Actually a Mess

Novak. He/him. CPTSD, OSDD, psychosis. Trigger warning for whole blog.

[tap3tum-lucidum]

too much for me

[brokenhalohealingwings]

Three years 💔

[fetishtofuneral]

[bpd--daisy-blog]

[messy-beautiful-grace]

you know what really grinds my gears?

when advice like

“Drink water”

“Set goals!”

“Exercise”

“Do things you enjoy!”

and related suggestions are completed written off by many people with a mental illness, especially on this site. IF YOU’RE PISSED, STAY WITH ME FOR A MOMENT.

these things ARE NOT EASY. i know because i’m there! BUT evidence based (AKA PROVEN TO HAVE SUCCESS IN SOME INDIVIDUALS) therapeutic styles like DBT (dialectical behavior therapy) have entire lessons / foundational aspects based on advice like this. examples:

Emotion Regulation: accumulating positive emotions, short term

Examples include eating, sleeping, laughing, exercising, etc

Emotion regulation: accumulating positive emotions, long term

Examples include identifying values, setting goals, planning action steps

PLEASE skills: taking care of your mind by taking care of your body

PL = Physical illness: take care of body, see doctor, take meds

E = Balance Eating: don’t eat too much or too little, eat regularly and mindfully. stay away from foods that make you overly emotional

A = avoid mood altering substances = no drugs and limited alcohol use

S = balance sleep: try to get 7-9 hrs, or whatever makes you feel your best, keep consistent sleep schedule

E = exercise: do some sort of exercise every day. try to build up to 20 min a day

i literally could go on for so long with more examples. the point is: these things aren’t easy. we talk about that all the time in my DBT class. one of the first points to all of these is to “avoid avoiding” and gives tools to help you avoid, avoiding these helpful activities. they won’t change your life overnight but you can increase positive experiences and slowly, overtime create a life worth living (aka the basis of DBT)

don’t write off these things because the person suggesting it doesn’t understand how much harder it is for you. FRIEND I️ KNOW ITS HARD but your life is worth living and you deserve to know that. you and your body deserve these basic things that care for both your mind and body.

[pearwolf]

when you can't sleep *recalls traumatic memory* *recalls traumatic memory* *recalls traumatic memory* *recalls tr

[unstablemotions]

i’m 21

but i’m not

[bpd-tree]

Support trauma victims who didn’t mature due to their situation and instead regressed in responsibility as a way to cope

[shoefaced-deactivated20210321]

Shoutout to the people who deal with atypical symptoms of depression.

To people who sleep too much and yet still always feel fatigued.

To people who deal with binge eating or increased appetite and may deal with body image issues as a result of this.

To people who have momentary improvements in mood after hearing positive news only for it to drop back down again later.

To people who deal with leaden paralysis, where you limbs feel weighed to the point that movement is strenuous and slow.

To people who are extremely sensitive to rejection to a point that it could potentially hinder your relationships with family, coworkers, and friends.

Depression isn’t expressed the same way for all people, and every manifestation of it deserves to be recognized and de-stigmatized.

[mentalllyillfuck]

[mega-faunaa]

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[deadwatered]

to my younger self / I wish I cared for you better

[20012001]

i still can’t understand why you left the way you did, but i wish you well

[tearedupeyes]

how naive of me to think that i would ever get better

[a-n-x-i-o-u-s]

When you can feel a breakdown coming soon but you don't know when

[bruisingsys]

some of you have never been in a certain paralyzing state of terror when your parent is furious because any wrong move might send them over the edge and result in pain and it shows