The Musings of an Angel Caught In Between

Someone perfectly imperfect, but real. I am an angel caught in between. ♥ Libra ♥ Caffeine Fanatic ♥ Color Blue ♥ Klutz Queen ♥

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You know it's Christmas season when the sky looks like this at 5pm.

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Learning Another Language

My fascination for learning another language started a good 10 years ago when I badly wanted to learn another language. I started the basics of learning French and even bought a French phrase book, but was unable to continue. The farthest I went learning was counting in French. During my recent hibernation, for lack of anything to do, I browsed through youtube, and stumbled upon Meteor Garden. I know, I know I am almost 14 years late. Hahaha. I watched it with English subs and got fascinated with learning how to speak, read and write Mandarin. So I watched you tube again for Mandarin lessons, and got hooked up with it. With my impending move, I am learning again how to speak, read and write another language. And I am really fascinated with deciphering words and reading another language. I also encourage my kids to learn another language as it would be another skill. Growing up in a bilingual country, it's a good thing to put in a resume at the least.

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Random Thoughts

There is a big chance that I will be migrating this blog to my 3rd blog (ha!) Hopefully I might be able to maintain my blog more than I maintained this and my original blog from Blogger. (http://bumblebeebanella.blogspot.com) I have a knack for creating social media accounts that I neglect for the most part. Anyways, my new blog is http://bumblebeebanella.wordpress.com. I will try to update this account too every once in a while. But I will most probably post in the wordpress account. But like what they always say, you always go back. And yeah, I will go back here too.

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23 Long Years

It’s my dad’s 23rd anniversary in heaven. Still feels like yesterday. I still remember how it happened. I miss you Dad. Sometimes there are days that I pray that you’re here.

I will love you always. 💜💜💜

Love, Your Little Love 😇😇😇

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Blogspot

I was trying to recover my blogspot blog but I can't seem to. I feel sad. Although the last post on that blog was way back 2011, for sentimental reasons I want to recover it. 😕😕😕 I created a new wordpress site. I guess this will be for the new chapter -- all business? Haha.

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I just want to share how big Sajie is. This picture was taken last July, so there are possibilities that he may have grown again. And his foot size is now for adults! Even bigger than my size 6. They are both growing up too fast. And they are growing right inforont of my very eyes. Nicko is turning 11 this December. And Sajie is turning next April. Haha. I really just can’t believe how fast time flies.

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A long time...

It has been a long time since I last wrote here. Yeah. I have to blame it on my extreme laziness. I am thinking of starting another blog. But seeing that I can't even maintain this one, how much more the new one? Haha. Well, for one, I plan for a change and I want to start documenting it to also help others who is also going through the same thing as me. I also wanna blog more seriously this time, but nothing really exciting to start talking about. The boys are getting bigger and bigger. Sajie is as tall as me now. A few more inches and he will probably be taller than me. Nicko, thankfully, is starting to grow too. I live with Mom now. What a change. Though on some days it could more stress than I have ever imagined, it's better, I guess. Although I miss being in the city. I am looking for other opportunities now which will better than what I have now. I just realized the work that I have is not working anymore for me. Someone said that if you desire change then you have to start changing the things that you do for the outcome to be different. I am planning on it. So let's see what's going to happen. With God's will and perfect timing, I know and feel that the change that I am hoping and dreaming for will be a reality soon. A lot of things on my mind lately. A lot of pent up stress I guess. But Father Pio said: Pray. Hope. Don't Worry.

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Seeing their smiles, hearing them say my daily dose of their I love you's, their sticky kisses, the laughter, the noise, the chaos everytime they come home from school, this reminds me that on top of everything else, I am a mother. Their hugs remind me that I can correct my mistakes, and enjoy being with them. They remind me, that though, in my imperfections, I am doing something right.

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Hate is not the opposite of love. Indifference is. When you love someone, you feel strongly positive towards the person. When you hate someone, you feel strongly negative towards the person. When you are indifferent towards the person, you don't feel anything towards the person anymore.

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On Thursday, October 30, the kids had a great time. They spent time with me at the office, met new friends and got lots and lots of candies! They went trick or treating with me and the kids of the other trainers! Though it was very tiring, they had lotsa fun. They can't wait to do it again next year! ;)

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Sometimes you have to lose yourself so you can find yourself.

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First it was Sajie, last night it was Nicko's turn. After what happened yesterday, I dont really understand as to why they still wish for mommmy and daddy to be back together. And frankly, I dont know how to answer this.

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Can we blame the kids if for them, they still want mom and dad to still be together? Like what a very good friend told me, the kids only have 1 mom and dad, they are always going to wish for you to get back together. It's actually a good thing that they still wish for you to still be together even if they know you have separate lives already. Anyway, when the time comes, they too, would understand as to why everything happened. The most important thing is that even though that we are no longer together, Sam and I will always be mom and dad. Their only parents, Their family, It could extend to some select few. But mommy and daddy will always be Sam and me.

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My echoserang palakang froglet na inaanak. Goofing around kase gutom pa. #tanipots #ninang #goofy (at At Home ♥)

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My school boys in their unifrom. Its another Monday. #princeandprincessschool #myschoolboys #excitedforschool #sajienicko (at Prince And Princess School)

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Ready to Jog. ♥ Even if I am super sleepy. Just like what they say, no pain, no gain, #jogging101 #letsrun (at At Home ♥)