butiammadness

fragments of madness poured into writing, photography, hand craft, and music

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I get high just by listening to this song 👀

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Hey, Sputnik. This one's for you, too.

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TIME. I love how the word resounds in my head as it comes with memories spent with you. We always have the first month until the last of every year since the day we met and nothing was used up in boredom. Life has become a surf ride with you; the onrush of feelings such as fear, excitement, and happiness. It is all worth it. And whenever I sit on a corner with nothing else to do, I think of us. I think of how TIME, no matter how brief it may seem, has become our partner in creating a myriad of memories we will someday reminisce about.

Checked my calendar this morning and thought, “How is it already November?” TIME flies fast, faster than we could imagine, but I am grateful that we never waste any of it. Cheers to more years of love and happiness with you, my Sputnik.

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P.S. Thanks to our dearest friend, Silver, who made this anniversary art for us.

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Please stop doing this to yourself. You're better; way better than your thoughts and those dark clouds that form within your chest. You're better. You'll be better. Please stop doing this to yourself. You deserve happiness, too; the same kind of happiness you wish for others. Happiness like the colors of the rainbow you never see on your skies or the sweetness of the flowers that you never get to admire.

Please stop doing this to yourself. I know it's difficult. It will never be easy. It will keep repeating. It will go on and on until you get tired. But please remember that I am your other self and I will wait until you stop doing this to us.

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Say hi to my mom's boho phone pouch. I'm not skilled in creating my own designs, but I always end up feeling happy with the result of my experiments. She liked it *wink*

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Been hibernating for days now and yesterday, I checked on my instagram account only to feel exhausted after. Tumblr is my safe space now.

Also, been munching on these cute hazelnut hippos from Kinder. Yum. Try it.

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"The enemy often knows you better than you do." -- Hanabi|Mobile Legends

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Made this as a tribute to whoever created Hanabi. She's my main hero. 💖

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You are every word.

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Yes, she closed her eyes

Believing it was his hand

It hurt; then she died

P.S. Made this one for my sister. She loves Among Us and that's her crew.

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We have choices. We can either go with the crowd or turn our backs and find our own adventure. I've always been an admirer of people who choose the latter, but I often find myself walking with the unfamiliar crowd. I get lost most of the time and it's not the beautiful kind of being lost, believe me.

But I'm leaving that to the past. Cheers for those shit moments, but here's a real toast for a better version. I'll fucken strip off these mainstream clothes and be my authentic, scarred self.

"What is essential is invisible to the eye.."

-- Le Petit Prince

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When I look at you

I am compelled

to think of the vastness

the abyss

the infinite;

you are a profound wonder

to my existence

and you are beautiful

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For my sputnik sweetheart.

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11/02/2020

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It's been a while, tumblr. Finally back to where I can pour my heart out. This platform is such a detox from all the bullshit and inauthenticity of everyone, including myself. I'll be posting my writings and photography shits here and may even rant once in a while (or errday..it depends).