Trying to Make it Through Each Day

just living through shitty things and shitty feelings hoping that I can make it until my next nap.

[depressionarmy]

please believe me.

[butwhatisright-blog]

I feel so guilty for shutting down last night. All you wanted was a nice night and I fucked it up as usual.

[theziaries]

“Girls just want somebody to want them back. At least I do.”

— Brooke Davis, One Tree Hill

[butwhatisright-blog]

I shared this on Facebook. The person it was about commented “yup” but She was probably thinking about someone else 😔

[sweetsteeths]

person: hey you ok?

me, dissociating: 

[butwhatisright-blog]

I posted this on Facebook and the only people who commented were my dad, my moms friend, and the person I babysit for. 😔

[madeupmonkeyshit]

[butwhatisright-blog]

[butwhatisright-blog]

Why am I such a fucking fuck up as a friend.

I try my hardest to comfort a friend who is going through shit. I know she is and I honestly really want to help her, so clearly the best thing to come out of my mouth is to try to one up her in who is having it worse.

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK WAS I THINKING.

THATS THE VERY LAST THING I WOULD EVER WANT ANYONE TO DO TO ME SO WHY IN THE WORLD WOULD I EVER SAY IT TO HER.

I’ve given her good advice before this incident and after it (I think but honestly it probably wasn’t that good) but I just can’t get that one fucking time out of my head.

I really think people would be better off without me.

[butwhatisright-blog]

I’ve been sitting on the couch for the past half hour.

My Apple Watch just congratulated me on a great workout.

Thanks apple, it was just a panic attack.

[babyimjustrappintothislsd]

i really want to cut my wrist open then fucking die right now. no one cares anyways

[sad-empty-lost]

Closing your eyes and wishing you don’t wake up again…..

Waking up wishing that you didn’t……..

Story of my life

[depressionarmy]

Coping with depression is a full-time job (no pay, no benefits, no vacation).

[fallingtones-deactivated2021082]

The thought of killing myself is so ingrained in my mind that when a bunch of small bad things happen, it gets overwhelming and I’m convinced I won’t make it through the night.

@fallingtones

[postsecretdaily]

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FUCK YOU, ANXIETY.