So, Tumblr is back on my phone after five (or six?) years.
The way it happened was, I stumbled upon a YouTube Short (YouTube Shorts are so 2023 and who would’ve thought that we’ll be writing it onto a Tumblr post) of a food content creator (again, very 2020-esque) saying that they will resort to LinkedIn and MySpace since YouTube is, apparently, banning them.
MySpace? I thought. That’s still a thing?
I hurriedly searched for it on the App Store, only to find that MySpace is only accessible through its website—which the UI looks like an outdated Bandcamp site.
But the App Store presented me with a chance to reinstall Tumblr again. Why not? What’s a few good megabytes eaten from my phone storage for the sake of nostalgia?
Then, here we are. I have probably spent two hours last night scrolling through my “blog” full of GIF reblogs from series I’ve seen over the years. Some are about music; whether the tracks themselves or candid portraits of the artists which I considered aesthetic at the time. I mostly played it safe and kept it cool—which is the result of trying to keep up with the cool people I follow. I’ve had a browse of their pages as well, to see how they’re doing. Most of them uploaded their last post eight years ago. Some are still quite active, with an update as recent as four months ago. Or a week ago.
To be authentic and not lie about my feelings, I did post some texts which displayed melancholia of not having a lover, or longing for one. Thinking of it now, I was way too young to feel such things. Did I really feel that way? Or did I succumb to the pressure of my peers having their own partners at the age of fourteen? Am I allowed to cringe at this? Or should I give myself grace and keep into consideration that we’ve all been there?
Despite the push and pull of emotions in me, I’m happy to say that I have grown. A whole lot. To the point that it doesn’t seem like a bad idea to keep my past posts and look at it at an angle of, well, growth and maturity. After all, so many things have happened, there is always a bigger fish to fry, and people do grow!
I’ll probably continue logging my thoughts and musings, considering that Tumblr is on the somehow quiet zone of social media. Writing is my first love, after all. Maybe I will continue with the aesthetic reblogs, or reposts of things which hit close to home. I’ll have to think of my way around this site again.
Given all that, I guess I just wanted to say that it’s good to be back.
