I actually feel like I could kill someone sometimes…
♡ Vent!! ♡
I’m not some tcc femcel poser. I am part of the tcc, but that’s besides the point.
I get so damn attached to people, but they seem to love leaving eventually. I’ve gotten used to it, and I have my handful of good friends that have stuck with me, as well as online friends… but honestly the reason my ex left me makes me want to drown in my own blood. ૮꒰◞ ˕ ◟ ྀི꒱ა
It’s not that I miss him, that would be such a stupid manifesto. He left me because he found my social media presence, addictions (gore, sh, ed), and kemonomimi stuff weird and made him “uncomfortable.” When I finally acted myself around him, he felt I wasn’t the person he fell in love with. I still act the same, I’m THE SAME PERSON!! It’s just alternative interests, and that throws away all the months we spent together? He was my first everything, I’ve never been so open to someone besides my best friend. I never thought someone could love me, but I guess in a way he never did. Not to mention he was homophobic and made holocaust jokes, knowing I’m Polish and have family that passed away in Auschwitz. Never the less I chose to move past that it since I loved him. Once I asked him Kamala or Trump, he chose Trump… yeah, look at how well he’s doing and what he’s doing for America. Good choice, handsome. ૮꒰˶ - ˕ -꒱ა
But something that really bothers me is how lustful he was. I have to admit I’m a pretty kinky person, but when it comes to actually following through what I say in text is something I don’t like doing, since it feels lustful and wrong. That’s not what a relationship should consist of constantly. I had to speak about this to him multiple times before he finally stopped initiating sexual acts. My final straw is that right before he broke up with me, he tried to have (ahem…) with me. I told him no, and he said “I was just teasing.” Hmmm it felt like more than that… but anyway, he said he was loosing feelings at the end of the relationship, yet that’s when he did those things. So you didn’t even like me, and you still did that? I no longer saw the boy I fell in love with and gave myself too. I even talked less to my best friend who I’m extremely close with because she didn’t like him. I did so much for him… ૮꒰っ˕‹̥̥̥ ꒱ა
This has been a constant source of pain in my life, not being accepted, people thinking I look or act weird, too alternative of interests… I would say I’m loved, but I act so awkward. I was bullied, now dumped simply because of being myself. I’m so thankful I have people who do love me, but I’m scared to really be myself with someone other than them.
I’m not in love with him anymore, even if our memories will always take up space in my heart… ♡ ♡ ♡
Sometimes I just want to stab him in his heart and watch him bleed out, give him one last kiss and tell him I loved him.
Did anybody else have an obsession with 9/11, the dark web, and missing cases at a really young age? But I also loved cute things… looks like I really am just an older version of my younger self haha… cute stuff mixed with dark interests and bad mental health I guess, good thing it’s an aesthetic nowadays
I’ve given up on love… no one will love me for who I truly am… Chocola is the only one that’s been there for me… I think I’m the first tccer to yumeship with an anime catgirl oof
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