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I have a little of overthinking and anxiety from time to time. I have a lot of question in my mind. I’m wondering why I’m not falling in love, why Im not worth a shot, why I’m always left alone or so I feel. Am I the one who have a problem, I don’t fight for it, I keep on running away (not physically of course) when everything felt wrong. I avoid the feeling and the urge for confrontation.

I really want to say a lot of things but I’m not sure it’s worth a shot. Or if in the end I’ll end up nothing, and him avoiding me and never talk to me.

Sometimes I want to be cared of, I want to be ask where I am or what am I doing. I like the feeling of someone cared for you. I don’t think its him and If feel weird and annoying. I know what we are but I don’t wanna drive him away.

Maybe I need to tell him this and I need to be ready, ready to not see him again. I hate how he acts now a days, his the one who always ask for a date, but now his always tired and just wanna sleep over. Before we use to see each other 2 times a week and have a drink, have fun. Now it’s just a lot of talking and me being annoyed. I appreciate him, but times change and maybe his not so interested in me. That’s fine, maybe its time to move on. Just maybe.

yoursummerdreamz

love-personal

Dear my stranger

I know these day will come, you will be cold, you might be annoyed or you simply don’t know how to get rid of me, I know something is wrong and yeah it sting a little bit, It occupy by mind and it made my breathing hard, I’m assuming all of this, but for sure this is it. You might not like me anymore or have you ever like me?

I don’t know what to say, I don’t have right, because we are not in a relationship. You are so cold now and that coldness make me keep my distance. I can’t blame you, I will surely hate you a little bit maybe because you are so good to me and I want you stay for a long time but you can’t, too bad.

I enjoyed everything we have, I hope I made your life fun and bearable for a little while, I think this is it for us. I will miss your hugs, your care and everything that you are. I can’t be in this confusing situation anymore so It’s better be away from you. I’m a girl and girls do have attachment problems. I appreciate everything you did for me and the time we spent together.

Chao Stranger

death-by-elocution

there will be time that I feel shit, that I don’t deserve to be truly happy, fullfilled and contented. I always doubt my self and other people, I think doubt can make us unhappy. I don’t know what I did wrong to deserve this, Im all alone in this world. I don’t have anyone. I have friends but I don’t want them to be involve in the shithole that Im in. I almost cried earlier I dont know what to do, I want to be a good daughter but I fail, I fail as a person. I just need stability and happiness 😢 cruel world run by money.

Kate Kipley

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