Thoughts And Poems

Throughout my life I've been through many different trials. This is my safe place. Where I can share the memories and thoughts that keep me up at night. Where I reveal apart of myself not even my best friend knows about. A place where I try to discover who I am. My only hope is that you'll read my words and feel inspired, enlightened, or stronger.

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If you don’t love me, then I’ll finally allow myself to end

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I let you go so I could be okay enough to let myself go

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Let me write.

Let me be okay.

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I gave up my voice when life was great. I stopped writing, reading, or having anything worthwhile to say. Now that I’m sad again all I want is to know what words I need to say. Hopefully it’ll come back to me

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I love how my phone seems to know which songs I need to hear.

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Everything's fine until I'm confined- then things go from bad to worse

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Him and I were facing the same dilemma but in opposite ways. He wouldn't cry because society told him not to. I wouldn't cry because society expected it of me.

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I'm still so fucking sad

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I feel like I'm laying on a hammock in the middle of a thunderstorm

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I'm stuck sobbing and wishing to tell you why, but I already know your reaction isn't what I need right now.

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I've been craving a taste of the future.

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I feel like I'm going to snap and nobody can know about it.

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I'm scared to sleep because I know I'll wake up in the morning

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There are more days in the year that I wish I was dead compared to the days I feel grateful to be alive

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My friends are saying you're old news, my head is saying you're no good, and my heart is torn between loving you and all the pain you cause.

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You worked so hard to spoil me with the latest gadgets and toys, but all I ever wanted was to be spoiled with your time and love