If Only He Knew [ft. Jimin]
Genre: Angst with a sprinkle of fluff as usual
Word count: it’s just really long
“A-a baby?” His expression was nothing near what you’d expected. “Y-You want a baby?”
He looked taken back and almost, nervous? The excitement you wished for was no where near to be seen.
“Yes, a baby. D-Don’t you want one too?”
It’s been five years since you got married. During that time, you both had agreed on not thinking about babies just yet and you didn’t. Not until a few months back when you got your first niece and started to help your brother and sister-in-law to take care of her. Ever since then, you had always craved for a child of your own.
You wondered what it feels like to be a mother to someone, to another human-being. Yet, at the same time, you were nervous. The responsibilities that would come with the baby, you knew you were ready to take them but, did Jimin too?
“I-I just don’t think it’s the right time for both of us to think about that yet.” He said with a soft sigh. “Having a baby is going to change everything and I don’t think I’m ready for that change just yet.”
You were disappointed, obviously. But you also wanted to respect your husband’s opinion so you lightly nodded. You knew he had been busy lately and is probably going to be even more than so in the future. So it was only understandable if he wasn’t ready. Yet, you couldn’t help but ask him the question that’s been on your mind since forever.
“Wh-When is the right time for you then?” You softly asked as he cupped your face, before pecking your lips lovingly. “I can wait but I can’t wait forever.”
“I know, yeobo, I know.” He sighed. “In the near future, maybe one or two years from now. I’m not sure. I just want to focus on work right now.”
You pouted but nodded your head once again.
“You know I love you right?” Jimin smiled, sweetly, before placing a long, passionate kiss on your plump lips.
“I know.” You breathed once you were apart, seeing him grin so happily made your heart flutter. “And I love you too.”
“Work, work, work. Is that all you care about?” You were crying and you hated it, yet, it felt good to let everything out after holding it in for so long.
Maybe you were overacting, maybe you weren’t.
But at that moment, it felt right, what you were doing. You had all the right to lash out on him after he had so carelessly forgotten your anniversary and it wasn’t even the first time he had done that. Not to mention how he had ignored all your calls and messages since yesterday, making you worried sick.
“___, calm down. You know I didn’t mean to forget our anniversary.” He looked exhausted and you felt bad for keeping him away from his sleep by bringing this up. But you were exhausted and angry too, and that was never a good combination when it came to your personality.
“Okay, fine. You forgot. But what about all the calls and messages?” You took in a deep breath, watching him stiffen before rubbing the back of his neck nervously. “What were you doing all day that was so important that you couldn’t even answer your wife’s calls?”
“What, Jimin?! What were you doing?”
Something was up, you could tell that, the way he looked so troubled and nervous.
At that very moment, you felt like your heart just dropped and disappeared under the ground your were standing on. The whole apartment turned quiet and nothing was heard except for your heavy breathing.
Jiyeon, the ex-girlfriend, the one that threatened you that she would eventually take him back, the one that you had clearly told him to avoid because you didn’t feel comfortable with the two of them talking, the same one he said he was with during your anniversary while you were at home, feeling so worried about him that you felt like vomiting.
“I can’t fucking believe you.” It came out as a whisper but Jimin felt like it was even worse than being yelled at.
You didn’t spare him another glance before turning around and stalked into your shared bedroom. As you pulled out a bag and started to put all the clothes out of the wardrobe, you could hear him call your name from behind.
“___- I- What are you doing?”
You were giving him the silent treatment and it was childish. But you didn’t want to talk to him, not right now anyway, because the chance of you breaking down was too big. You didn’t want to do that, not in front of the âsshole anyway.
“I- Yeobo- Please, let me explain,” He pleaded, trying to hold your hand but you kept pulling away. “I’m sorry, I know you’re pissed an-and I know you have every right to be this way. But please, just listen to me.”
Once you were done putting the clothes that you could tell was yours, well, most of them since the bag wasn’t big enough for all of them, you turned around to face him. Which turned out to be a huge mistake.
He was so close, you could feel his warmth through the layers of clothes and air between the two of you. And he looked so broken; so desperate as he stared back at you. But you knew you couldn’t give in now.
After giving him the most angry, heated and disgusted glare you had ever given anyone, you swiftly passed by him but before you could reach the door, he reached out and closed it.
“I saw her at the bar while I was waiting for Taehyung last night and she was being sexually harassed by some disgusting âsshole.” He quickly explained. “I know you told me to stay away from her but I couldn’t let that jerk do that to her now, could I? So I-I got into a fight with him.”
That got you to quickly look up to his face before letting your eyes scan his whole body, searching for any bruises. Once your eyes were on his face again, you finally noticed a small bruise right on his left cheek.
All the anger seemed to be forgotten as you dropped the bag from your hand and reached up to cup his cheeks, pulling his face lower until it was almost at the same level as yours.
“D-Don’t worry, it’s just a small bruise.” Jimin couldn’t help but let a satisfied grin spread across his plump lips. Seeing you so concerned about his well-being was one pretty sight. “I’m fine, ___.”
Maybe he shouldn’t have said that or grinned so brightly ‘cause the next thing you did would definitely disappoint him.
Quick as a lightning, you pulled your hands away and took a step back. The growing distance between the two of you made him frown but he didn’t say anything.
“W-Well, anyway, so after I beat that âsshole up and he was taken away by some other âssholes. I-” Once again, he hesitated. This time, you were the one that frowned. “I-I took her home ‘cause she was too drunk.”
You looked away but you knew what he did was right. Anyone that saw anyone being in that situation should do the same. But it still didn’t explain why he didn’t come home last night or all day today.
Jimin seemed like he could read your mind perfectly well. “I kind of fell asleep after putting her to bed and the next thing I knew, it was morning. I panicked and tried to call you but my phone died. When I asked Jiyeon if I could borrow hers, she told her was broken.”
Anyone with a functional brain could tell that she was lying.
Jimin’s brain didn’t seem to catch on very fast if he thought it was really broken. But you didn’t say anything, letting him explain whatever he was so sure was worth listening to.
“So I told her I had to go home to my wife.” He smiled but it quickly disappaered when you returned his smile with a cold stare. “But then she begged me to stay and started crying while explaining how her boyfriend cheated on her-”
“So you did? You stayed with her all day because she sheared some fake tears?” You finally cut him off. “Jimin, you’re not really that slow, are you? She just wanted you to stay with her.”
“I know, I was stupid…” He looked down, avoiding any eye contact with you.
A question that had destroyed so many relationships before. Were your ready to hear the answer?
“I stayed.” He spoke quietly. “I just comforted her and we talked, and then… sh-she-”
Your world felt like it just stood still for a couple of seconds and you found it hard to breathe in. To take in everything that he just said.
“Move.” A single word but it held so much anger and disappointment that it almost knocked Jimin off.
When he didn’t, you forcefully pushed him away, using all the energy that you had left inside your exhausted body.
“Why are you always like this?!” His voice was suddenly coated with anger, made you feel a little taken back. “I didn’t even fucking kiss her back. You were fine with me forgetting about our anniversary but you can’t get over something as ridiculous as this? Are you a fucking child because sometimes, ___, I feel like you are. That’s why I didn’t have a child with you-”
Once he noticed the pained expression on your face, he felt like someone just ripped his heart out.
I don’t mean it, please, don’t leave me. I love you so much, those words seemed to get stuck in his throat because no matter how hard he tried to say them. Nothing came out.
“Well, if’ that’s the case then I’m glad you figured it out before any child was involved then.” You spat, feeling satisfied when you saw his jaw clench.
Before he could stop you, you harshly pushed him aside before nearly sprinting through the door.
I don’t know why but I really liked this one shot. What do you guys think? Did you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it? :> And do you think I should write a part 2 to this or should i leave it as it is? Pls let me know ^u^
I appreciate all your support, I really do. Thank you so much!
I love you all, my friends.
Have a good day/night and I’ll see you soon :>
P.S If the last part was a bit confusing: the reader was pregnant and he didn’t know that so… yeah… kekeke
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