It's Butterrr with three R's

"The thing to remember is, if we're all alone, then we're all together in that too." ~ from P.S. I Love You

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I feel like this needs to be said more. https://www.instagram.com/p/COVLkp2pw5Os3E26MvqSHJ3yvyem8bDQ3ujJZE0/?igshid=5xq7onv5pwrx

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I always get teased or called out for "being angry all the time." No, I'm not angry all the time—but it is how I usually begin to process my emotions. I was raised in a household that didn't want to address sadness, weakness and other emotions considered negative, so every time I felt them I would get very angry... And then recognize what I really am feeling and process them properly. I know I need to work on that and I am working on it, but deeply ingrained habits are hard to undo and will take time. I woke up today feeling rage and palpitating for reasons I don't quite understand yet. I am processing but for now, I need you to understand—it's these moments when I stay away from people the most because I don't want to say or do anything that shouldn't be directed towards others. And while I normally don't feel a need to explain myself, I'm sharing this one as a reminder that it's okay to step back and create your safe space while you're sorting out your current state. https://www.instagram.com/p/CM-rpMJJYzIuyfFU-swAlnakUpC91ryq_cU-lI0/?igshid=1oprw4m9l7aby

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Always my mood. 🤭🖕🏼 (at Nasugbu, Batangas) https://www.instagram.com/p/CLReBFvJH1xzB1TimlEzR2fn9s2UgznV24DMnc0/?igshid=qcy72yrk92tw

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What a weekend. 💙 Grateful for you, @kenj.escobar for introducing me to @freedivetribeph. Grateful for Coach AJ @rangesandreefs for taking good care of us and being patient with teaching us. And grateful that I got to take a break from everything. 🙏 But now I really need to catch up on my sleep! https://www.instagram.com/p/CK_VXoupRgTbynbXzbNmS2k4ET566G9GsiPf-Y0/?igshid=1szeo5eaxyfh0

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Happy birthday, Mother Goose! 🎂🎉🥳 https://www.instagram.com/p/CKPMDyvJCJjtIILzUUBKj8livnT5Cc-LCL_q0c0/?igshid=ivzq62tewhyl

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International Day of the Girl

Apparently yesterday was the International Day of the Girl.

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Hi six year-old Kaye,

I'm sorry I haven't quite lived up to your dreams and aspirations. You were a dreamer and you liked to dream big because you knew you were smart enough, even when no one else believed in you. You'll come to prove those mfs wrong, don't worry. But life will throw you many curve balls, and you'll make a lot of mistakes too (especially in relationships—your IQ will not help you in that department HAHA), but these will make you stronger and wiser, give you a sense of humor (you're so serious for a six year-old, you're basically an old lady!), and make your life colorful!

Your life's about to get really shitty in two years. You'll go through more things than kids your age should and the only person who understands you right now won't be around, so you'll be left to fend for yourself. It'll be hell until you're an adult and I'd like to say it gets better, but the truth is it doesn't—instead, you'll get better at handling the shit and finding something to laugh about. At the very least, you'll hone so many talents that you can just pick and choose one as your coping mechanism for the day 😄 At most, you'll grow to be fiercely independent and not want to ask help from anyone, which can and will alienate some people. But it won't be all bad: in fact, you'll have so many good moments you'll be surprised to find yourself more grateful than bitter.

Here's some bad news, though: that temper that you haven't quite discovered yet will always be there. It'll come out in two years and it will scare you and everyone around you. You'll gain some control of it, but you'll always be a scary bitch. And most times that'll save you from a lot of shit. But sometimes that'll get you in trouble too.

The good news is the solution to get your temper under control is very easy: COFFEE. Copious amounts of coffee. When you discover Gilmore Girls in the year 2000, you'll know what I mean. 😉

Overall, I'd say we're doing quite well, considering. I mean, there's a global pandemic and we're still here, thriving. You may not be a scientist but hey, you're going on many adventures, just wait. And PS. — I believe in you. ❤️

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Finished my latest sketch! @stephanieschild 💖💙💜 Very challenging but I'm proud of it! https://www.instagram.com/p/CFS5ac4Bi5WnbZIT0Pr3Tj8xi-eACVDH5K5WMM0/?igshid=1t2ltvd08fuy6

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VERY IMPORTANT INFORMATION: VOTER REGISTRATION IS NOW OPEN! I know it's been awhile since I've posted something along these lines (hi, self-care is a thing) but this absolutely cannot be put off. Time to put into action what we've been talking about since the quarantine began. The only way they pay is if we all do it together and make each of our voices count. REGISTER TO VOTE. https://www.instagram.com/p/CElwGtsBdGauv4Sm9XTzMigKShueSJDc1jfXV80/?igshid=1f8ohty5fdfm9

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Please excuse me while I get naked, I just want to get comfortable https://www.instagram.com/p/CEbEmiHBQ97Kzshaw-bNsL19qJmcR_PZjUgSrY0/?igshid=1cemvc35s9h8f

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I think I feel a headache coming on! 🤪😄 Just because I had originally intended to try this (with a spookier look), but since I already had the Chelsea face on... Well 😄 https://www.instagram.com/p/CCjJ5sJBpPTtTX6BQ-12Sz5_Q13k3rAZGTh9bg0/?igshid=vxvni1ykg5tl

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Because @elgosh requested a full look with the new eyes, I did a quick Janspired one 💜 Not quite sure why this platinum grey looks more blue but I'm here for it! 🙌🏼 https://www.instagram.com/p/CCDfBAUh4hvu5VLDQ8yQkY-5y0Ab6MIaklIxq80/?igshid=uvbkcrgwqwx2

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112 years of honor and excellence. ❤️ Mabuhay ang pag-asa ng bayan! ✊🏼 #UPFoundationDay #HappyBirthdayUP #UPNamingMahal https://www.instagram.com/p/CBkhNrABjdvei4dZa4s2F8XkxOqga-OZKq4k3s0/?igshid=byje6n7vx2io

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Today I am 33 and still every bit the awkward kid I was back then. 🎂🎉 https://www.instagram.com/p/CBe3RR4hfB4SPF4iyWje4eBl1lGxkdIePbhEjg0/?igshid=t4p0z0f60gnf

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Playing around yesterday, nothing serious. I have good childhood memories associated with this song and I love it ❤️😊 https://www.instagram.com/p/CA1MD03gDs_e6XrZ-ekUjCN8TBval-TN8bCtdQ0/?igshid=1pnhmklucun92

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Didn't have time to iron my hair straight so hi natural hair, but I did put on a quick face for the Zoom Roscoe's viewing party. Of course that's a bit ruined now because I was so happy when the winner was announced that. I teared up a bit 😂❤️ LET ME FANGIRL OKAY I LIKE THE LITTLE WINS WE GET TODAY 😄❤️❤️❤️ https://www.instagram.com/p/CAy2qN1h0NV017BdN8gvRjqbHsns52Rd_5OZHI0/?igshid=22mzobgdywld

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Was debating over a beauty look, drag makeup or turning my entire face green for this thing I've been wanting to do for awhile now. Ended up with a combination of the three. https://www.instagram.com/p/CAmce7jhd_00pFN-K11ZUSfKbcSe8TjU8OqVzc0/?igshid=cd5ook05j6y5

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After my workout this morning, I went through my stuff in storage to look for my empty spray bottles because I'm going to clean my makeup brushes today. I found my gloves looking sad in a corner so I wore them for a moment. I miss throwing a good punch or two 🥊 https://www.instagram.com/p/CAhBo0zhf9eqcPlTEmI9qyU_SnN3YGDFTNmXpw0/?igshid=6ks7sb164kih