MOVED TO DEATHLISTED

𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙱𝙻𝙰𝙲𝙺 𝚂𝙷𝙴𝙴𝙿 𝙾𝙵 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙵𝙸𝚂𝙲𝙷𝙴𝚁 𝙵𝙰𝙼𝙸𝙻𝚈

[checkmatcd]

you  may  think  you’re  winning  this  heartbreak,  but  you’re  not  gonna  win  it  ‘cause  CHECKMATE.

multimuse  ft.  muses  from  a  variety  of  fandoms.  revamped  jan  2020.  template.

[brorebel]

nick has moved to @deathlisted

[brorebel]

nick has moved to @deathlisted

[brorebel]

nick has moved to @deathlisted

[brorebel]

nick has moved to @deathlisted

[rpmusings-galore]

            i’m going under 

                          &&  this time… I fear there’s no one to

                                                                                 s a v e  m e

[ofhotheads-blog]

THE MEME FOR PEOPLE WHO HATE HAPPINESS.

Who doesn’t love soul-crushing angst? Send me a 💔 and I’ll generate a number, 1-75, and post a starter based on what scenario I get. 

Please note that some of these scenarios may be triggering.

Keep reading

[rothelp]

miscellaneous angst starters.

when were you going to tell me?

you can’t keep doing this to yourself.

that’s…a lot of blood.

can you walk?

please don’t lie to me.

you were supposed to leave.

i’m not going anywhere without you.

shh, it’s okay. it was just a dream.

there was nothing more you could have done.

it wasn’t your fault.

this is all my fault.

you aren’t acting like yourself.

i’m never going to let [her/him/them] hurt you again.

you’re hurting me.

don’t ever do that again.

go to hell.

please don’t cry.

you have to stay awake.

i wish i could take the pain away.

you could have died.

hey – stay with me.

it’ll be over soon.

did you ever love me?

i’m sorry. i can’t do this anymore.

things won’t always hurt this bad.

you passed out.

how much have you had?

i’m okay. it’s all fine.

it’s not okay! you’re not fine!

let me get you something for the pain.

it’s nothing. it’s just a bruise.

it’s clearly not nothing.

have you been to the doctor?

i didn’t mean the things i said.

i thought we meant something.

people who are okay don’t act like this.

you don’t have to go through this by yourself.

i don’t want you to be alone.

please don’t regret me.

i heard you crying.

you need to get some rest.

when was the last time you ate something?

i’m worried about you.

did you have another nightmare?

[name], there’s nobody there.

i want to be happy but i don’t think i deserve it.

please talk to me.

why are you mad at me?

alcohol isn’t going to solve your problems.

don’t leave me.

did you do this to yourself?

it’s breaking my heart to see you like this.

tell me what’s wrong.

tell me how to make it better.

why don’t you care?

get the hell away from me.

please don’t do this.

i can’t believe that you lied to me.

just…stay for the night.

you obviously can’t be trusted to take care of yourself, so let me do it for you.

you can’t die. i won’t let you.

just hang on, okay?

hold my hand if you need to.

i’m sorry.

why do you have a gun?

don’t panic.

just breathe.

you’re bleeding.

i’m trying to stop the bleeding.

you’ve been crying, i can tell.

you should have told me sooner.

i wanted to tell you in person.

a phone call would’ve been nice.

i hate you.

i love you.

[lipgallaghersaysfuckyou]

[e2castiel]

[brorebel]

@brojock​ asked: “'Cause everybody needs a friend, it’s true.” :)))) sing to me instead lyrics prompt | accepting

his first instinct is to tell joe to 𝙵𝚄𝙲𝙺 𝙾𝙵𝙵, that he doesn’t need anything, that hes perfectly fine on his own. but that isn’t true. for as long as he can remember it's never been true. 𝙰𝙻𝙾𝙽𝙴 through high school, still basically alone now. the boy was trapped in his own mind, 𝚃𝚁𝙰𝙿𝙿𝙴𝙳 in the same bad habits. people would always talk about how hes the quiet one, about how he never has much to say. but nick has 𝙰 𝙻𝙾𝚃 to say, knows and thinks far more than anyone would believe. his desire to share his feelings is strong, but his desire to 𝙱𝚄𝚁𝚈 𝚃𝙷𝙴𝙼 is stronger. a drink, a joint, a smoke, all three. whatever it takes to numb the mind, live in the constant state of 𝙴𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚈 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝚄𝙽𝙰𝚆𝙰𝚁𝙴 that everyone expects of him. it's so much simpler when it's that way.

but oh, things were getting 𝙱𝙴𝚃𝚃𝙴𝚁. things had been getting good. college had opened the boy up, and while bad habits may still be strong hes found himself people who know what hes on about. people with habits 𝙰𝚂 𝙱𝙰𝙳 as his own, some even worse. and its oh so easy to convince him to try something a little bigger, something just a bit 𝚂𝚃𝚁𝙾𝙽𝙶𝙴𝚁, because a broken boy who has spent his whole life lonely will 𝙶𝚁𝙰𝚂𝙿 at his newfound friends in the hope that they will make him 𝚆𝙷𝙾𝙻𝙴 𝙰𝙶𝙰𝙸𝙽. but all they do is add to the numbness, occasionally give him something that takes the numbness away. he fit in, and finally he felt like he 𝙱𝙴𝙻𝙾𝙽𝙶𝙴𝙳.

𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝚃𝙷𝙴𝙽 𝙺𝙴𝚅𝙸𝙽 𝚆𝙰𝚂 𝙸𝙽 𝚃𝚁𝙾𝚄𝙱𝙻𝙴. and, even if it meant facing the monster in his head, nick went back. and suddenly it had all come 𝚁𝚄𝚂𝙷𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙱𝙰𝙲𝙺. the feelings of inadequacy, nothing ever being quite good enough. the label of the 𝚃𝚁𝙾𝚄𝙱𝙻𝙴𝙳 𝙲𝙷𝙸𝙻𝙳 feeling more appropriate by the day, his father growing tired of his presence by the second. it had been a bad idea, but kevin 𝙽𝙴𝙴𝙳𝙴𝙳 him. kevin needed all he could get. his friends were dying and there was nothing that could be done to comfort him, for as soon as the boy started to feel better he would 𝙻𝙾𝚂𝙴 𝚂𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙾𝙽𝙴 𝙴𝙻𝚂𝙴.

hiding at joe's place when things get rough is 𝙽𝙾𝚃𝙷𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙽𝙴𝚆, simply another in the cycle of things that came with moving back home. 𝙷𝙸𝙳𝙸𝙽𝙶 always seemed like such a simple option, even if nick had long learned that hiding from their father 𝙽𝙴𝚅𝙴𝚁 fixed anything, only ever made things worse. the man could hold a grudge, and things weren’t forgotten just because you left the house.

“ 𝚂𝙷𝙾𝚄𝙻𝙳𝙽'𝚃'𝚅𝙴 come back. ” its mumbled, stated as a fact despite the clear nerves behind the statement. perhaps kevin did need him, but kevin didn’t need 𝚃𝙷𝙸𝚂 𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚂𝙸𝙾𝙽 of him. the version of him who would run and hide because 𝙳𝙰𝙳𝙳𝚈 𝚆𝙰𝚂𝙽'𝚃 𝙱𝙴𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙽𝙸𝙲𝙴. he felt like a child, so weak and easily scared. but his father could do that to him so easy. and just when things had seemed like they were improving, his father had so easy brought it all tumbling down again. as if it had been nothing. “ 𝙵𝚄𝙲𝙺𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙺𝙴𝙽𝚃. ”

[flyingvirgin-deactivated2016071]

you ever listen to your dad talk and be like “why are you like this?”

[melamemea]

euphoria. episode two.

sentences drawn from the series ‘euphoria’ on HBO. trigger warnings apply; drug use, sex, rough language. viewer discretion is advised. 

“Sometimes, when I get really high, I think I’m a psychic.”

“Every video was basically the same.”

“I want to talk to you.”

“You’re a strong man.”

“You have an… iron will… drive… determination.”

“I always admired that in you.”

“No one in this world will ever root for you.”

“The farther you go, the sharper the blade.”

“Alright, let’s fucking go.”

“He loved the crowds, the cheers and the feeling of winning.”

“Bu the hated being in the locker room.”

“He hated how casual his teammates were about being naked.”

“He’d always make sure to remain eye contact.”

“They had a good relationship.”

“He didn’t like his mother either.”

“He made a long mental checklist about what he liked and didn’t like.”

“There was nothing more he hated on earth than body hair.”

“It made him feel good that he was there to protect her.”

“If anyone ever tried to hurt you, I’d kill them.”

“(name) could be a real bitch.”

“He had anger issues, but so did every other guy.”

“It was just… who he was and who he’d always be.”

“What are you doing?”

“Nothing… I just came to say goodnight.”

“I was feeling good about the world.”

“I’ve got an idea.”

“Wanna get high?”

“What is it?”

“Didn’t you just get out of rehab.”

“Should I be concerned?”

“I feel like this isn’t a good idea.”

“Do you feel anything?”

“I know you’re not allowed to say it… but drugs are kind of cool.”

“I mean, they’re cool before they wreck your skin… and your family.”

“It’s actually a very narrow window of cool.”

“This is embarrassing. I feel like everyone knows.”

“I just… I don’t wanna deal with all the fucking questions.”

“Wait… You’re alive?”

“Why does everyone think we fucked?”

“Alcohol is not good for me.”

“Honestly, I think I blacked out.”

“What’s your reddit username?”

“Please don’t do this to me.”

“Tell me a five minute story about your summer.”

“Just… relax your body. Release the tension.”

“Just breathe.”

“So… this… this summer?”

“I’m having… trouble remembering something.”

“I remember listening to this song with my mother and… sister…”

“I know you know this song.”

“Are you doing drugs in my house?”

“What are you doing ?”

“I’m not joking.”

“Dad’s so fucking proud.”

“Get off of me.”

“Back the fuck up and let me out of this fucking house.”

“I’m sorry but I — I can’t think of anything.”

“Do I have to do this?”

“You’re being fucking rude.”

“Are you okay?”

“You are so fucking stupid.”

“I don’t — I don’t want you to fucking check me.

“You gonna fucking help me?”

“Give me a fucking break. This does not means we are best friends.”

“Sorry if I miss the old you.”

“Yeah I slept like shit too.”

“Miss you.”

“I speak to them whenever I can.”

“He was too out of to notice that I was high.”

“Do you mind!?”

“Hey, uh, I’m gonna need you to do a big favor.”

“Pleasure doing business with you.”

“Shit, shit, shit, shit.”

“Uh, I’m gonna be right back.”

“Oh fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!”

“She never admitted it, and no one could ever prove it.”

“Everyone knew it was her.”

“It probably felt like we all knew.”

“That’s the weird thing about the internet.”

“We need to talk.”

“I didn’t do anything.”

“You know what? Fuck it.”

“Delete the video off your own.”

“I heard a disturbing rumor.”

“Frankly, it’s… offensive.”

“Is it because I’m fat?”

“Well I’m — I’m — I can’t apologize enough.”

“You guys pumped?”

“I, 100 percent, do not feel safe right now.”

“Let me take you out tonight.”

“Seriously?”

“I’m over it.”

“Breathing is clearly not a priority for you.”

“Fuck.”

“You wanna come over for dinner tonight?”

“I’m gonna binge watch some Madoka Magica.”

“Maybe you could come over… later?”

“Are you talking about me to your mom?”

“I’m such a loser.”

“I just want to say that I’m sorry.”

“So, what’s in store for friday night, hm?”

“Yeah, she’s a pretty cool girl.”

“I tell ya, it’s not easy to hold her attention.”

“She’s a good girl. She’s got a good heart. Handle with care.”

“Stop talking to him!”

“Ooh, you look so pretty.”

“Hey… wanna watch a movie?”

“Why don’t you let me take you out tonight?”

“I don’t know. Text me.”

“No cell phones during dinner.”

“I don’t think I have an attention span for real life anymore.”

“Hey, open the door!”

“What do you want?”

“Open the fucking door.”

“Too late, bitch.”

“I can’t help you right now.”

“Yo, I ain’t playing with you.”

“I’m fucking drenched.”

“I don’t got shit for you.”

“This is dead serious.”

“I could fucking kill you right now.”

“Look, I’m serious.”

“These dudes ain’t fucking around.”

“Like I haven’t earned my due.”

“Look at my stats.”

“Shit pisses me off.”

“You want to kill him?”

“Let’s fucking kill him.”

“It’s not funny. This motherfucker really pisses me off.”

“I though about you all week. I’m dying to fuck you.”

“Why you gotta make everything so sexual?”

“What?”

“I’m trying to have a real-ass conversation with you.”

“I’m — I’m sorry.”

“It’s cool. It’s alright.”

“Don’t look at him. Look at me.”

“You know that feeling when you come so hard you can’t feel or hear shit?”

“Dear god, I know I’ve been a cunt, but please —”

“What the fuck, man?”

“What the fuck are you doing here?”

“Who the fuck are you, man?”

“I was the one who was saying no.”

“Don’t fucking lie to me.”

“Don’t do this, please.”

“Get on your knees.”

“Hey, get on your knees, come on.”

“I didn’t do anything!”

“I’m gonna ask you a question —”

“I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings today.”

“It’s okay, I understand.”

“I really love spending time with you.”

“Are you in bed? can I see?”

“You are so beautiful”

“Oh shit.”

“I don’t believe you.”

“What do you want to know?”

“What’s under the covers?”

“Nudes? Please, I’m so horny.”

“I got you a present.”

“Ew.”

txt: are you awake?

txt: look who it is

txt: i know…

txt: is it weird that i missed talking to you today?

txt: u give me butterflies

txt: i just realized i don’t even know your name

[undermyanumbrella]

[liveasheroes]

[kristina100000]

i am extremely analytical and everything needs to be explained… hate living in the unknown bitch i have to know everything or i will fall into a coma

[phantomemes]

credit .

‘ did it really happen if i can’t remember it ? ’ ‘ but you kept trying , didn’t you ? ’ ‘ how can someone be too young to be in love ? ’ ‘ i will never forgive you ’ ‘ you have been the star of each and every one of my nightmares ’ ‘ i’m sorry if i wasn’t the child you had in mind ’ ‘ i only ever wanted to make you proud ’ ‘ silence has always been my loudest scream ’ ‘ i used to think i was broken ’ ‘ i’ve always felt like a stranger in my skin ’ ‘ i still wonder who i would have been ’ ‘ i didn’t realize i could be my own knight ’ ‘ i’m not scared of the monsters hidden underneath my bed ’ ‘ some names will always be cursed ’ ‘ i have so much love to give , but no one ever wants it ’ ‘ in all my dreams i could find myself picking my teeth out of the carpet ’ ‘ i’m sick to death of everyone telling me how strong i am ’ ‘ death is one of the senses ’ ‘ children are not meant to die before their parents ’ ‘ fate is a fucking lie ’ ‘ everyone i love leaves ’ ‘ i’m terrified down to my very roots that there are parts of myself that can never be filled ’ ‘ fuck the idea that there is such a thing as destiny ’ ‘ the pain did not make me a better person ’ ‘ i burned the bridges to all the things i could not repair ’ ‘ i would thank you , but we both know you don’t deserve it ’ ‘ i bet you regret making an enemy out of me ’ ‘ you can hate me forever if that’s what you really want ’ ‘ hurting others is a choice ’ ‘ you can have my forgiveness but you can’t have me ’ ‘ please believe me when i say revenge was never my intention ’ ‘ i am strong enough for anything ’ ‘ i am so glad we were born during the same lifetime ’ ‘ i may not believe in fate , but i believe in you ’ ‘ i am allowed to live my life ’ ‘ do not waste a minute mourning me ’ ‘ maybe you should start treating people better for a change ’ ‘ it is a fucking tragedy when the world does not stop for you when you give it every last drop of your blood ’ ‘ your failures are just what happened — they don’t have to be who you are ’ ‘ you have to keep moving forward ’ ‘ don’t allow the world to take your kindness ’ ‘ you owe no one your forgiveness ’ ‘ love is never a weakness ’