Life can be a bitch 💯

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

They say blood is thicker then water but I remember when water was there and blood wasn’t ..

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

I hate how I have to beg to get attention from my boyfriend. Sometimes it feels like I’m the only one making a effort in our relationship. All he seems to care about is playing his game. I’m honestly at the point where I just want to be single.

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

Sometimes I feel like a fuck up.. Like I know I shouldn’t do things but I do it anyways. I’m very stupid with money. My boyfriend has his mom who can give him whatever he wants and who is there for him…

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

So tired of everyone’s mood swings with me .. lately everyone’s just been so moody I really want to just get away

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

I swear both of my parents are toxic asf… they stay involving me and coming to me about there bullshit like I don’t care I really don’t give a fuck I’m so tired of both they shit and they wonder why I don’t talk or come around anymore frfr I’m so over the toxic shit I’m so tired of hearing my mom talk about all that shit my dad tells her and I’m so sick of my dad telling me how much he hates her .. honestly I’m about to cut both of them off frfr .

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

Lately there hasn’t been any negativity in my life I feel like it’s way to good to be true… also my sister had her son a couple of days ago and he’s so cute literally the sweetest baby❤️❤️😍😍

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

Every since my parents fall out my mother never says things like your piece of shit dad or wishes death on him but lately he’s been wishing bad things on her and saying the most fucked up things about her… I’m so tired of this foreal .

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

I have been so over it I’m so sad all the time I had to start taking depression and anxiety medication to help my mood boost… Lately I been cutting out a lot of toxic people… I’m so tired of my dad and his hate for my mom.. it’s like he doesn’t even care that she is the mother of his children… he calls her names like a junkie whore and just all kinds of disrespectful things… I’m so over everyone saying mean things about one another like how hard is it to just be nice.. I’m so tired of this life.. I always keep hope that things will get better but honestly I think they never will. 

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

IM SOOO TIRED OF THIS FEELING 💔🥀

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

Lately I have been feeling so sad..:. I just feel like I fuck everything up and that I can never be happy.. My life has been going to shit and I’m so tired … I’m so tired of dealing with it… I feel like no one understands … I talked to my mom about it and she could relate to me it made me feel good …. She reminded my life is worth it ….. but as soon as I left i started to feel down again and about myself …. I hate the way my life is going …. In my apartment there’s no air and there’s no water …. Every since I moved here I’ve been in nothing but pain…

And work has been awful… I feel so trapped at my job like sometimes I just wanna pick up the phone and scream and I hate it …. I did some shit in 2019 that had me get arrested for disorderly conduct and resisting arrest and for whatever reason my background checks have become a problem and it’s making me just wanna give up on everything ….

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

Honestly I am so sick of my sister like she favors men she’s only knew for 8 months more then she does her own family … goes to say blood ain’t thicker then water and family will cross you quicker then strangers

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

I honestly hate it when my dad says things like he hopes my mom dies and everything will be better off without her those type of things hurt sometimes I swear he forgets that’s my mom … just like he didn’t like when people talked shit about her to us he needs to stop… One thing my therapist taught me is that I have to close off of the negative things in my life! Sometimes I feel as if my parents are toxic and I hate it … but I have to work on my mental health and get myself better …. Sometimes I really feel like giving up though 🥀

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

I hate how I try to heal I try to forgive people but they always show me why I shouldn’t forgive and why I should resent them..🥀🥀

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

I swear my brother and sister are the only two things that keep me going ... I love them with everything in me.. I would honestly give my life for those two fr.. They are my first and only love🤞🏽🥀🥀

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

I really wanna have a better life ... I want better for myself but I’ve just been so depressed lately ... I hate how I take it out on people I love... I’ve finally accepted the fact that I need to go to therapy and get down to the root of my problem... I really just want to be happy ..

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

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Things will start to look up you just have to stay positive baby girl🥀❣️

[brokenhealingheartedgirl]

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I'm not sure what's been going on but I have been so depressed lately. I haven't been happy at all.. I try really hard to keep a positive attitude with everything but its been so hard lately.. All I want to do is sit in bed.. I don't want to hang out with friends anymore or do anything.. Not really sure what's gotten into me.. I want the old me back, but sometimes I feel like I'm way to far gone..🥀