⇁ series: unlikely alliance
⇁ pairing: yoongi x reader
“Oh fuck,” you groaned as you quickly shut your eyes again when the light coming from the window startled you. This was probably one of the worse hangovers you’ve ever gotten in your life. That’s not even the worst part yet, the fact you have no memory of last night made you wonder what the hell happened.
Your hands wandered around the bed as you blindly searched for your phone, knowing you left it near you when it should be charging on the bedside table. Your finger grazed upon something smooth and bony, causing you to frown from not knowing what the hell you were touching right now. It felt like a... finger? Instantly, you sat up which was a big mistake because now your headache was even worse than before and you actually think you’re going to vomit on the spot.
Blinking a couple of times to adjust your sight, you found Yoongi sitting on the floor with his head and arms resting on top of your mattress. What the fuck? Why is he here? You tried to recall what happened last night but nothing seemed to pop up or give you an idea to why he was here, sleeping next to you.
“Yoongi.” You lightly tapped on his shoulder, thinking he would wake up but didn’t. You repeatedly tapped his shoulder, slowly growing impatient and annoyed to the point you started to shake his shoulder violently. “Yoongi! Wake the fuck up.” You yelled in his ear.
“Huh?” Yoongi sat up and looked at his surroundings. “You scared me YN.” He pouted as he began to rub the sleep off of his eyes.
“Why are you here?” you questioned. “Did you get lost or something?”
He bit his lip, debating whether he should tell you the truth or just make up an excuse to why he was here. Though he needed to know if what you said last night was true but at the same time, he didn’t want to complicate things.
“You don’t remember what happened last night?” he simply started at that, wanting to know how far your memory goes.
Your fingers glide through your hair. “No, all I remember was us getting drinks and then that was it.” Sighing as you gently massaged the temples of your head, the pain not really subsiding.
“I just said that I don’t,” you groaned. “Why does it matter? And you still haven’t answered my question.”
“YN.” He pursed his lips, struggling to find a way to tell you how you confessed to him. “How do I tell you this.”
“Stop being dramatic and just tell me Yoongi.” You rolled your eyes. All you wanted to do was fall back asleep so the headache would go away.
He took a deep breathe, his heart racing all of the sudden. Oh god, why am I nervous? Just tell her, maybe it’s a misunderstanding. “YN, you told me that you were in love with me.” His eyes staring at yours. “Through the phone so that’s why I’m here because I wanted to talk to you once you’ve sobered up and just know if what you said was true.”
You confessed. You actually confessed to Yoongi and told him that you love him. You can’t believe you drunk dialed Yoongi and told him your feelings. Now you really feel the vomit coming up from your stomach, you felt sick and you wanted to hide forever. And how do you explain it to him? Do you say that it was a mistake and you thought he was Jin? Or just tell him the truth?
“YN, are you okay?” Yoongi moved his face closer to yours, seeing how pale and green you’ve gotten. “Do you need to use the bathroom?”
You pushed him away, wanting some sort of distance between you two. “I’m fine,” you gritted your teeth. It’s now or never I guess. You bit your lips as hard as you can to ignore the fact that you were slightly shaking. “Yeah, it’s true,” you breathed out.
You watched the way his eyes widen and his mouth slightly agape when the words came out of your mouth. This is the end, you thought, but a small part of you believed that everything will be okay and that he might accept your feelings. That part of you which you hated was there because it’ll only lead to heartache when he doesn’t.
“Stop staring at me like that and say something.” You frowned at his lack of reaction or words. “And don’t sugarcoat anything.”
He couldn’t see the way your fingers were crossed together underneath the blanket, he couldn’t see the tiny hope in your eyes as you waited for him to speak. All he could see was the potential heartbreak you were going to feel all over again and this time, it was because of him.
“YN, I’m sorry but I still love Rose and,” he breathed in, “and I’m so sorry.”
Well that hurt, but what did you expect? For him to love you back when he’s still not over Rose? Don’t be stupid. You nodded your head, not wanting to say anything because you knew. You knew that once you opened your mouth, you were going to break down because fuck it hurts so much to hear him say he still loves her.
“But we’re still friends, right?” He tried to make eye contact with you but your eyes were focused on your blanket. “You’re still important to me.”
You nodded again. The person you thought you loved, didn’t like you and now the person you actually love, doesn’t like you. Maybe this whole romance thing wasn’t meant to be. Maybe you were just unlovable. Shaking those thoughts away, you finally built up the courage to look at Yoongi and saw how guilty he looked. And you didn’t like it because he’s not obliged to like you back.
“It’s fine.” Your voice was soft and it was probably the first time he ever heard your voice in that tone. Soft, gentle, and reassuring. “But can you leave me alone for now, I just want some time for myself.”
Yoongi frowned at that. This was like the Jin rejection all over again and he didn’t want to go through that again. But he understood that you needed space from him because he was the one who rejected you. Even though he was going to hate every minute of it, he knew it was the right thing to do.
“Okay,” he agreed, “but please come to me when you want to talk to someone. I’m always going to be there for you.”
You felt your bottom lip tremble. “Yeah.”
“I can’t believe you’re really leaving us.” Rose pouted.
You decided to have a fresh start, which meant you were going back to your hometown for the new semester while taking online classes. It was something you needed, to reset yourself and come back once you were ready. You only told Namjoon and Rose about your plans, completely ghosting Yoongi for the past couple of weeks. Though he still sent you messages every now and then, telling you that he was here waiting for you to talk to him again. It felt wrong to leave without telling Yoongi anything but in the back of your head, you knew he would try to stop you from leaving.
“I just have to Rose,” you sighed, “but I’ll be back soon, it’s not a permanent thing. I just need to do this for myself.”
“Well I support you YN,” Namjoon intervened. “It won’t be the same without you but wanting to find yourself is really important.”
“Thanks Namjoon.” You smiled and gave him a quick hug, you felt him pat your head as a sign of comfort.
“And if I see Yoongi, he better catch these hands like the teens would say these days.” He whispered making you snort at his lame attempts to fit in with the newer generation.
You pulled away and turned to Rose, who was trying her best not to cry in public. But once you opened your arms for her to run into, the tears started to spill down to her cheeks. Her arms wrapped around you as she buried her face against your neck.
“Rose, you’re making my neck wet,” you groaned and tried to pull her away but she only tightened her grip.
“Well I’m sorry if I’m devastated that my best friend is going to leave me for who knows how long.” She sniffled.
You blankly stared at Namjoon who simply chuckled at the crying girl. “So dramatic.” You finally pulled away and flicked her forehead, a small ‘ow” escaping her lips. “We’re still going to be talking to each other and you guys can visit my mom’s whenever you want to, okay?”
“Okay.” She wiped her nose with her sleeve and smiled at you. “I’ll miss you though.”
“I’ll miss you too,” you smiled sadly.
You waved goodbye one last time before entering the train. A deep sigh left your lips as you took a seat next to the window, getting ready to leave and go home to your mom. The vibrations in your pocket let you know that you received a message. Thinking it was Rose who sent you the message, you rolled your eyes and pulled out your phone to only see Yoongi’s name on the screen.
[Yoongi]: I know you’re probably getting annoyed by these texts but I’ll always remind you that I’m just here for you whenever you need me.
[Yoongi]: Also please don’t hurt me when you finally decide to talk to me again because of all the messages I’ve been sending you. You know I bruise easily like a peach :(
You smiled sadly, your finger dangling above the block button, not having the power to press it but you needed to. If you wanted to move on, you needed to do this.
“Sorry Yoongi.” You whispered as you pressed the button and deleted his number from your contacts.
