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15 • Elle • 5ft 8in (172cm), CW: 124 (56kg), LW: 104 (47kg), GW: 100lbs (45kg), BMI: 18.9

[burnedupmentality]

Y'all ever eat one meal so many days in a row that just the thought of it actually makes you want to throw up now, but it's the only thing you feel safe eating at this point?? It's oatmeal. Fucking oatmeal.

[burnedupmentality]

When my friends ghost me on accident it's because they're busy doing actually important/fun things.

When I ghost it's because I starved myself so hard I couldn't string a coherent text together or it's the depression lol

[gottabeskinnyforhalloween]

I actually hate my body like. I know I’m not ‘fat’ so people telling me that isn’t helpful but. I’m not skinny either. I still have fat on my body and my thighs touch and my arms jiggle and I can see some of my bones at the right angle and lighting but they don’t stick out enough and my stomach doesn’t cave inward and I can see my collar bones but necklaces don’t float over them yet and my cheekbones and jaw bone is visible but my cheeks are still doughy and my chins still double and I can see my knuckles but I can’t see the bones on my hand unless I move my fingers and even though I’ve gone down a band size my cup size is still the same and yeah I can see my ribs on my chest under the mirror light if I hold my arms up but I need them visible all the time and I can wrap my hand right around my wrist but I can’t see my wrist bone yet.

I’ve made enough progress to be a healthy weight now but I’m so far from perfection it hurts.

[crxnberrykxng]

luna moths don't have mouths, so they cannot eat

they live to be beautiful, and then they d!e

having an 3d makes this fact feel poetic in a way

[bequiteanddriveeeeeee]

FOR FUCKING FACKS

They only live for a couple weeks before they st4rv3 to d34th and are one of the most beautiful bugs in nature and are rather rare to see due to the short life span-that’s so 4n4 coded

[loser-loses]

I think the Luna moth should be our symbol from now on. It feels gender neutral as well as aesthetically neutral!

A symbol for both the alt bed rotters and the coquette queens!

[burnedupmentality]

Better than a butterfly, I like this idea a lot!

Also, look how gorgeous:

Oddly unnerving in a beautiful way

[burnedupmentality]

Anyone else feel like they're a little too mentally ill for 3dbIr?

I don't really want motivation, cute aesthetics, or really even the romanticization. I just want people to talk and be honest about what they're going through. Isn't that kind of the point of having a community? I feel like the curated aesthetic is also one of the reasons people are too ashamed to reach out to their moots when they "mess up" binging is almost always part of ^nor3xla, and this community it for all 3ds anyways.

Also, and this is personal beef, it feels like every third post is about how boys don't like normal weight girls. That's kind of the opposite of what I want with this shit. I am a homosexual, thank u very much

[voidfilledgod]

have the urge to binge? read this first!

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so you want to eat. okay, great! not a problem. but first, did you…

✧ brush your teeth? 

✧ floss? 

✧ brush your hair? 

✧ shower? 

✧ make your bed? 

✧ drink water? 

✧ take your meds/vitamins? 

✧ stretch?

you did? awesome! good job. wait, did you consider…

✧ shaving? 

✧ applying lotion? 

✧ trimming your nails? 

✧ doing a face mask? 

✧ deep conditioning your hair? 

✧ painting your nails? 

✧ plucking your eyebrows?

✧ exfoliating your body?

don’t wanna do any of those? that’s fine, they aren’t necessary. but have you made sure to do the necessary stuff first? do you still have to…

✧ do homework? 

✧ do laundry? 

✧ wash dishes? 

✧ clean your room? 

✧ run errands? 

✧ take out the trash? 

✧ respond to emails?

all done? you’re so productive!! awesome!! but are you sure you wouldn’t rather…

✧ read a book

✧ color or draw

✧ organize something

✧ go on a walk

✧ listen to music or make playlists

✧ journal

✧ make a collage

✧ deep clean your room

✧ gather stuff you don’t want anymore and donate it/plan a garage sale

✧ watch a new movie or series

✧ make twitter threads

✧ window shop (irl or online)

✧ research a fun topic

✧ practice new makeup styles

✧ work out

✧ take a nap

✧ play a video game

✧ talk with someone on the phone

✧ listen to a podcast

none of those sound interesting? i understand, they’re not for everyone. well, if you’re gonna eat, at least…

✧ choose something healthy / low cal high volume (fruit, veg, air popped popcorn, egg whites, etc)

✧ drink lots of water before, during, and after

✧ take small bites and chew thoroughly 

✧ eat without distractions (including tv!) 

✧ really focus on how the food tastes and feels, taking your time

you chose this as your main activity to do, so at least be mindful! taking your time and paying attention to pacing really helps you understand how much you’re consuming. this helps you eat less, feel fuller faster, and prevent that binge. 

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[burnedupmentality]

Saving this for later, I'm gonna need it 🙃

[burnedupmentality]

So my sister found my last account @burntoutmentality and yelled at me/ignored me until I recovered. Uhh tried to disingenuously recover, and forgot the temp mail my old account was on. Now I can't get in anymore. I don't care if she finds this one, honestly. The 3d is a open secret lol, but I probably won't post much just to protect it a little bit.