૮˶´ ᵕ ˋ˶ა﹕Hello!!! I’m Kamukura Izuru bun! It’s nice to be writing this. I’m going to be posting xenogenders and possibly other things,, I may take requests if I work up the confidence!!! ₍ᐢ.ˬ.⑅ᐢ₎
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♡︎ I am Izuru Kamukura!!! I’m open to questions but will not tolerate rude statements, I am also rather uncomfortable with doubles, if I avoid responding to you I apologize but I need to put my well being first.
♡︎ I tend to make things on the cuter side, bun! I apologize if what I post doesn’t appeal to you, I’m sure there’s plenty people who do! Definitely don’t follow me if you really dislike pink ₍⑅ᐢ..ᐢ₎
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✧︎ DNI
∙︎Basic DNI criteria
∙︎Nagito Komaeda fictives and or IRLs, (Partner!)
∙︎Pro-Endo / Pro-“Tulpa systems”
∙︎View ‘Femboy’ as a slur/derogatory term ONLY used for trans girls, as a trans boy I can promise I’ve seen it used horribly to mock trans men as well. I am open to questions and debate but I stand by what I’ve seen and been told.
∙︎Pro-shippers / Anti-Anti
∙︎Refer to the popular flag for gay men (and non-binary people, bun!) as a mockery, fake, “toothpaste”, disgusting, etc
∙︎Against trans boys being feminine
∙︎Anti-xenogenders + anti-neopronouns
∙︎Anti-Self diagnosis with research
∙︎Ship me or my partner with anyone who isn’t me(or him) or Hinata.
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-Izuru Kamukura (🍡🌸)’s intro as primary blog owner, to be expanded to upon other alters first post
Have a nice day, bun!
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( づ♡ a heart for Adri, Nagi, vivi, and a nice hug for the little fawn
Since @lovesick-nagi is shadowbanned and his posts aren’t seeming to appear much to people, I figured the best way to circulate this is to spread around this doc.
Sakuraheadcharic is a gender corolated to the character Sakurahead or CB from Silent Hill: The Short Message. This may have to do with its appearance, lore, source, or all of the above !
Ways to describe this gender can be cute, eerie, quiet, glitchy and/or inhuman.
Term/flag officially coined by me ! 6/15/2024
{ Marking the beginning of my return and recovery, see these posts for info !! ♡ }
Black: Unsettling appearance/atmosphere
Dark dusty pink: The combination of cute and creepy themes
My abuser's posts about me and why I've been gone. { Pt. 3 }
{ Part 3: What Stylus told their friends, and their last ditch "efforts" on tumblr }
!! VERY important, I ask that you read. Boosts are very appreciated, only trigger warnings here are discussions and belittlement of abuse !!
This is my final entry in this post chain on the person behind the abandoned account @stylusscomms .
So, after all this, how did they abandon their account? Well, leading up to this they got in one last horrible idea, and posted up a statement from one of their last remaining friends after all this, that being yet another person I know to be their ex. They have since deleted this.
As one asker points out, and another asker confirms, every single part of this post was in extremely bad taste and was an insult to the entire community of survivors. Especially to me, because it was in reference to trying to defend my abuser's intentions as well as bring a post directly to me. This person has never so much as talked to me, but is speaking this way about my personal trauma. And of course, they are an early childhood friend/ex of Stylus'.
Multiple excuses for his actions are parroted here, that being his exes or his memory loss, or that I didn't say enough to make him stop, that he didn't mean to, and it was a "miscommunication". All of which I've talked about in my last posts. I told him clearly and firmly to stop multiple times, but he didn't! His exes were victims of him! And by now, we all know what "playfighting" looks like to Stylus, because they've punched someone in the face and broken their glasses. I don't really blame this person though, because this is very clearly just what Stylus has made the situation out to be.
The worst part is, Stylus went on to clarify the post's deletion was because their ex wanted it taken down, not that Stylus themselves saw any issue with it. They seem to still be diluting themselves to the point where they would have no idea why, and were confused about why their ex seemed to be upset at them. Again, they had to be painstakingly told through the efforts of multiple people in their askbox in order to acknowledge this, but of course that didn't last either.
However, in this post, they talk about a "formal apology", that must be good, right? Well, in their second last post, we get to see that...kind of.
In this post they apologize for what they've done pretty basically, as if a public post of "Sorry I abused you" would ever be good enough, I mean they didn't even reach out privately. For all they know, I could have never seen this, so clearly they weren't that eager to make amends. They had all these people in their askbox personally coaxing them through making a personal apology, and they couldn't even do that. There is also another new excuse this time, probably due to the fact that they couldn't dump all the blame on their ""abusive"" exes anymore. Based on all we've gone over, as well as their constant need to try to come up with "reasons" for abuse, im not inclined to believe this a single bit.
But at the end of this whole post, which could have maybe been taken in a genuine attempt at an apology, what's the last thing they say to me, their abuse victim?
That's great Stylus. What a way to end an apology. The last thing you have to say to me is a nitpick about my identity, and a WRONG one at that.
I've never used Fae/Faer, I use Fey/Feyr/Fem, which I created, and as the creator, I can say is not meant to be inherently connected with the fae in the first place, it is simply meant to give They/Their/Them a feminine flair, along with obviously sounding similar. The problem is I did not tell you I went by this verbally, nor did anyone ever call me by these pronouns verbally, so there was no room for a "mistake" in this form to be made, and no excuse for this mischaracterization of my identity !! It says so on my profile, and as you said yourself, you were not blocked during any of this !!!
AND, as it clearly states on my profile, and as they know from being "friends" with me, I AM PAGAN !!
This is a ridiculous jab at me at the end of a supposed apology. I can guarantee you yourself have not done the research and practice into the fae that I have, and this is along with the fact a lot of pagans have attested that this set of pronouns isn't even offensive in the first place !! I would know !!! If the fae had a problem with it, I can assure you I would be well aware by now due to my practice.
It should also be said that the only note on this post was a reblog saying the exact same thing, that this end note was both incorrect and discounted the entirety of their "sincere apology".
It was also over the course of this entire situation that I was being sent asks saying that they were, concurrently with their posts about the situations, continuing to spread their false claims and frustrations against not only me, but their exes in the system server that they mod and frequent. Making us out to be the "toxic friend" and "crazy exes", when they abused us and SAed me. I have no words.
I cannot even describe how horrific it is that someone like this could even be in a space with this traumatized community, but even worse, as someone who holds a high position, with power. Someone who is trusted. And to use this platform to spread this stuff about us? It's just plain gross.
To sum this all up, the response they have given to the situation has disgusted all survivors who have seen it. Instead of opting for a personal apology like everyone urged them to do, they got their ex on their blog defending them, deleted it because their ex probably realized how vile and victimblaming it was, Stylus then went on to post a subpar public "apology" I very well may have never seen, along with another flat out lie about me, before abandoning their account altogether.
It is clear that they do not care about the truth, as their efforts to disguise it through this whole situation have been continually called out. They continued to make very easily debunkable lies and mischaracterizations of anyone they could in an effort to victimize themselves in the face of their abuse on others, and even in the end, as they are running away from yet another false allegation they made being exposed, they sprinkle in one more attempt at demonizing me, their victim, at the end of an "apology".
I'd like to thank all askers involved for defending my name, as well as my experience as a survivor of Stylus. I'm sure anyone who has seen my posts in response to false claims or information knows how passionate I get about disproving it, which is why when faced with this I obviously had to decimate them with the consequences of their own actions. All I can say is, if they thought they could just get away with everything they had done, that I would stay silent at their treatment of me and my name yet again, they were very mistaken. I was simply the wrong person to do this to, and if they really wanna apologize, they can apologize to me directly.
My abuser's posts about me and why I've been gone.
{ Part 2: They haven't changed, they blamed their abuse victims from mere months ago for their abuse on me. }
!! VERY important, I ask that you read. Boosts are very appreciated, trigger warnings for the abuse recounts avaliable right before the cut !!
This is a continuation of my post on the person behind the abandoned account @stylusscomms .
So yeah, that first bit was,,, insane, but there's more. After this point in their social media presence, they started trying to say that they would never do something like this now, and they had completely forgotten about what they did.
They had earlier spoke on the fact that they were recently dumped by both their partners, and how they were claiming they were abusive, but they were wrong and just framing them as the bad guy!! They also claimed Stylus bit them nonconsentually, but that just wasnt true at all!
Let's just say after all the stuff about me came out me, people weren't so ready to dismiss this, even when Stylus urged people to "please not compare the two situations" { here }, it was obvious that they both hadn't changed, and that they had an abusive history. This also further proves that their memory cannot be used as an excuse, because they say that they remember that this situation clearly and that it was recent, meaning that they were just lying on purpose.
They then went on to claim that it was actually their exes' faults for their abuse on me, that they manipulated Stylus into causing me harm and not feeling bad about it.
While I wouldn't say they had nothing to do with the situation, as they enabled Stylus' actions and behavior, contributing to the demonization of both me and my partner, { one of Stylus' partners more than the other }, the claim that they are Stylus' abusers and that they gaslight gatekept girlbossed their way into making Stylus abuse me is ridiculous. They weren't even present for a number of these events.
That blameshifting went on until one of the askers was contacted by one of their exes, and they sent in the abuse allegations, now from their exes, Stylus must have recognized how terrible this was revealing to be, because they permanently left their account shortly after receiving it. No one has seen the message sent in by the 'Rookie' asker about this, so I'll provide the public with the accounts and proof that they were deprived of.
This is one of the main reasons I felt obligated to post about this in the first place, because even though their partners { again, one more than the other }, stood by and even partook in the demonization of me and my partner, I cannot do the same to them. Knowing what they put me through, I wouldn't wish the same on them. They simply don't deserve this.
TW: Biting, Physical abuse, Emotional abuse, S/A, Abuse of power, Power dynamics, SH and censored blood, Guilttripping
So, at the same time they are posing false claims against me and getting exposed for having lied about them, Stylus again chose to make false claims against their victims, this time their two extremely recent exes.
Towards both their partners, they put forward the claim that they got emotionally abused; their partners had allegedly emotionally abused them by "getting mad at them for things they couldn't control" and making them feel at fault and guilty, causing them breakdowns. Seems similar to how they have reacted to their own abusive behaviors in the past when it is brought up to them.
They then went on to say that one of their partners financially abused them, talking about how they stayed and lived at their house, "never communicated with them" and how they broke up with them when they kicked them out, how terrible. Only, as many askers again had to point out, this was because they had escaped an abusive situation and took solace at Stylus' parent's house. And as always, Stylus ignored any issues brought up to them in favour of self pity.
There was a clear power imbalance in this arrangement, an asker even, again, has to point this out to Stylus, but their response is just that they would never kick them out just because of something small, so it wasn't a big deal!! ..Only, that completely ignores literally any other case where a power imbalance like that would influence any other thing..and the fact that they would not know for certain if you would or wouldn't, meaning they may still be compelled to behave a certain way around you. For example..their apparent lack of willingness to sternly speak out against you?? Which you directly blame them for?
Obviously they would leave them after they abused them while living under the same roof and kicked them out to potentially go on the streets. I wonder what reason anyone would have for staying with the person providing them housing, and apparently as Stylus thought, "not telling them" when they did something upsetting, and then break up with them once they kick them out.
It's almost as if someone you were providing housing to as apart of a relationship would not want to speak up to you about said relationship being abusive at risk of being put on the streets or another abusive household, and were finally freed from you when you kicked them out anyway. Absolutely baffling how you do not even possess the ability for a fraction of genuine introspection.
Stylus goes on to add onto this by saying they provided clothing for and gave presents to the partner, and that further proved the existence of financial abuse. Providing them clothing on their back and fully willingly providing presents is now being called abuse. This whole point is just so incredibly idiotic.
The complete lack of self awareness of their power over people, even when expressly pointed out by an asker, is so, so insane. This is not even their money, nor their house. It is all provided by their extremely wealthy family, some of which have literal mansions. Their partners also expressed feeling demeaned or looked down upon for their lower financial statuses and I can agree 100%, that was our experience as well. If anything, they used it as leverage.
To get into the things that their partners have to say about them, I guess the best way to start this section off would be with the ask that Rookie sent in, as they have provided, as well as the proof and recounts they received.
Sadly, it seems that there was somewhere for Stylus to run off to, that being..off platform. As soon as they got this message. Looking at the accounts all stacked against them, it's obvious why they immediately left at the sight of this ask. But, with that being the case and them, inturn, not speaking about this ask, and not outright admitting their abuse as they did mine, let's get to the screenshots.
Yep, pretty gross content, but at this point that's to be expected from the person that Stylus so obviously is, as much as they try to pretend they aren't. I mean, their post on their very recent double combo break up at the time was only a couple posts away from sympathizing with everyone talking about their trauma being bit, and if they were using their memory as the main excuse with me, then what's the excuse here? If like you said, you remembered this so well?
You say you've grown and you didn't even remember the person you were back then without people pointing it out, what about this? It just happened. Because of that, and Stylus consistently being proven to lie about it during our friendship, I believe that's all this ever really was. A lie, and an excuse.
On top of that, to blame them for my abuse? They weren't even there when you did that stuff to me, everyone already knew theyd turn out to be victims of you too!! And I know for a fact they sure as hell did not manipulate their way into making you sexually assault me. That was all you. You chose to abuse me every single time throughout that entire year. It was not a mistake, it wasn't something you didn't mean, there was a continued sadistic intention.
On top of that, we'll get to their other ex in the next post, but Stylus has bit all these other people in a romantic and/or sexual way. When my partner tried to get you to stop the main way our friendgroup tried to defend you was, "Bro chill, you do know that's not sexual or romantic, right? It's not like that."
First of all, doesn't matter, there was never consent, It hurts me and I do not want it, you should not be trying to defend them by continuing to make out my partner to be jealous, he was just trying to stand up for me. And second of all, can I even believe that anymore?? Like I said, he's done this with multiple people, he always made sexual comments towards me, heavily centered around me being "submissive/a bottom", as well as the fact that they are known to sexualize abuse and enjoy media that does the same. We can confirm, as it is yet another thing they exposed us to despite our history.
That along with the fact they joked about how they could get me to do anything they wanted. They literally called me his errand/garbage boy. You cannot tell me he did not knowingly take advantage of that and abused me physically, emotionally, even sexually, because he could.
The last day of our friendship, after Stylus yelled at me that day and sent me into an attack, the whole group blocked me. They didn’t even ask me a single question, much less comfort me, I mean of course I kind of expected it out of the ex that had defended and enabled them this whole time but they didnt even contact me afterwards, and they witnessed it themselves, but once everyone was informed of my state they instead stayed with Stylus to comfort them. It was just kind of a bummer.
The other, I understand more of their situation, as they were not there and were instead told about it by two people who were justifying it. Regardless of what either of them did, I forgive both of them, as long as they are able to look back on it more rationally. As I said before, they definitely did not deserve this.
Despite all this, I guess they realized Stylus' behaviour eventually, the hard way. I am truly sorry about that, and to be fair I did contact them myself to try and tell them how I felt/about my experiences since they didn't reach out to me themselves, but I suppose it couldn't be helped back then, so I'm trying my best to defend them now, just as I would have expected from them!
So, what have we learned? That Stylus tried to pin the blame for their abuse towards me on their "abusive, manipulative exes", and when their claims, again, were proven to be self pitying lies, this time also proving that they not only had a record, but their continued excuse of memory no longer made sense, they fled the platform and refused to make the ask calling them out public. Wow!
My abuser's posts about me and why I've been gone.
{ Part 1: What they claimed about me, what people exposed to be the truth }
!! VERY important, I ask that you read. Boosts are very appreciated, trigger warnings avaliable right before the cut !!
So, first off, I want to say sorry to everyone for being gone so long, and you're probably just as shocked as I am to be posting this. It's nice to talk to you all again, I really missed you all. The truth is, along with all the other reasons for my absence I've given, there was one that I have avoided talking about for the years of slow decline that happened, both to my content and myself. And I am sorry for leaving everyone in the dark.
I've thought about posting about this many times, but I always kept myself level-headed, saying it was irresponsible and unnecessary. Unfortunately, the abuser in question did not have the capacity to do the same, and because I still hesitated to speak out about what they were saying, they have since left their blog.
However, these problems and false claims still remain public, along with their lies attempting to villanize another set of victims, so I am forced to respond to this publicly if I want there to be any chance of them seeing it, as they no longer have access to their account.
It is also because of that, I will share that their blog is @stylusscomms , also known as The Labyrinth.
They made xenogender coining, custom emojis/emotes, stimboards, and more. In this first post I will go over what they have been exposed to do and have admitted to regarding their abuse to me. In following posts I will detail the fallout, along with their VERY recent behavior, proving this is not something of the past.
You guys better strap in, because the story of what happened is a wild one. All proof of this is clear on their blog.
I may not provide the proof I personally posess for these claims due to the fact that they have already admitted to most of this, { here } and { here } and I don't want to expose the transcripts of my trauma in cases where I don't have to.
Because of the state of their profile and how they left it how it was, pretty much everything is laid out pretty clearly in these posts, as I will detail: here, here and here.
Stylusscomms started by detailing to their askers how the friendship was "hurtful on both ends", making the allegations that I fakeclaimed them, isolated them after I cut them off, and they never once bit me.
This was followed by a long interspersement on posts regarding matter, which the askers slowly revealed that, one, I never could have fakeclaimed them because they never even told me they were a system { here }. On top of this, prior to asking me about it, they said they had "trauma from not having trauma", so I was a bit hesitant to talk about the possibility, especially in a friendgroup where this was enabled. They also talked over me about a lot regarding my disorder, so I at least wanted to speak up about this. Despite it being one of the only things I could ever bring myself to contradict them on, they still villainized me for it, as they did with anything that I said that was even remotely different from what they wanted me to.
Two, it was both victimblaming to say I isolated them after I cut them off due to them screaming at me, and untrue. Only one person of our friendgroup stuck by me and two of the others went on to date them. And finally, three, they had bit me without my consent countless times.
This directly went against the very extensive asks of people talking about their responses to { a certain mcyt/singer's } allegations and their trauma with biting, Stylus being very outspoken that they would never do such a thing, all of which caused the askers in question feel betrayed. Slowly, the askers exposed even more.
Some people I previously knew offered up their accounts of what actually happened, along with the fact they had proof, detailing how he had physically and emotionally abused me during the course of our entire year long friendship, along with something even worse.
This included him biting me extremely hard, screaming at me, hitting me out of anger, hitting me for sadistic entertainment, holding me down while doing these things, getting others to hold me down, stabbing me with safety pins for fun, laughing at me when I flinched away from them, belittling me, victimblaming me for various things, guilttripping me, sending me beheading and gore videos, and finally, taking away my phone while this took place so that I could not document these instances directly and could not reach anyone.
These claims would further be cooberated by sources we will discuss in the next post.
But the worst of all was the relation of all this to my SA experiences and their more sexual behavior towards me. At this point I had shared my experience with it, but that did not stop them from holding me down or getting others to do so. After he was told to stop biting me, he continually licked me before returning to biting AND licking not long after. On top of that, they not only tried to convince me that my SA was a dream, very insistently, but he blurted out the story of my SA to our mutual friend.
Furthermore, they did not stop there, throughout the whole friendship they did not stop making sexual comments to and about me, and on one occasion, during one of these inappropriate expressions towards me, knowing full-well of my assault, they inappropriately grabbed and touched me directly under the belt.
These were all exposed to them by their askers and they ADMITTED to them.
They came up with a number of different ways to defend themselves, citing that they forgot, they thought the biting was consensual, that he did it as a joke and found it funny, victimblaming me and saying I could have stopped him, and blaming their partners, who had also accused them of abusing them, for their abuse against me.
We will get to the last one in the next post, as it is extensive, but first I will disprove every single one of these.
An asker cited a situation where they lied about forgetting something in order to avoid my confrontation to him regarding their abusive behavior, and this is true, not only that, but I caught them in this same lie multiple times, so I dont, and no one does, have any reason to give them the benefit of the doubt anymore. This was cooberated also.
The biting was never in ANY WAY consensual, I have a hypersensitivity condition with my skin which just made the horrific bite marks and bruises even worse. When my partner, absolutely furious for me, learned about what happened and tried to defend me from his abuse, was villainized by the rest of the friendgroup, and they framed him as possessive, overbearing and weird for simply trying to defend me from Stylus' biting, licking, attacking and sexual comments towards me, along with everything else. NO WONDER why he wouldn't like them!
The excuse that they found humor in their abuse of me. That much was obvious from them both laughing at me flinching away from them and giggling while stabbing me with safety pins. Though his claim that it was never intended to be in a harmful way is also wrong, because he would also physically abuse and scream at me out of anger.
And of course, their victim blaming. They knew full well of my extreme people pleaser tendencies, and took advantage of them. Before this I had NEVER cut anyone off despite countless friendships being very harmful to me, as I have referenced before on my posts, one even involved the police, and I can say that Stylus was by far the worst I have ever gone through. They literally abused me in any way they could and when my partner called them out and told them to quit it, they were dismissed by the friendgroup and Stylus tried to guilttrip him about feeling terrible about it, only to get right back on their behavior with no remorse.
Yet despite all of this, we were "both at fault", and despite everything they said against me being disproven, along with being exposed to have abused and sexually assaulted me, THEY are the one afraid of seeing ME again. THEY are the ones made to panic when I am brought up.
They are afraid to face their abuse victim, they are afraid to face their actions.
This post is made in support of my partner, @lovesick-nagi
I knew stylus since my partner met them, and got to be around for every terrible thing they did to him, and I'm not going to stay silent for their sake anymore.
@stylusscomms abused and assaulted my partner, and has gone on to badmouth him in private and lie about their actions.
THIS is why I was gone, posting on social media has been impossible and I am finally ready to return, now that we can finally speak out against Stylus.
While my partner details what happened in vivid long detail, my post here will be more cautionary.
This user will return someday. Be it under the name Stylus, Zomb, The Labyrinth, Labyrinthine, or any other similar title- DO NOT INTERACT WITH THEM. They have abused nearly every part they had, and all of their friends. Stylus has assaulted not only my partner but their own partners as well, and there is evidence of this.
I will never forgive you, Stylus.
I told Stylus to stop, many times, only to be met with ridicule and guilt tripping, being told it "wasn't *like that*" despite never mentioning it being some kind of romantic advance- that never came out of my mouth.
Do not trust this person, they may not hurt you but they will lie to you about their actions- it's on their page, after all. They directly lied about what they did to my partner, and I bet they'll lie again. I'm sorry if this comes off as too emotional but I had to sit through my partner crying to me and begging to feel clean again, and it kills me to see stylus getting away with all of it.
No apology will ever be enough. Stylus also othered me to insane degrees, going as far as to refuse to speak to me or acknowledge anything I said in groupchats if I was co-con or someone else was fronting, the only time they ever acknowledged something one of us said was to make fun of her and ask who let her take the dumb quizzes we were doing.
I was ignored, belittled, and when I stood up for my partner I was guilt tripped and I will not stand for any of that any more. Still, this isn't my story to tell- go read @lovesick-nagi 's post on the matter,
listen to stylus' victims, not their twisted retelling.
I'll be returning to posting shortly, missed you, everyone
A term for characters or people who resemble an animal type without necessarily having animal features, (ex; a character with cat ears may still be doglike)
Functions as a term for describing these people or characters but also as a gender!
{ Go away if you refuse to read/listen to the DNI please! }
Cutesymiswordic is a gender corolated to mispronouncing or misspelling words to make them sound more cutesy. This can also include unintentional things like natural speech quirks.
Ways to describe this gender can be small, cutesy, misspelled, pretty or soft.
Flag officially coined by @izu-izu! 1/6/2023
Term officially coined by me! 1/6/2023
Gender collaboration between me and him!♡
Cyan, Light cyan, Pale cyan - Mispronouncing words to make them sound cute
I’m so happy I got to work on this!!! I made that funky little flag and I was the inspiration behind the term itself, I feel like such a special little man!
Sad to see people in the reblogs bullying a disabled person with speech issues for creating a xenogender that relates to how this has become a big part of their identity, though, could’ve just asked.
Bunni.bunny @bunilopcoining - Tumblr Blog | Tumgag
