I'm regretting a little bit that I didn't join the VHD fandom sooner to create more DxDoris fanarts or other fanarts related to the novels. (Also making the DxDoris ship bigger). At the same time, I don't regret for coming later because I want to post good drawings for enjoyment for myself and others who are interested what I do. My first thoughts when posting my fanarts were that I would get a lot of hate for this because I know there are haters who don't like the ship or Doris at all and I was like: "Okay, fuck it, I'm doing this and even if no one likes it, I will do it out of spite." I wasn’t expecting at all for people to like it or leave a follow. It was a positive surprise, really. Though, I'm still thankful that I don't have to feel like I'm being delusional or the only one liking the ship (or VHD content I post) because of you.
I came across the fandom mostly because of pinterest spamming Yoshitaka Amado's works and manga panels on my fyp and an edit on tiktok. When reading the “main plot” during my research, I felt depressed about the isolation and loneliness of D's journey and was curious enough to try reading the novels (didn't have enough access that I ended up researching the plots mostly) and manga volumes. VHD bloodlust was hard for me to watch because I felt too depressed and sad because how lonely and hopeless and quietly beautiful it was. (What unsettled me was how tiny waists of the female cast and D are where I thought that they would break in halves for not eating enough despite the fitting character designs)