𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒊𝒓 𝒘𝒂𝒍𝒅𝒐𝒓𝒇.

that girl is 𝐟𝐢𝐞𝐫𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠, 𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒑𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒏𝒕, 𝗼𝘂𝘁𝘀𝗽𝗼𝗸𝗲𝗻, 𝕓𝕖𝕒𝕦𝕥𝕚𝕗𝕦𝕝 and capable of 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠.

[bwaldrfs]

𝐁𝐖𝐀𝐋𝐃𝐑𝐅𝐒.  𝒊’𝒎  𝒕𝒉𝒆  𝒃𝒆𝒔𝒕  𝒐𝒇  𝒕𝒉𝒆  𝒃𝒆𝒔𝒕,  𝒊’𝒎  𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒊𝒓  𝒘𝒂𝒍𝒅𝒐𝒓𝒇.

an  independent,  private  &  selective  blog  for  𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐫 𝐰𝐚𝐥𝐝𝐨𝐫𝐟  from  the  cw’s  gossip  girl.  highly  divergent  and  headcanon  developed.  mutuals  only.  as  told  by  manu  (25 & she/her)

𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚛𝚍.         𝚖𝚞𝚕𝚝𝚒-𝚖𝚞𝚜𝚎.      𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏  𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚘.

more  coming  soon.

[bwaldrfs]

moving  b  back  to  my  multi:  @irreparabiles

[bob-belcher]

[bwaldrfs]

   bla/ir  at  first  struggling  to  think  of  out  of  the  box  designs  and  then  jen/ny  comes  in  and  teaches  her  that  it  doesn’t  have  to  be  perfect,  polish  and  posh  to  be  beautiful  and  good  (  which  is  an  idea  that  has  stuck  with  bl.air  her  entire  life.  )  i’ll  die  on  this  hill  but  jen/ny  is  as  much  of  a  teacher  to  bla*r  as  bla/ir  is  to  her,  if  not  more.

[bwaldrfs]

𝐒𝐏𝐎𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐃: nicholas scratch !

 there  is  too  much  pain  in  a  restrained  heart,  too  little  dealt  with  for  the  one  remaining  scratch  to  be  considered  whole.  there  are  pieces  missing,  and  he  hardly  recognizes  the  familiar  ebony  eyes  that  glare  back  at  him  in  the  mirror  most  of  the  time  though  he  knows  they’re  his.  new  york  was  supposed  to  be  an  out,  a  vacation  from  the  suffering,  TIDINGS OF A BETTER TIME.  so  why  did  he  follow  the  same  path  that  brought  him  destruction  before?  𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍  𝚑𝚎  𝚋𝚎  𝚜𝚘  𝚋𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚍  𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝  𝚑𝚎  𝚍𝚒𝚍𝚗'𝚝  𝚜𝚎𝚎  𝚝𝚑𝚎  𝚍𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚛  𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗  𝚒𝚝  𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚎  𝚊  𝚝𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝  𝚜𝚔𝚒𝚛𝚝  𝚊𝚗𝚍  𝚊  𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚋𝚊𝚗𝚍?  her  words  cut  deep  because  if  it  were  about  the  money,  they  would  matter.  but  it  was  the  adventure,  the  suicidal  fascination  with  mortals  that  he  doesn’t  learn  from.  a  heavy  frown  settles  on  dark  brow  as  he  faces  her  once  more.

“  i  don't  care  about  your  money,  waldorf,  you  can  keep  it.  have  you  not  used  me  enough?  ”    a  sigh,  and  he  rubs  his  tightly  shut  eyes.    “  listen.  it  was  fun,  i  had  a  great  time  making  your  ex  jealous  for  you,  but–  i  can't  keep  doing  this  forever,  y'know?  ”

     mocha  hues  grow  wider  at  his  words.  he  is  leaving.  despite  her  threats,  he  still  wishes  to  go.  how  do  you  convince  someone  they  should  stay  when  they  are  determined  to  leave?  blair  has  never  quite  learned  how  to  do  that.  first  there  had  been  serena  then  her  father.  there  had  been  nate  too.  and  now  nicholas.  WHAT  IS  SO  WRONG  WITH  HER  THAT  EVERYBODY  LEAVES?  a  sigh  breaks  out  of  her,  tongue  blurting  out  to  wet  her  lips.  she  would  never  force  him  to  stay.  even  if  it  broke  her  heart,  she  would  let  nick  follow  his.  ❝  i’m  sorry.  ❞  words  that  taste  foreign  in  sharp  tongue.  she  never  apologizes,  often  refuses  to.  but  he  is  different,  everything  about  him  is.  so  much  that  blair  cannot  keep  up  the  act  for  too  long.  they  are  fooling  everyone,  lying  and  pretending,  but  everything  she  says  to  him  is  real.  she  just...  wishes  she  were  braver  to  say  that  her  feelings  are  real  as  well.

      a  sigh  of  defeat  breaks  out  of  ruby  lips  and  high  heels  click  against  the  floor  of  her  penthouse  as  she  closes  the  distance  between  them.  ❝  i  know  you  cannot  stay  here  forever  and  i  would  never  ask  you  to  keep  living  a  lie.  ❞  she  breathes  in  as  it  hurts  to  remember  this  is  all  a  lie.  every  smile,  every  touch,  every  kiss.  what  was  she  thinking  when  she  walked  up  to  him  and  planned  it  all?  ❝  i  had  no  idea  you  were  so...  miserable,  nick.  but  we  can  end  it  if  that’s  what  you  want,  of  course  we  can.  i  just...  well,  i  suppose  i  have  to  admit  i’ll  miss  you  and  our  late  nights  eating  gelato  and  watching  movies.  ❞  and  no,  she  is  not  tearing  up.  it’s  just  allergies.

[bwaldrfs]

g/g:  omg  der***  was  everything  and  they  were  made  for  each  other,  he  loved  her  sm  he  created  g/g  for  her me,  holding  the  book  he  wrote  for  b  that  did  not  involve  exposing  people’s  secrets  for  years:  hm  what?  

[bwaldrfs]

      bla/ir  being  so  scared  of  losing  na/te  when  sere/na  came  back  that  she  literally  rushed  herself  to  have  sex  with  him  because  she  thought  that  would  keep  his  interest  since  she  always  thought  he  would  always  pick  ser/ena  over  her.

[waldorfblairs]

favorite blair waldorf moments → i destroyed the only thing i ever loved.

[mj-sevilla]

100 FOLLOWERS CELEBRATION: @flourencepugh asked audrey hope or blair waldorf?

[toadmemes]

* OLIVIA RODRIGO'S SOUR ALBM PROMPTS ,

BRUTAL.

i want it to be like, messy.

i'm so caught up in the news of who likes me, and who hates you.

they'd all be so disappointed.

who am i, if not exploited?

where's my fucking teenage dream?

if someone tells me one more time "enjoy your youth", i'm gonna cry.

i wish i'd done this before.

i wish people liked me more.

all i did was try my best, and this the kinda thanks i get?

god, it's brutal out here!

i feel like no one wants me.

all i did was try my best.

this the kinda thanks i get?

i don't even know where to start.

TRAITOR.

i played dumb but i always knew.

now it sure as hell don't look like it.

you betrayed me.

you're still a traitor.

there's no damn way that you could fall in love with somebody that quickly.

i know that you'll never feel sorry.

don't you dare forget about the way you betrayed me.

DRIVERS LICENSE.

i got my driver's license last week just like we always talked about.

how could I ever love someone else?

i know we weren't perfect but i've never felt this way for no one.

i just can't imagine how you could be so okay now that i'm gone?

all my friends are tired of hearing how much I miss you.

they'll never know you the way that i do.

i still fucking love you.

1 STEP FORWARD, 3 STEPS BACK.

you got me fucked up in the head.

i hate that I gave you power over that kind of stuff.

it's always one step forward and three steps back.

i'm the love of your life until i make you mad.

do you love me, want me, hate me? i don't understand.

maybe in some masochistic way, i kind of find it all exciting.

did i say something wrong?

maybe this is all your fault instead.

DEJA VUV.

when you gonna tell them that we did that too?

that was our place, i found it first.

let's be honest, we kinda do sound the same.

i hate to think that i was just your type.

i was the one who taught you billy joel.

GOOD 4 U.

i guess you moved on really easily.

i guess that you've been working on yourself.

god, i wish that I could do that.

i've lost my mind.

i've spent the night crying on the floor of my bathroom.

you're so unaffected, i really don't get it.

what the fuck is up with that?

screw that and screw you!

you'll never have to hurt the way you know that i do.

maybe i'm too emotional.

your apathy's like a wound in salt.

you're doing great out there without me.

ENOUGH FOR YOU.

i know that you loved before.

i knew from the start this is exactly how you'd leave.

you left me there crying, wondering what i did wrong.

you always say I'm never satisfied.

i don't think that's true.

all i ever wanted was to be enough for you.

i'd say you broke my heart, but you broke much more than that.

i don't want your sympathy, i just want myself back before.

don't you think i loved you too much to be used and discarded?

don't tell me you're sorry.

i don't think anything could ever be enough for you.

HAPPIER.

i thought my heart was detached from all the sunlight of our past.

i hope you're happy, but not like how you were with me.

i'm selfish, i know.

i can't let you go.

i wish you all the best.

JEALOUSY, JEALOUSY.

i kind of wanna throw my phone across the room.

i'm so sick of myself.

i'd rather be anyone, anyone else.

i see everyone getting all the things i want.

their win is not my loss.

all i see is what i should be. i'm losing it.

FAVORITE CRIME.

know that i loved you so bad.

the things i did just so i could call you mine.

i defended you to all my friends.

you know that i'd do it all again.

it’s bittersweet to think about the damage that we do.

i was going down, but i was doing it with you.

i say that i hate you with a smile on my face.

look what we became.

HOPE UR OK.

we fell out of touch.

don't know if i'll see you again someday.

i hope that you're ok.

we don't talk much but i just gotta say i miss you.

nothing's forever, nothing's as good as it seems.

i hope you know how proud i am you were created with the courage to unlearn all of their hatred.

i hope that you're happier today because i love you.

[bwaldrfs]

     gaze  falls  on  the  blonde  girl.  years  and  years  of  memories  rushing  through  her  mind.  she  does  not  particularly  understand  why  or  how  jenny  humphrey  became  such  an  intrinsic  part  of  her  life.  one  minute  she  was  a  freshman  wannabe  and  the  next  she  was  one  of  the  few  people  blair  respected.  some  days,  blair  even  let  herself  think  they  were  friends.  but  the  brunette  would  be  lying  if  she  said  jenny  had  not  changed  her  life,  taught  her  to  be  a  better  person.  ❝  i  get  it.  you’re  a  part  of  me  i  will  never  understand  either.  but  some  things  we  don’t  have  to  understand  to  appreciate.  like  diamonds.  i  know  they’re  made  of  the  same  molecules  as  graphite,  i  know  they  only  become  diamonds  after  enduring  pressure  but  i  don’t  understand  why...  and  i  certainly  appreciate  them.  ❞  a  beat.  ❝  you’ve  always  been  a  diamond  in  the  making,  little  j.  i’m  just  glad  i  get  to  see  the  final  product  and  how  much  it  shines.  ❞

“you are a part of me I will never understand.”  @humphri​​​  (  meme.  )

[bwaldrfs]

gos/sip  gi/rl  is  a  hellish  tv  show  but  i  still  love  the  music  and  the  pilot

[bwaldrfs]

      her  silence  is  deafening  at  first.  mocha  hues  roaming  to  him  as  she  attempts  to  process  his  words.  was  this  an  admission  of  guilt,  nate  talking  about  all  the  times  he  had  let  her  down?  or  was  this  his  way  of  asking  for  an  apology?  when  you’ve  let  someone  down  again  and  again,  i  think  it’s  fair  to  lose  a  little  faith.  blair  has  never  lost  faith  in  him.  she  has  lost  faith  in  them,  in  their  future,  even  in  herself  at  times.  but  nate?  her  love  for  him  is  her  biggest  weakness,  blinding  her  and  making  it  oh  so  easy  for  her  to  forgive  anything  and  everything.  perhaps  that  is  where  the  problem  is.  does  he  want  her  to  hate  him?  blair  just...  she  doesn’t  understand.  not  because  she  can’t,  but  rather  because  she  doesn’t  want  to.  the  idea  that  they  are  broken  beyond  repair  is...  terrifying.  ❝  so  i  let  you  down  but  somehow...  serena  hasn’t?  or  is  it  jenny  now?  ❞  she  inquires,  her  voice  trembling.  ❝  i  love  you,  nate.  i  know  we  both  have  made  some  mistakes  but...  i  wanna  fix  this.  please.  ❞

@goldibald​  (  meme.  )

[shanehollanderilyarozanov]

Call me Lu.

[bwaldrfs]

𝐬𝐩𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐝:  goldibald​.

    @bwaldrfs​⠀ .⠀.⠀⠀⦄         💬

       “    move   away   from   the   door,   blair,     and   let   me   at   him.    ”

     ❝  no.  ❞  she  says  it  vehemently,  arms  wrapping  across  her  chest.  ❝  you’re  not  doing  anything.  ❞

[toadmemes]

euphoria dialogue prompts ,

“i put up a good fight, but i lost.”

“you know i spent my whole life trying to keep this part of me separate?”

“how do you decide who you wanna hook up with?”

“this is why the world keeps getting worse.”

“everyone knows who I am.”

“you think ‘cause i went to rehab i stayed clean?”

“i hate seeing you sit in the chair my dad sat in.”

“everybody gets their feelings hurt.”

“i thought that i was doing what was best for everybody.”

“at some point, you have to make a choice about who you are and what you want.”

“kissing is worse. it’s so much more intimate.”

“the world went quiet, and i felt safe in my own head.”

“go fuck yourself.”

“i know nothing about you.”

“it’s about putting your all into everything you do.”

“say what you want about christians, at least they believe in forgiveness.”

“forgiveness is the key to change.”

“it’s not a relapse if it’s warranted. it’s a hall pass.”

“maybe people are nostalgic about high school 'cause it’s, like, the last time in their life that they get to dream.”

“you are a part of me I will never understand.”

“when you’ve let someone down again and again, i think it’s fair to lose a little faith.”

“it’s one thing to dislike your parents, it’s not like you have a choice. but if you dislike your kid, well, that’s sort of your fault.”

“what are you, like, fucking tony montana?”

“the problem with hating yourself is you can’t really talk about it.”

“should I be concerned?”

“now you got a whole bunch of people running around who don’t give a fuck about redemption.”

“if you tell me what drugs you’re doing, i’ll tell you what drugs i’m doing.”

“you just can’t be mad at me for wanting you to be okay.”

“selfishly, i hope you stay.”

“you may have won the game, but you lost control of the team.”

“i don’t want to be that old guy that gives you advice, but i look at you and i think there are two versions of how your life can go.”

“sometimes two people in the universe who aren’t meant for each other find each other.”

“i just wanted to dream about it for a minute.”

“the farther you go, the sharper their blade.”

“it was like there was no more air left in the world And i was gasping, and i was panicking.”

“i think i’m going to do everything in my power for at least, like the next three years, not to fall in love.”

“they don’t actually want a person, they want something they can own and possess.”

“i kind of feel closer to you than i do anyone in the world.”

“i’ve got an idea.”

“some people need to get their feelings hurt sometimes.”

“reducing someone’s life to a moment, an ugly moment, and punishing them for it? that’s what cops do. it’s actually what everyone does.”

“i fucking hate this town.”

“i definitely haven’t reached my full power.”

“i’m extremely confused.”

“when you hate your brain and your body, it’s hard to enjoy the rest.”

“i wasn’t going to stop until I got the truth.”

“i don’t know what type of fucked up shit you got going inside your head.”

“when you’re younger, everything feels so permanent.”

“i feel like you ruined me forever.”

“why do you look like that?”

“i’m envious of your generation, you know.”

“what do you think this is, the eighties? catch a dick.”

“do you think this stuff affects them? even if they don’t know it?

“most of the time, i really hate the way you make me feel.”

“i It’s funny how I used to think we were meant for each other.”

“nudes are the currency of love.”

“i love the theater.”

“first of all, ew. second of all, ew.”

“i just hope it didn’t teach you the wrong lesson.”

“i want you to wanna kiss me so bad that you don’t even ask.”

“i’m not saying i’m gonna have a baby.”

“i’m a rogue, i march to the beat of my own drum.”

“just don’t ever give them an opening.”

“this shit is hard and confusing.”

“you fell in love with someone who spent years making fun of you. it’s sad.”

“you did this to me!”

“the last thing you need is to feel worse because you’re not feeling something you’re supposed to feel.”

“do you wish i was different?”

“you’ve got to believe in the poetry because everything else in your life will fail you. even yourself.”

“real love is when you can’t exist without someone, when you’d rather die than be apart.”

“plenty of great, intelligent, funny, interesting, and creative people have struggled with the same things you struggle with.”

“i don’t know how to help.”

“you’re never really emotionally prepared for someone to leave you.”

“i feel like love is super dark and no one ever talks about it.”

“you’re my new favourite person.”

“your whole fucking life’s a secret.”

“they’re basically the most wonderful fucking person on the planet.”

“i guess i just wanted to hurt you as much as i imagined you’d hurt me.”

“i mean, i’m all good with drugs until guns start coming out.”

“the universe is just out here giving like zero fucks.”

“no room for heteronormativity in here.”

“what’s a bigger feeling than love?”

“listen to yourself. it’s fucking exhausting.”

“i know this isn’t going to end well.”

“i ruined my entire life for you.”

“you do what feels good to you.”

“you know what? fuck it. fuck it, i’m going to the police.”

“i feel like high school is super fucking suffocating.”

“the thing about confidence is no one knows if it’s real or not.”

“this is the feeling i have been searching for my entire life, for as long as i could remember.”

“you do what feels good to you.”

“every time i feel good, i think it’ll last forever, but it doesn’t.”

“open the door!”

“i know over the years you’ve lost some brain cells.”

“you guys don’t care as much about the rules.”

“you look like a cat coughed your ass up.”

“as you get older, you begin to realize nothing is permanent and everyone you love can drift away.”

“the more you move up in the world, the more enemies you make.”

“is one of us gonna get hurt?”

[bwaldrfs]

so...  who  wants  to  take  a  look  at  my  carrd  and  tell  me  if  it  looks  okay?