Sealed Off Heart

"If you plan to come in and out of our lives, just stay out. I won't allow it to happen again." Independent Satsuki Shinomiya blog Blog Type: Mutli-ship Tracking: brxkenfacade Icons: Made by myself or Deneca. Do not steal. Sidebar:...

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musical--android:

   “Hm…?”

   His brow raised at the initial statement. Satsuki wanted to be serious for the moment? That was far more than enough to fully grasp Ai’s attention. At times Satsuki would kid around and others he could be rather serious, but seldom would there be instances for the shadow to demand a moment to be taken seriously which meant something must have or something was going to happen. Giving a small nod of the head, Ai acknowledged that he was listening.

   Each word of how much Satsuki loved him were things Ai heard and witnessed daily with the other, but it never hurt to hear them spoken to him let alone spoken to them in the tone Satsuki used at this very moment. With each word… each breath… each syllable Ai was kept fully attentive. He was almost in a trance-like state as he listened, only to have everything pulled to a halt the moment the ring was taken out and presented to him.

   So this was why Satsuki wanted a serious moment. It made perfect sense now. Prior the shadow seemingly teased wanting to spend his life with Ai, but now that there was a physical ring and the question out in the open, everything became all that more real. The two were more than simply an android and a shadow with their own purposes to fulfill, they were their own individuals that had grown to form this strong bond with one another.

   “Idiot.” The first words that slipped past Ai’s lips were muttered time and time again before Ai would extend a hand out to the other. “You know very well what my answer is, but since you clearly wish to hear it I suppose I can do that this once…”

                      “Yes”

Each moment of silence felt like an eternity. He never doubted the other’s love but now the shadow wondered if this was too early. Maybe Ai didn’t feel they were ready. He had expressed before that this was a serious step. Satsuki was serious however would the other be ready? The thought of the other saying no scared him.

However, the fear went away when the other called him an idiot. Instead, he was a tad confused. It threw him off.

He listened to each word carefully. It didn’t sound like a no. His heart swelled but he told himself to wait. Then he heard the answer. A singular word. However, it was the best thing he could have heard. “Y-Yes?” He had to clarify it. Rather, let it be in the air again. He said... yes. Ai...

His expression softened as noticed the other’s hand reached out towards him. With a soft sigh, he took the engagement ring out of its box, slipping it onto the other’s finger. He breathed a sigh of relief when he confirmed it fit. “Ai, thank you.” The shadow brought the other’s hand to his lips, kissing the ring. Soon he found himself leaning up to wrap his arms around the other, bringing him into a hug. Tears... when did the tears start rolling down his face? “I love you, so much.”

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musical--android:

    “Ah…” As Satsuki jumped on the couch and scared Fuyuki, Ai’s attention moved over to the hissing feline before glancing back at Satsuki. Well… he has minimal choice but to look at Satsuki as the other wrapped his arm around Ai’s shoulder, bringing the android closer to him. Though Ai wouldn’t complain as he rather liked being close to the taller male. “That is a redundant question as it should be obvious that I did.”

“... Ya know that I’m asking so you can actually say it.” Still, that’s the kind of answer he was expecting from the android. It didn’t surprise him nor did it discourage him. Satsuki knew what he meant. He was missed. Looking at the other for a bit longer, he sighed. “Ai, I’m gonna be serious for a second so you better listen up.”

The shadow cleared his throat. “Ai... Well, first off, I love you. I’m gonna say that now. You mean... so much to me. I never thought I’d feel this way about someone, let alone you. I don’t mean it in a bad way but hell, we weren’t exactly on the best terms at first. I don’t know how or when you managed to make me fall for you but you did. I know our time... is limited.”

His free hand pulled out the small box that had resided in the other’s possession for the last few months. He didn’t look down at it yet but his fingers ran over the cover. “That isn’t what I want to focus on anymore. I want to spend each moment I have in my life with you. However, I don’t want to do it as we are now. I... I want more. Ai,”

Dropping his hold on the other, he took a breath. He had to do this. Getting off the couch, he knelt before the male, holding up the small box before opening it, revealing a ring inside. “Ai, will you marry me?”

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musical--android:

   To Ai, his birthday was just another day of the year only differing from the other days by greetings, gifts, and birthday wishes from the people around him as well as wishes from his fans on social media. No matter how many years would pass, Ai still failed to get accustomed to so many people sending him well wishes and greetings.Despite his inability to get accustomed to the special treatment on his birthday Ai had to admit it was rather pleasant to say the least.

   Feeling the kiss at the top of Ai’s head, Ai looked up to see the shadow before proceeding to return the kiss on the top of his head with a brief peck on Satsuki’s lips. No matter how many times Satsuki would surprise him with kisses, Ai would never get tired of this affectionate side to his stubborn boyfriend. “Hello.”

That sent his heart racing. Just a simple sign of affection yes but to Satsuki it meant so much more. The idol before him meant the world to the shadow. Staying there for a moment, he stared at the cyanet, taking in his expression. Was he in a good mood? Happy? The blond would say so. Otherwise he’d be in a doghouse by now. Chuckling at his own thoughts, he jumped over the couch before sitting on it. He scared the cat, who hissed and scurried off. “... My bad.”

Wrapping his arm around the other’s shoulder, he brought him close. Now he was petting his hair. “So, birthday boy, did you miss me?”

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@musical--android

The shadow had finally gotten the courage to go to the birthday boy. Had he been pacing back and forth in the lobby, debating on whether or not to finally go through with his plan? Satsuki had been planning this for a while. At first, it was going to be on Christmas, then New Years, Valentine’s day... Each time, it didn’t feel like the right time.

However, today was different. He felt different. His first thought of this morning was of the other (which is normal) but as well as his plan. He felt a bit nervous. Strange... to feel nervous again, like he did so much at the beginning. It all came full circle. With a chuckle, he opened the door that separated the two. The shadow was finally home. He looked around, finding the other curled up on the couch, his cat comfortably on his lap. Liz, Satsuki’s puppy, was lying on his bed, fast asleep. He chuckled at the scene before coming up from behind the couch, leaning down to kiss the top of his head. “Hello.”

[pxssiondream]

Yo, sofi here. gonna give ren here a shot. Do me a solid and like/reblog this so I can start throwing this boy out there? ren jinguji (utapri) of course of course. I’m pretty open to oc/other fandoms. My activity is a work in process because of life but hey, I’m excited for this~.

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musical--android:

   “You should give yourself more credit.” His voice became softer as Ai let out a soft and content sigh. “You do things without even noticing. You help me fill in the pieces. Without you… I wouldn’t be able to.”

He honestly thought he was passed being surprised by the other’s words. He was wrong, a bit embarrassed even. It was welcomed though. To feel this way, wanted, cared for... The shadow guessed he was still getting used to it. “I... I do? Well, I better keep it up.”

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musical--android:

   “You’re right. We are both learning from one another.” A content sigh slipped past Ai’s lips as he proceeded to rest his head against Satsuki’s shoulder. “I think that is why we work so well together.”

“Is it?” He often thought how the two of them got to this point. It was strange, really. They were so different but so alike... “I can see that. We’ll fill in the pieces together, somehow. Mostly you, though. You’re good at that kind of stuff.”

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@composingharuka

Don’t mind the shadow. He’s just snuck up on the woman and pulled her into his embrace. A kiss was placed on her cheek, trailing  along her face, tilting her head to reach her lips as well. “Chocolates and treats are sweet but... I honestly find nothing sweeter than you.”

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She's not even sure if Satsuki likes chocolates or sweets but oh well... "Happy Valentine's Day" Ren gave a wink and handed him a box of chocolates and a daffodil

“... I can do without the wink.” With a grumble he took the box. May as well give it a shot. An amused hum sounded as he chewed on a chocolate. “Not bad.”

[amidoodles]

some ai ship doodles i posted on my twitter for valentine’s day ♥

[heartlessvoice]

heya friends. deneca here. i’ve been away for a bit due to irl things and unfortunately i’ve come back to a super dead dash. so i’d really like to follow new blogs and/or get new partners, so if y’all could please LIKE AND/OR REBLOG if you’d be interested in with a tokiya ichinose ( utapri ) blog. i’m oc friendly and open to other fandoms so love me. also, if you guys wouldn’t mind reblogging this to get this around, that’d be swell. thank you!! 

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points to this dork Okay lemme just talk about Sacchan for a second. I just went on and on about him to a friend who knows nothing about utapri but ahhhh. I love Satsuki so much. He holds a special place in my heart as my muse. I don’t ever feel I struggle to bring him out (work keeps me away from his blog but that’s different). I just get him. Plus I really love him so much and how much he’s grown as an actual person. Hell, he wasn’t a person before. He was a part of Nacchan. Now... he’s Sacchan. Sacchan is Sacchan and that honestly makes me so happy. I’m actually gonna start crying. It didn’t hit me before but now that I logged back in here I’ve missed this dork so much. I wish I had all the time in the world to be here and just have others slowly love him as much as I do. I will try my best to log in every once in a while when life permits me to.

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musical--android:

   “I put up with you because despite all odds I’ve fallen in love with you. Saying something so sweet to me on this day… it seems Natsuki has been rubbing off on you much more than before. But even so you are still Satsuki and I still love you dearly. Thank you for allowing me to feel what love is like Satsuki.”

“Hm, I guess you can say that or just it’s how you make me feel. I love you as well. I taught you but you actually taught me as well, Ai. We’re both learning how to do it.”

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@musical--android

“Ya know, this holiday really only has meaning because you’re in my life. No matter how much I pester you, and I know I do, you still put up with me. So... I just wanted to say, thanks, Ai.”

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‘ just hold me. ’

soft angst starter

How long had it been? A month? Two? Time was hard to tell in the other world. Everyday was spent the same. Satsuki would be in their home, stretched out on the couch like he would normally. The difference was now he didn’t need a blanket.

A soul didn’t need anything from the physical world.

Well, not entirely true. He still needed Ai. He perked up every time his beloved woke up. It was strange to be able to see his morning routine. Normally he’d still be snoring in the bed he was leaving. Satsuki watched as he neatly made the bed, his hand hovering over the other pillow.

Satsuki’s pillow.

With a sad smile, he followed Ai around the room. When he left for the day, he waited for him on his old side of the bed.

Again, he would shoot up when the android would get home. He’d sit on the desk as he worked. He’d follow along as he cleaned. He respected his privacy though, waiting outside the bathroom door like a dog.

When it came time for bed, he watched as Ai pulled his covers over himself. He’d face the empty side of the bed, a hand placed over the other pillow. Satsuki would wait until his eyes would close before he’d lay on the bed as well. He frowned when he tried to hold him and his arms would just phase though.

“Ai, wait for me. I’ll hold you again soon,”

[vhsmeme]

* soft angst starters

‘ stay with me tonight? ’

‘ don’t talk. save your strength. ’

‘ hey, i’ve got you. it’s okay. ’

‘ i’ll be right here. don’t worry. ’

‘ i think we’re done. ’

‘ hold my hand. ’

‘ it’s all been a lie, hasn’t it? ’

‘ we’re out of time. ’

‘ you’ll always be a friend. ’

‘ just hold me. ’

‘ i have to leave you behind. i’m sorry. ’

‘ don’t do that. it’ll only hurt. ’

‘ go on, cry. ’

‘ keep your eyes open. ’

‘ can i hug you? ’

‘ i trusted you. ’

‘ do you remember? ’

‘ i loved you. ’ 

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musical--android:

   “It is exactly what you said.”

“Actually all I said earlier was how much I love you and how I’m keeping up with my schedule. Yup.”