I like drawing, animals, fanfic, youtube, music, visual novels, horror, psychology, and morally complex media and ships 🙃
Studying spanish (low intermediate) and korean (beginner). Tips are appreciated 🇪🇸🇰🇷
Socially awkward but open to new friends (16+) and discord servers 👥
Sometimes i follow non-€d blogs that i think are cool. If you dont want me following you then Block don't report ‼️
Stats 💙
Height: 4'8 / 142.4 cm
Hw/Sw (July 2, 2026): 132 lbs / 59.9 kg
Lw (May 2024): 101 lbs / 45.9 kg
Cw (July 19, 2026): 123.2 lbs / 55.9 kg
Gw 1: 125 lbs / 56.7 kg 🔥
Gw 2: 115 lbs / 52.2 kg
Gw 3: 100 lbs / 45.4 kg
Gw 4: 80 lbs / 36.3 kg
Ugw: whenever i stop hating myself lol
My Rules 🌟
Avoid suspicion by not denying food from others, especially family
Also avoid suspicion and curb cravings by chewing and spitting food when possible; chug water before and rinse mouth with water after
Eat/drink under 1k cals per day, preferably under 500
Drink plain water every day, no exceptions. Try to drink 40 fl oz / ~1.2 L or more per day, although this isn't mandatory
Track all liquid cals; under 20 sugar-free liquid cals do not break a fast, but any sugar, food, or sugar-free liquid above 20 cals break a fast
Only 12+ hour fasts count
One "day" is from 12:00am until 11:59pm. Cals from the day "reset" at midnight
After eating 1k+ cals in a day, mandatory 24+ hour fast or until weak/lightheaded, whichever comes last (rule 1 still applies; break and restart when necessary)
For the first 2 days of menstrual cycle, continue to track all cals but avoid fasting or restricting. Rules 3 and 8 don't apply during this time
Avoid intense physical activity while fasting when possible
Never try to purge or use laxatives for non-medical purposes
yknow, as counterintuitive as it may seem, helping a suicidal friend isn't a matter of stopping them from dying. it's about helping to make their world one that's worth living in.
it's important to make that distinction, lest we make people's quality of life worse in the name of "protecting" them.
i dislike the weird jump to blame suicide victims for their suicides and call them selfish. suicide is very frequently in some way a social murder. i think instead of blaming someone who was in such a dark place that they saw no other way out we should maybe be blaming the people who threw gas on the fire, such as those with a lot of power to make that person's life that bad or those who abused them into it. is that really that unreasonable
Oh would you look at that? My boyfriend who literally has his own ed blog/edtwt but actively encouraged me to spend the last 2 years getting (even more) fat suddenly hates his body and wants to go on a diet. Interesting. 🙂
I feel like im being very generous with my estimates but at the same time im not gonna drive myself insane because i have no control over the fact that my family is fat and jealous. I technically shouldnt consider today a metab day since i still ate way less than what is "healthy" but im so full i just wanna fast as long as i can 😔
Unfortunately however there is no arguing with my future menstruating self so im gonna give myself grace for those first 2 days and choose when and what i eat and prioritize protein and satisfying cravings for stuff i could end up binging on if i try to ignore them
New fast started at 9:35 pm. Gonna make the first 12 or so hrs since ill be asleep but after that we'll see 🤷🏽♂️
Dinner was more than i thought but everyone has eaten and not a cake in sight!!!! If we don't have cake i might eat like half an oreo or smthn so i don't binge on sugar tonight and we'll be done for the day with less than 500 cals ^^
