disg🅾️stehn biych / 2nd blog

If you’re struggling with an ED, please get help 🖤 165cm / 5’5 28.5.2018 sw:68,7kg cw: disgusting hw: 72kg lw: 46,3kg

[yourlocalmadlad]

why does my mind think that suicide is the solution for everything

[andre-pick-up-the-phone-deactiv]

me: middle school honor student about to go into high school

undiagnosed mental illness:

[skinnyninnyy]

i wish my weight would drop as fast as james charles’s sub count

[froslasss]

do you know how cute i would be if i had more money 

[theweight0fbeingme]

And less fat

[skinnydove-s-wings]

And less ugly

[delicate-angell]

wow must be nice to just eat until ur full, and then just,,, stop? eating??? because ur full?????¿¿??¿

[buttparsley]

I ate almost 600kcal today 😭😭😭😭 I want to fucking commit no life

I didn’t even walk home from school and I burned only 1700kcal total today 😭😭😭

[buttparsley]

Lmao okay so it’s 10:30 in the morning and even though I haven’t shat yet (and I ate really late, about 23:30) I still lost 0,5kg... so I’m good I guess..

[buttparsley]

I ate almost 600kcal today 😭😭😭😭 I want to fucking commit no life

I didn’t even walk home from school and I burned only 1700kcal total today 😭😭😭

[juupajaa]

Ok but y'all have no idea how confused I am about how eating normally has changed my body?????? Like bitch I haven’t gotten fat??? My chest bones are still right there but now I have muscles too??? I can see my abs??? I workout so little here and I eat all day long????????¿¿??? mY L1fE iS a LiE

[buttparsley]

wow I just got fat

[skinniangel]

[thinboneytea]

What hurts the most is looking in the mirror and knowing it could be different.

I could’ve started earlier

I could’ve eaten less yesterday

I could’ve walked away from that one binge

I could’ve said no to that meal

I could’ve drank water instead

maybe then I could feel hunger pains again over the pain of being a failure.

[desperate-thinning]

that awkward moment when you can’t shit anymore bc you never eat enough

[petitedreams1]

[buttparsley]

0 cal shit

[taintedtights]

I wanna be

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But instead I am

( . )

\ | /

[buttparsley]

fuck me I scrolled through my snapchat memories with my friend and there was a FUCKING body check... fuck fuck fuck :DdDDdddDdDdDdDd

[lxvelybonesx]

Eating disorder logic

- I’m lonely I’m going to isolate myself - I’m hungry I’m going to starve - I’m full I’m going to eat - I feel enormous I’m going to binge now - I can tell I’ve lost weight I’m never eating again - I’m happy I’m going to trigger myself - I’m sad I’m going to pretend I’m fine - gum has 5 calories no - ice cream has a million calories I’m going to eat a whole 7 pints

[toofat-toothin]

I never related so much

[miascomeback]

Yep

[thin-tings]

It’s gross, but some sick part of me enjoys the fact that my mental health is so messed up. Some sick part of me that’s like yes, I hope this gets worse, it’s not that bad, I hope this gets worse, I deserve to get worse.

I deserve to get worse.

[buttparsley]

...

[xxtrippyhippyx]

This isn’t a meme, I think I might actually have a problem