Yes I do want to get better yes I want to be healthier [I'm purely talking physically rn but mentally kinda follows] but I'm terrified to
I'm not scared in a "I don't like change" way or anything I'm just scared of that insane fucking pattern I've noticed where healthy people will either randomly die or get like permanently sick and unable to do what they want
I mean I can't do what I want currently I have like no muscle mass like barely enough to let me move and exist and I don't eat well so I want to better but what if it just kinda kills me? I don't feel like dying yet but I'm not really living rn either..
What the fuck do I do
I think itād be better to take care of yourself, personally. Not trying to scare you (Iām VERY sorry if I do, I canāt find better wording š) but honestly thereās always a risk of dying either way so I say let yourself feel good! Also you said (unless I misread) that you canāt currently do things you want to do, so itād be better to do them while you still can :D





















