mikey

Mikey | 18 | Human | Broken

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lcbrat:

         PAIN  IS  THE  ONLY  THING  TELLING  ME  I’M  STILL  ALIVE.            teen wolf (main verse)    ⧱   original character   ⧱   independent and selective                                                        penned by spencer

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Stuart chuckled and stroked Mike’s hair. “Just a million ?” he teased. “Ugh, don’t tell me about it. This supernatural scooby gang is getting annoying.”

Mikey relaxed under the soft touch. He loved when the house was empty, when they could be close and he didn’t have to worry about any questions about his ‘no touching’ rule. “ Tell me about it, ” he sighed. “ Want to watch a movie or something? ” he offered.

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Stuart smiled and felt himself relax a little. “Just some guys at work. They are older, and think they know everything.”

Mikey chuckled, thinking if only they knew how old the demon truly was. “ We both know you’re a million times smarter than any of them, ” he assured, shifting so he could rest his cheek on his brother’s shoulder. “ I’m glad you’re home. I’ve been so bored. Dad’s at work and Stiles is off somewhere with Scott’s pack. ”

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“Sometimes I just can’t believe people..” The demon said, extending his legs so they were laying on his brother’s laps.

“ Oh, ” Mikey offered a pout, leaning into him, “ Wanna tell your little brother what happened? ”

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“…”

“ Stuart? What’s wrong? ” he asked, plopping himself down next to his brother.

[books-n-quotes]

I did not like to be touched, but it was a strange dislike. I did not like to be touched because I craved it too much. I wanted to be held very tight so I would not break.

Marya Hornbacher, Wasted (via books-n-quotes)

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“I look at you, and I just love you, and it terrifies me. It terrifies me what I would do for you.”

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Stuart stroked his hair gently, pulling off a little to look down at his brother. “Of course you can, you don’t even need to ask.” he said. While Stiles was possessed, Stuart used to crawled into Stiles bed to help him fall asleep and help with the nightmares, and they were used to share bed every now and then. Right now it was Mikey who needed help, and he would do everything for him. The demon pulled them down, laying on the bed.

he relaxed a little when he agreed, glad he wasn’t asked for a reason. he shifted when stuart pulled him to lie down, curling into his brother. it felt so nice to be held. having spent weeks convincing those around him to keep a distance when it came to touch, finally allowing himself to enjoy it was like a tidal wave hitting him. “ thanks. ”

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Stuart started stroking his back gently, nuzzling his brother’s cheek. Mikey’s sudden happiness was overwhelming him, his emotions hitting him in waves. The demon smiled at that, his lips brushing Mike’s cheeks, then down to his neck.

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mikey closed his eyes, the events causing him to feel exhausted. physically he was the same as ever, but mentally he was exhausted. his mind always running a wile a minute and he hated it. stuart was helping though, allowing him to calm in the quiet. mikey couldn't help but enjoy the gentle touches, so unused to them. " you're the best brother, " he whispered softly.

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Stuart stroked his hair gently, pulling off a little to look down at his brother. “Of course you can, you don’t even need to ask.” he said. While Stiles was possessed, Stuart used to crawled into Stiles bed to help him fall asleep and help with the nightmares, and they were used to share bed every now and then. Right now it was Mikey who needed help, and he would do everything for him. The demon pulled them down, laying on the bed.

he relaxed a little when he agreed, glad he wasn’t asked for a reason. he shifted when stuart pulled him to lie down, curling into his brother. it felt so nice to be held. having spent weeks convincing those around him to keep a distance when it came to touch, finally allowing himself to enjoy it was like a tidal wave hitting him. “ thanks. ”

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nerdisums:

Stuart could feel Mikey’s anxiety, he could almost hear him think. Stiles and Mikey always been like this, always thinking, always nervous. Stuart was more calm, like he didn’t inherited the anxious genes from their mom, but the rationality and the calmness of their dad. “Do you want to lay down ?”

at the question mikey couldn’t help the wave of relief that flooded him. demon or not it was stuart. “ yeah... stuart, would- ” he paused, biting his lip and pulling back to look at his brother. “ would it be okay if i slept in here tonight? ” mieky shared stiles room, and honestly he’d feel safer with stuart.

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Stuart was glad Mikey could understand, because he knew his brother’s been down that road too. When his twin sat beside him, he wrapped his arms around him and held him close, resting his chin on his head. “We’ll be just fine, you’ll see.” he murmured.

he’d be lying if he said he wasn’t scared. but, what else was new? he held onto the other tightly. even if this turned out to be the wrong choice, even if the demon could convince stuart to him him, at least he’d get this. he nodded, mostly because he didn’t know what to say.

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Stiles bit his tongue, wanting to argue that he of all people should be allowed to touch him. They shared a fucking embryonic sack, that goes beyond anxiety. But he knew it wasn’t that simple. Trauma wasn’t a rational creature. “You don’t talk about it. We don’t talk about it. We were both tortured in that place, you more than me, don’t get me wrong. I’m not trying to play the my hurt is worse than your hurt game, I just… We don’t talk about it. Don’t you think we should talk about it? Isn’t that supposed to help?”

“ Stiles! ” Mikey begged. “ Please, don’t make me go down that road, ” he couldn’t do it. Mikey knew if Stiles found out the truth it would ruin him. That’s why he hadn’t told anyone what happened to him. If they found out what the doctor’s made him see? He couldn’t imagine what it would do to his brother. As much as Mikey was terrified of Stiles, he also knew it wasn’t his fault. “ You don’t want to know, ” he tried to convince him.

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duran rubs his face tiredly. he’s so numb anymore over claudia. it is almost so physically painful that he can’t bring himself to feel much. it’s confusing and infuriating all at the same time. a part of him is insanely jealous that he never had dreams about claudia, but then again, he barely remembers his childhood anyway. maybe he did, and the memories are just repressed.

“do you still dream about her?” he asks. he does, but it’s rare, and that’s counting the times he lets himself sleep drug-free. then, it occurs to him that this conversation might be about as painful for mikey as it is for him. “we can drop the subject if you want,” he adds, almost hastily. “i don’t want to drag you down a dark road again.” he frowns, but doesn’t pull away. maybe they need each other’s comfort more than talk of their mom.

“ no, ” he admitted. he didn’t. “ the nightmares... they’re different now. they’re about eichen, and... ” he stopped, holding his brother close. he wanted so badly to open up, to tell him the truth. to finally be able to talk to someone but he was so goddamn scared. he knew the minute he said it he was going to regret it. it made him sick to even think about. he was so fucked up he couldn’t differentiate between reality and hallucinations.

he gripped onto the other boy, hiding his face in duran’s shoulder, trying so hard not to cry. he hated that the years of abuse had turned him into such a wreck. he felt weaker, not stronger. “ and, ” his voice was barely a whisper. “ they’re about stiles. ”

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nerdisums:

Stuart felt bad for lying, but it was for Mikey’s own good. He sighed, looking down at the floor. “I’m not the kid you used to know, but yes I am still me.” He had bloody hands, and a dark past, but in the end he still was this nerd kid Mikey knew before he was taken.

mikey took a few deep breaths. who was he to judge? he was fucked up so far past the person he could have been that he didn’t even know who he was. he pushed himself off the door, going to sit next to stuart on the bed and pulling the other boy into his arms. “ okay, then. i don’t need to know anything else, ” he insisted.

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Stuart sighed, scratching his neck. “Yes, he does.” he said, breaking the eye contact and looking down. He walked back to his bed and sat down, hiding his face in his hands. The demon didn’t knew what to say or what to do.

great, so they were lying to him. sure, he had been lying to stiles, but that was because he knew the other couldn’t handle the truth. mikey chose to step into the room and close the door behind him, leaning against it. “ but... you’re still you? ” he asked cautiously, desperately wanting it to be his brother.

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nerdisums:

Stuart was hurting, and he knew he should. It was understandable that his brother couldn’t understand, he wasn’t there when Stuart got possessed, and his brother missed a lot of things. But it also made him realize even more who he was, just a demon that didn’t belonged there anymore.

The knock on his door made him jump, he hesitated before he opened the door, looking down at his brother, not saying anything.

mikey was going to try. he’d been kind to him, like a brother. it wasn’t like the other had hurt him. if he really was stuart, than mikey could believe he wouldn’t hurt him. when he opened the door he sighed, forcing himself to make eye contact. 

“ does stiles know? ” he asked. he had to know if this was a secret that involved his other brother.