that should be imprisoned from the world?
For beating up the grown man
He sounds like a superhero
I used to watch on the TV
The one that every little boy says,
"I wish that could be me!"
She was only 16 years old.
Her abusive stepfather was 6'2"
I was a short but protective 18 year old.
The fight was on September 11th, 2001
The day the terrorists attacked America
I watched the second plane hit the tower
I watched both towers burn black smoke
Before they both imploded.
After watching the towers fall
It was sometime past eleven
My family told me that a friend of mine hung himself and went to Heaven.
The day from hell was far from over
That's when my friend told me
Vicki had been abused again
There has never been a day
that my life was more affected.
I was charged with multiple counts
of 1st and 2nd degree assault.
This was the only one not my fault.
I was taught to cheer for the hero
While he's killing the villain
But when they try to imprison the hero
It's the hero's future they're killin.
They said that I was guilty
That I was a bad teenager
And took out my anger on a stranger
The truth is he swung at me first
But he was slow because he was drunk
He should have throw it faster
Out of my 50 street fights
I've never hit anyone harder
After I hit him with one punch
Now I'm facing 45 years in prison
For beating up an abusive drunk.
That night he had emergency surgery
To fix the left side of his face
In his orbital, cheek, and jaw bone
to hold the metal plates in place.
When they say the villain was you?
So you're really confused.
Everything you've ever learned wasn't true.
"No, you don't understand!"
"I watched the cartoons!"
"You're the one who's confused!"
the pureness of your heart.
how hard you love others,
and the protector that you are?
The depression wouldn't lessen
It was slowly eating me alive
For beating up the abusive guy?
My life went down the tubes
Waiting on the outcome of my case.
I had only been to jail once
My first Arrest was at 16.
But this charge carries prison time
For a decade or more at least
The year before the fight
I was the High School Hockey
But I no longer resembled
that happy and confident kid
I always loved playing the game
But that love turned into hate
Giving up everything I loved
Wider than the grand canyon
I put all the liquor and drugs in me
That my 155 lb body could handle.
I became violent and angry
I started hitting people for no reason
I couldn't stop getting arrested
This led to a deeper depression
And I couldn't handle the pressure
When they killed the hero
with the devil down in hell.
From the resentment you gave me.
When they killed the hero's spirit
I had to mourn the hero's death
The villain was the only character left
When the hero became the villain
The heroes heart never changed,
The villain was a character,
In the hero's life that he played.
Just to prove that you were wrong
After 20 years of playing the villain
I'm the villain you now know
After 20 years of playing the villain
The villain became all I know.
When you are a competitive person
You always want to be the best
So if you're the villain now
The villain has been told all his life that the way he carries himself is intimidating.
That's because he has an exterior of fear that he spent years creating.
The purpose is to keep you away from him.
This is his way of motivating you.
"BEWARE" is the message he is communicating to you.
Because if you get too close
It took a year to go to trial
I was already the villain
You said I was the bad guy
I was just a hero that you despised
You couldn't stand the fact
You weren't the hero in someone's eyes.
He wasn't good enough for you
because the hero wasn't you.
I would have never become the villain
For being the man you could never be
You did your best to discourage
The only kid with the courage
To stand up for what he believes
Instead of high fiving the hero
You saw the traits of a real man
Knowing that's what you lacked
Now ur telling me she lied
"It was all a part of her plan!"
"To get a reaction from you!"
She told me months before the fight
One night her stepfather grabbed her
And began squeezing her tight
That's one of the events that lead to the September 11th fight
When she said that she froze
I knew she was telling the truth
I used to do the same thing
When I was bullied in my youth
When Vicki told me of her stepfather's fury
I was going to put an end to this story
I looked her dead in the eyes
Without any fear or surprise
I made her a silent promise
While in fear for her life
It will be the last time it does
I protect the people I love
I don't seek thanks or praise
I do it out of fear for them
How could you NOT do the same?
5 years after September 11th
I still wasn't doing any better
But God blessed Vicki and I
When he gave us a child together
But I had a problem that everybody could see
I am alcoholic and an addict
My problem is more than me.
3 years after our son was born
I never believed that she would leave.
She spent 10 years in hell
Before she called it quits
She ended up marrying a good man
And having three more kids
between someone who is successful
Was allowing the opinions of others
Now I'll always be two characters
I decide what character to play
Depending on how I'm feeling
I would never be the same
Because I see better days
To get sober and turn my life around
I had nothing to do with it though
It was God's grace that I found
From the resentment that you gave me
Back to the character God made me
Through the opinions of others
I became infected with lies
I no longer listen to opinions
Only God's Word now applies
I don't care what people say
When He put the protective trait in me
I was chosen for a specific role
To protect His children from evil
As long as I keep doing what I'm doing
I'm doing what He made me for
He will get me through the hell
A protective person must endure.
We co-parent and remain close friends
'If you had a chance to do it over
Is there anything you would change?"
My answer to that person was
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