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Give me one (1) reason to believe I won’t feel drowned in deep, dark depression for the rest of my life:

warm vs cool

#me #9/2020

if i still have any active followers, sendddd anons

I had a dream last night that MGK was SERIOUSLY attracted to me. He wanted to do the deed sooo bad. For reference, I am in love with that man (moreso Pete but that’s not the point) anyway.... in my dream I kept telling him:

“I just want you to know that I’m not gonna cheat on my boyfriend just because you’re MGK”

What was my dream ???

(Also, it felt good to reject him even though I want that man to throw me around so bad)

#9/2020

my brain has been in a battle between the light & dark within, i needed to feel some balance, & wanted my to nails to reflect that

#9/2020 #acrylicnails #nailideas

8/5/2020

109 degrees outside

#hydroflask #hydroflaskstickers #supportlocalbusinesses organicjuicing

If you haven’t spoken to me in a while, let me reintroduce myself 🌞

#me #arizonagirl #pansexual #summerdays

OK SO...

Here’s a (very short version) update:

In 2016, I ran away from home. I was 20. Terrible living situation + family is a cult (seriously)

From then to -> now - it has been SO hard to adapt to the reality and this real world, while also battling my severe mental illnesses

Today, 2020 - I’m almost done with Cosmetology school, go on lots of adventures with my best friend, and am trying to manifest my dream tiny house 🧘🏽‍♀️

Butttt my mental illnesses still plague me, and I’m currently in a manic episode. Going on...2 or 3 weeks, now?

I never quite know if I’m going to make it out of them.

Still yearning for the feeling of peace and contentment to fill my heart, and I do feel like I’m getting closer.

This doesn’t cover even a smidgen of all of the crazy things that has happened over the years, but I’m grateful to say I’ve at least experienced them as a free person.