Middle of Adventure

Ruth // 27 // Portland, OR // Welcome Hobbits and enjoy

[saintecare]

EASY RIDER / LATE BLOOMER 🍓

[oneleggedflamingo]

[vividplanet]

One Day At A Time Leon Xu Acrylic and Car Metalizer on Arches Paper

[buczkowski]

Hello, nice to be back!

Hi, I haven't properly been on Tumblr since roughly 2014... 11 years. Crazy to think. I've been slowly introducing myself to the platform once again, with Yahoo taking over, Trump, and so much more since then. I just wanted to make a formal hello and also curious who was still here (a follower or an old friend). I would love to reconnect <3

[untitled64595]

everything was so beautiful tonight. no filter.

[prinsomnia]

slow day

[buczkowski]

hi are you okay??

I’m okay! I’m sorry for the scare, everything is okay, I’m much happier and just trying to figure out a better lifestyle for myself, college and all will do that to you! Thank you for asking, are you okay?

[buczkowski]

Are you okay? Haven't seen any posts from you in a while and that last one was v concerning

Yes yes I’m sorry! I’ve taken a bit of time off of social media but I’m okay! I mostly am on instagram (@buczkowski), I don’t go on tumblr nearly enough. 

[buczkowski]

You are great and you are deserving of love and happiness

<3 <3 <3 You are great and deserve love and happiness, I wish I could give you a giant hug! Thank you so so much! 

[buczkowski]

I’ve been so so happy recently and it is so wonderful! I’ve made friends at work and my classes, work, and relationships are all so enjoyable and lovely. I started working out at the gym at my college and I’m hoping to start paying attention to my diet, just to make sure I’m actually eating 3 meals a day instead of coffee and ramen.   I’m also due for surgery soon, I recently found out I have a benign bone tumor growing from the underside of my left shoulder blade. I’m so excited to go in and fix this issue I’ve had for years. My mom is extremely worried but I’m just thankful and grateful for all the doctors and people helping me.  I feel so much more my self this year, I don’t know what kind of funk I was in for so long.  <3 

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Rothirsch - red deer - Cervus elaphus by Olaf Kerber

[plutomeetsgenius]

You saw the god of the forest and you took pictures?

[buczkowski]

I have an ugly cry just like kim kardashian...

[buczkowski]

Let me just rant for a second

I don't even know what to do anymore So about three days ago I was at work and started feeling extremely tired and my muscles were so weak and my skin was sensitive that when ever I touched something I wanted to scream The next day I'm at home my tonsils are swollen beyond belief, I had bad breath, muscle weakness, stiff everything, joint pain, headache, and a fever of 103.3, so I went to the ER that night (thank god to for my mom) with my mom and boyfriend. They gave my two things of IV, antibiotics, and a pain reliever, this was like at 10:45pm and I got to leave at 3:30am. I barely remember it because I was so out of it. The next I feel so much fucking better and just itching to get out. Now it's Monday, I'm suppose to have more medicine that my mom said she would pick up for me (boyfriend can't drive, only me and my mom) well fucking hell she didn't so now, I'm driving my self around town for doctor's appointments, waiting 45 minutes for medicine, trying to find plenty of food (apparently the meds I'm taking are suppose to make you feel nauseous, that's why I also have nausea meds) I'm now at home like 3 hours later scared about my medicine, hungry as fuck, and feeling so fucking crummy, and my doctor kept telling me over and over please go home and rest as much as you can, sleep, eat, drink tons of water, please be gentle on yourself. And now my mom and decided to just dip out of my life while I'm sick with something that none of doctors can figure out what it is and my boyfriend is at work all day for the past 4 days. So instead of resting LIKE I SHOULD BE DOING, I have to fucking run errands for 3 hours to make sure I'm getting what I need. Also apparently if I don't get any better I might need surgery. And I've only had like one friend show concern over anything and my family is practically avoiding talking to me. I feel so helpless and scared and I'm so fucking worried. I started crying in front of so many strangers and now I can't stop, thank god I made it home.

[buczkowski]

I feel like a housewife with no money and no friends

[buczkowski]

It doesn’t help when you’re in the midst of figuring out if you might be gender fluid to trans and try to talk to a friend and they say “we’ve all had that phase”

[buczkowski]

And then I had to pick up my parents from the airport after I had gotten a flat tire and they were so unhappy that I had the jack sitting out.. like the fuck.

[buczkowski]

It doesn't help when you're in the midst of figuring out if you might be gender fluid to trans and try to talk to a friend and they say "we've all had that phase"

[thriftedrose]

new room snippets :~D