quiet curse under his breath. Reaching out, his arms quickly wrapped around you, instantly pulling you flush against him.
“Fuckin’ ‘ell…” He muttered, leaning down to press his forehead gently against yours. “Yer gonna be the fuckin’ death o’ me, ya know that?” The corners of his lips twisted into a faint half grin.
You smiled warmly, wrapping your arms around him to hold him as close as you could possibly get him, breathing in his scent as you buried your face into his chest. “You love me and you 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 it..” You whispered quietly.
Almost instantly, his expression tensed before softening slightly. His grip around you tightened briefly—almost possessively—as he took a deep breath, slowly letting it out before resting his chin gently on the top of your head. You weren’t wrong. He 𝙙𝙞𝙙 love you—and that was the problem. For once, the raven haired Brit had no snarky comment, no clever reply. Instead, he let his dark hazel eyes slide closed for a few moments as he stayed there, keeping you firmly pressed against him. “That’s the fuckin’ 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙗𝙡𝙚𝙢.”
The admission was soft and quiet, barely over a whisper—yet you couldn’t help the smile that had already crept across your lips. You knew then that you had won—and you would continue winning for as long as he would allow it to happen. “Stay.” The word had slipped out before you could even think to stop it.
His breath hitched slightly—only for a few seconds. Now would normally be when he’d push himself away from you to create distance—when he would make up a lie about needing to be somewhere else, so he wouldn’t have to be so close. But now? He knew he didn’t have a clever lie to think of—and he didn’t have anywhere else he had to be. If he was completely honest? He would have to admit that the only place in the world that he’d rather be was right there with you. “Can’t promise ferever, luv..”
“I didn’t ask for that, did I?” You responded softly, biting your lower lip gently.
“Good.” He tried to sound gruff—though his actions were betraying him. More than anything, he wanted to promise you that he would stay right there with you forever—or for as long as you’d be willing to have him.
Looking up at him, you searched his features for a few moments. “Promise tonight, at least.”
For the first time in his life—Butcher looked absolutely 𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙧𝙞𝙛𝙞𝙚𝙙, because he 𝙬𝙖𝙨. He wasn’t terrified of death, Homelander, or even the monsters he’d spent his whole life hunting down so he could send them into the grave. No, he was terrified of 𝙮𝙤𝙪. Terrified of wanting to stay, even 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 terrified of waking up next to you tomorrow and still wanting this—whatever 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 was.
“One night, that’s all I ask.” You lied, though you tried to sound convincing.
He stared at you for a few moments—already knowing that you weren’t asking for just 𝙤𝙣𝙚 night. “One night.” He finally relented.
You smiled a bit more. “That’s all I need.”
It was a lie, and you 𝙗𝙤𝙩𝙝 knew it.
Despite himself, Butcher could feel a genuine smile tugging at the corners of his lips before he leaned in, quickly capturing your lips with his in a hard and passionate kiss that tasted like whiskey mixed with cigarettes along with every mile he’d ever traveled in a desperate attempt to escape from himself.
You moaned softly into the kiss, kissing him back just as hard and just as passionately, your grip tightening a bit around him.
Rain had already started falling outside in a steady downpour.
There was no telling 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 tomorrow would bring. Maybe he’d leave—or maybe, just 𝙢𝙖𝙮𝙗𝙚—he’d stay. He might find another road to travel down that called his name, or he might get a new lead that would bring him one step closer to his ultimate goal.
But for tonight, at least, he would 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙮—which was as close to forever as 𝙖𝙣𝙮𝙤𝙣𝙚 could ever hope to get.