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I’m aching with desire for things I cannot name. for words fo pour out of me like blood once did. for the numbness in my limbs and the warm bath and the numbness in my head and the wine, and other things. twice, i was so close. I'm far away now. far from the pain and the thoughts of murder, but filled with desire to feel the weight of the ocean on top of my lungs again. to walk on glass again. to swallow the needles I use to sew white socks with.

I crave violence.

I punch myself in the chest to let the air out. I draw lines on my skin with a 0.5 red sharpie. I torture my cat until she takes revenge. I no longer have the guts for any real damage. I’ve covered the scars - people would notice. people never used to notice.

I just want to disappear. I want to be lost in oblivion.

#journal #quote #thoughts #depression #mental health #mental illness #sylvia plath #girl interrupted #my year of rest and relaxation

kuutamosonaatti

Views from Suomenlinna at summer

Helsinki, Finland, 1965

#nature

lilithmoss

A Hora da Estrela, manuscritos de Clarice Lispector

#clarice lispector

and I wonder how many of them think of sylvia plath

#i think about sylvia plath a lot #sylvia plath #poetry #ariel #the bell jar #writers #confessional poetry #dark academia #anne sexton #mp #depression #dead poets society

metamorphesque

“April is the cruelest month, breeding lilacs out of the dead land, mixing memory and desire, stirring dull roots with spring rain.”

— T.S. Eliot, The Waste Land

#quote

treecitysessions

Untitled Film Still #48, Cindy Sherman, 1979

Valley of the Trolls (The Archetypes), Marina Diamandis, 2011

#electra heart #matd

razorshapes

To Live On by Min Jeong Seo

“The stalks these flowers are already dried up but their blossoms are preserved and kept fresh by the medical infusion bags. The life-span of every living creature is limited.The infusion bags stand for the progress in medicine and the prolongation of human life.They somehow carry an ambivalent message as they refer to both death and life an the same time. Both states are immanent here. To preserve the beauty of the flowers artifically with the help of the infusion bags points out man’s inclination to repress the fact having to die and to postpone death.”

electraheart

♡ B U N I N T H E O V E N ♡

feerie-deactivated20230410

“Oyster Shell Ghosts” (liquid emulsion on shells) by Tina Rowe

“This work in the baldest terms comes from a series of negatives that were found at a car boot sale. I have printed them on oyster shells that were discarded into the Thames over many years. I like the literalness of printing a discarded thing on another discarded thing and the work that was needed to reveal the images from difficult negatives.”