BubblegumLia

♡ this is my safeplace during meltdowns ♡ yanderecore & traumacore kinda shit ♡ the kinda stuff I'm too ashamed to say ♡ neurodigent, traumatised, chronically ill, disabled and overall just fucked up♡

[bubblegumlia]

I've always been a loner, no problem there But I'm just now figuring how LONELY I was, I had no idea

[angelsfilth]

[alluring-goddess-deactivated202]

omg i see online people go from "you should romanticize your life 🥰🥰🥰" to "do not romanticize your mental illness 😠😠😠"

like bitch make up your mind??? my life is the way it is because of my trauma and mental illness. so am i not allowed to romanticize it as a coping mechanism because my life isn't normal enough for you??? fuck off.

[natsxuu]

[1992jpeg]

[bubblegumlia]

17/08

My mom had an aneurism on my birthday felt too surreal

[adequately]

*ੈ♡⸝⸝ ⊹₊ ⋆ 𝓶𝔂 𝓻𝓸𝓸𝓶 ˚ ༘ ೀ⋆｡˚

[lachatalovematcha]

*ੈ✩‧₊˚⋆🌷🫧💭₊˚ෆ午前3時に自分の部屋にいる私:*ੈ✩‧₊˚⋆🌷🫧💭₊˚ෆ࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟ˚˖𓍢ִ໋:･ﾟ˚˖𓍢ִ໋🌷͙֒✧˚.🎀༘⋆‧₊˚🖇✩ ₊˚🎧⊹♡˚˖𓍢ִ໋🌷͙֒✧˚.🎀༘࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟ˚˖𓍢ִ໋:･ﾟ⋆࿐ ࿔*:･ﾟ 「 ✦かわいい部屋✦ 」୧ ‧₊˚ 🍓 ⋅ ☆✧ ೃ༄*ੈ✩ ✧˚ ༘ ⋆｡ ˚୧ ‧₊˚ 🍮 ⋅ ☆🗝⋆｡𖦹°‧⠀ ꕤ ꭑმցιɕ * ◡̈⃝* ໒꒱ ㅤ🎀 ⠀⊹ . ♡ ۫ .･ﾟ: ✧･ﾟ: ✧･ﾟ✧.🎀･ﾟ: ✧･ﾟ: ✧･ﾟ✧.🎀‧₊˚`╭˚.🍦 ୧ . ˚꒰🎀 ꒱ ♡‧ ﹕♡ ·꒷ ୨🌷☆🍮 ｡∴☆ ｡∴☆🍮 ｡∴☆ ｡∴☆🍮 ｡∴☆ ｡∴☆🍮 ｡∴☆ɞ ଘ♡ଓ🌈 ﹒ ♡₊˚﹕﹒₊˚ ‧₊ .:･˚₊ *˚🌸 ˑ ♡ ͟ ׂ 𓂂柔らかい 軟らかい˚ ‧₊ .:･˚₊ *˚🌸 ˑ ♡ ͟ ׂ 𓂂✦ ˑ ִֶ 𓂃⊹  ㅤ ♡ㅤ

[bubblegumlia]

Maybe I should start posting here again

[mspaintbunnie]

[mspaintbunnie]

[imiteeshon]

[friskylittlebaby-deactivated202]

[bubblegumlia]

I kinda feel like nothing, I was super productive, but I lost it. I was hypersexual, and it’s gone. And even if I still had it my body hurts so bad it whould be just torture to not be able to fulfill my desires. I used to draw and craft every single day, but I can’t anymore. I used to love reading, but now my eyes hurt and my attention span is shit. I used to love fashion and dressing up, but getting out of bed fot that requires energy I don’t have. I loved to sing, but nowI can’t breathe and it flares pain in my entire body. I loved playing instruments, but now my fingers hurt really bad. I feel like no longuer  have any dentity other then being sick  I wish I could at least have art back, I miss it. I never had an habit of writing so often, but it has been my only possible outlet lately.

[bubblegumlia]

18-12-2021

I asked my gf to say she loved me while we where having sex and she basically ignored it. The only reason I'm not crying is because I physically can't

It felt rough. In a bad way

[bubblegumlia]

Later, she apologized and said it was because she isn't used to mixing sex and love and it felt weird at te moment. Fast forward to the next time we did stuff, she was super lovey dovey 💕

[bubblegumlia]

fast forward, after these she got really ovey dovey really quick, I love her <3

[yokuno-cosplay]

✨⛓ Ask me something ⛓✨

1. When did you discover kink?

2. What opened up the kinky gates for you?

3. Top 3 kinks?

4. Are there any kinks you wouldn’t ever participate in?

5. Are there any kinks you feel are misunderstood?

6. Are there any kinks that you take pride in being into?

7. What is one phrase you think of when you think of kink?

8. Is there any kinks you would like to try?

9. If your partner was vanilla would you be able to fully accept a vanilla life/sex life with them?

10. Are there any kinks that made you feel ashamed for enjoying?

11. Have you ever had to educate someone about a kink you’re into?

12. Does it upset you when people judge you for what you’re into?

13. Have you ever had a bad experience participating in kink?

14. Are there any resources you would recommend when helping others understand kinks, whether they just want to understand you or want to explore themselves?

15. How do you feel about the way kink is portrayed in movies/shows?

16. Dd/Lg (Cg/L)?

17. Traditional Dom/Sub?

18. Omorashi?

19. Impact play?

20. Masochism?

21. Foot fetish?

22. Body worship?

23. Blood play?

24. Weapon play?

25. Religion Kink?

26. Sadism?

27. Roleplay?

28. Watersports?

29. Degradation?

30. Exhibitionism?

31. Voyeurism?

32. Rope play/Shibari?

33. Praise kink?

34. Humiliation?

35. Forced orgasm?

36. Orgasm denial?

37. Elektrostimulation?

38. Double penetration?

39. Gangbang?

(If I missed any, you can go ahead and send it anyway~)

Yes i stole this, sorry i couldnt reblog ;-;

[bubblegumlia]

Ive been crying a lot in these last days, over how much I adore her,  since I was so little  I always believed I whould end myself really young, and in case I didn’t, I whouldnt ever be happy anyways, but here am, I never felt so loved, and never loved someone so wholeheartly.

Ive been crying because I never tought I whould WANT to live, and want to give my best to create a life with somebody I love, and loves me back

Ive been crying, despite depression and obcessive toughts about death, I never been this happy, never felt so cared for, 

Ive been crying because Im so glad she exists

Im so happy, but why is it so painful?